So beautiful

Seriously.

 

Another name, another struggle.

 

Another ironic thing is i have always adviced people to have confidence in themselves all the time etc, in fact i think i'm the one lacking the most confidence in some aspects of my life. 

 

Also in some aspects of my life, to give up and to let it go is really what i tell myself most of the time.

 

"one more thing , one less thing". So people, be glad you have one weakness in your life, because you have strength that other people do not posses.

Sushi Equation

This is weird.

 

So i toke a nap this afternoon, and in the dream, i was told that when i wake up there'll be mixed rice, Miso Soup, and Unagi Sushi for dinner.

 

uhhh...wtf? and...

 

when i woke up, this equation kept popping over my head.

 

y = sin^2 ( x )

 

y = 1 - cos^2 ( x ),    let cos ( x ) = unagi sushi

 

y = 1 - ( unagi sushi )^2

 

HELP! Why is that equation still hovering over my head even untill now?! arghh!

The past and present

Yeah, the past and present.

 

Come to think about it, the "ME" back in Msia now and the "ME" back then in Singapore is so much happier. It was after all a right choice made by me, and after that 3 months+ break i toke last year, yeah i'd say its all worthwhile now.

 

I have a goal, well not exactly a goal but, as in i know what is needed to be done in my life and i will do it.

I have the freedom i want, although i have to get involve with traffic jams half an hour a day, but its really a fair trade, i like it this way now, and i get to sing out loud in the car.

I have buddies that are generally a year younger than me and...yeah...just friends and friends, no whatsoever malice intentions. (yes, i still openly bitch in front of them all the time lol )

I get to laugh once again as i did in standard 6 in primary school, yes, mad laughters everyday.

 

i got myself a life, yeah. Laugh at me being a loser of not being able to cope with Singapore's lifestyle, but i'll laugh harder at you not knowing how to enjoy your life and have to bear with that torment.

 

"Its not the years in your life that counts, but the life in your years"

 

 

Heres my swimming pool

Its here! My swimming pool's here!

 

So i got to swim for Thursday and Friday. Gosh, never felt so good in a while. For those sad loners mout there, facing stress everyday, i'd reckon you take a break and swim ( and exercize, not there to dip your feet in the water ). Oh did i mention the early morning sun-tan? its the best. Until know i still have no whatesoever idea on why do i like to swim.

 

AND...

 

Im stopping World of Warcraft! isnt that just great a news to y'all! Its expiring on May 23rd, and im not going to extend my subcription. Anyways, please do me a favor, if you catch me playing World of Warcraft after that, please point your middle finger out to me and exclaimed "FUCK YOU". Well, as far as i know i see no point in playing such a godamn screwed game, so am putting my very best effort to fend off this stupid game out from my life. Just hope that i will not succumb to temptations ( at least untill World of Wacraft : Wrath of Lich King comes out, which will probably be another half a year at least )

 

its 4pm now. Guess i'll take nap ( yes i know theres a project due on this coming Monday and an assesment for Applicable Mathematics this Thurs, but...who cares lol  )

 

Oh ya, and why are you guys making a big deal out of my calender planner? =D its just a godamn calender, just that guys are hardly that organized and im the exception =P

wheres my swim pool?

ok, so

 

I went for swimming at 2.15pm today, well actually it only opens at 3pm according to the college 's guidebook, so i tried to sneak in earlier simple because i dont want to waste another 45min waiting for it. so

 

I went to the pool, and..URGHH! Of all people, its a bunch of AUSMAT-ians there playing cards by the bench. god. so yeah, i asked why were they here ( not really a valid question tho, i mean c'mon who ask questions as those  in this situation ), said they were chilling out? and i was bombarded by the same question i threw at them. so

 

"swimming" they laughed. well they sorta didnt believe i was really out here to swim. so i changed into my swimming gears and came out of the shower room. and this cleaner over the other side of the pool said no, no way. so obviously frustrated, i went back and changed back to my normal clothings and approach that cleaner. so

 

i asked. "isnt it 3pm? its just slightly earlier". he corrected me. its 4PM! i was...urghh! this sunshine is best for sun-tanning and i'll be missing this chance again? oh!  Well actually, previously, i noticed the notice board at the swimming pool saying its open at 4pm only, but i insist its 3pm, according to the godamn guidebook. so

 

i went back to the bunch of AUSMAT-ians chilling out there and chat a little, bitching a little how i got the time mixed blablabla. and...and...and...and....also...and...and...also....URGHHH! ARGHHHH! so

 

yet another day of dissapointment.

Narcissism

Yeah, the title says it all. i'm just being perasan blablabla yadayada...BUT STILL...

 

I mean, c'mon, how often when you look at someone, you found out that the person's eyes are all fixed on you and immediately divert away when discovered? ( yes pls dont argue that, i have to look at the person in the first place to notice that.)

 

How often you noticed someone's actually looking at you when you're in a big lecture hall? (yes DO YOU KNOW that eyes sparkle exceptionally bright when two person's sights are connected? lawl )

 

Yes, i know you're with your head supported with your hand on the desk now and leaning on your chair reading this, and you'll probably go "yeah yea whatever!" or "gosh...does Lester posses a mirror? he really needs to take a good look of himself and lower his self-esteem a lil, cuz its all too sky-rockting! urghh!".

 

lol. oh c'mon, why take away the last bit of happiness away from my life? not exaclty the very last bit of it, but...you know. unless you feed on people's misfortune and soooo into sadism.

 

ANYWAYS...

 

#1 My car hit the road divider a lilttle today when i was driving. woops! who cares, its an 8 years old car =X

 

#2 i washed my car yesterday early evening. it rain in the late evening. so i got it all dried up and wiped, again. guess what? its raining now again. urghh!

 

#3 i dont get it, why is it that everytime i cook my Maggie Chicken Flavoured instant noodle in the microwave, it always spilled out? its not THAT filled with soup anyways. gosh.

 

#4 yeah, someone told me that i have very unique personality today. i was glad to hear that and i carried on with a demonstration of the proudness of my UNIQUE  personality, "yes, i like britney spears a lot". /jaw drops

 

#5 i got a new cool door for my room! it looks like hotel room now! wootz

 

 

 

words

So i watched the movie 27 Dresses on DVD yesterday and i just rewatched it today.

 

I don't know man, i felt quite the same as her in the movie a lot. As in, many times i've got so much words and thoughts and feelings i want to pour out, but all i could do is just turn away and act out a face.

 

Yeah...guess thats all. anyways get the music loaded as well, "Be Here Now" by Ray LaMontagne.