Of snails and human flesh

 

Dang what came to your mind when you see this pic?

 

"A creature of mother nature, O' god bless all the living beings on Earth"

 

"Disgusting piece of slimy things that could crawl on your very wall, and that blue disgusting secretion when you pour salt on it? urgh!"

 

Which is it? For me, it'd be "what vulnerable creature...hang on a sec, we humans are not any better honestly"

 

You've guessed it right! We're weak and vulnerable to many forms of injury. Look at all the amazing creatures dwell in the same planet as we do. Tough turtle shells that even a lion's teeth would have problem piercing through it; Or a shark's immunity system, so strong that it the probability of a shark getting cancer is almost near zero. And we human? A knife would leave us with an open wound and what came out?

 

Blood.

 

Scary isnt it? You'd think snails are the only creature with so much liquids inside their body, we're in fact not any better honestly. Nearly 60% of our body are consist of water. I think you get my point here, we're in fact very fragile creatures. Not to mention human childbirth is one of the many most difficult tasks around, due to the fact that we have brains so big that makes us so smart.

 

Just another thought today when i was swimming, i'd thought how it would be swimming side by side with a whale shark, or in a school of black marlin/swordfish. Saw it in discovery channel the other day, man actually video tapped in the open ocean with those swordfish swimming around him. Speaking of which, still it is my lifelong dream to withness a great white shark in the open sea ( and of course, behind bars in a cage ).

 

( On an entirely irrelevant side topic, i got locked in my own damn house this evening. I'd actually wanting to go out to get myself dinner, only to find that....all the damn keys have been taken by my parents and sister. Doesnt feel nice getting locked in tho honestly lol )

Shackles

Just had a game of Starcraft, and realises the enemy will not pull back their pursue...untill the last of my building burns in ashes.

 

So does my dad.

 

WHY do you have to pester me every single holiday? To work and what not. When i say this holiday is deserving for me because all the hardwork i've put in earned me this holiday, you told me "so you're going to sit in front of this machine for the entire holiday?". What and where is this coming from? Then when i said so what, i couldve just went for dish washing just to shut your damn mouth up, you said its as if you're forcing me into this.

 

Seriously, what?

 

Countless times have i told you that i cant just be taking any jobs for the sake of doing it, if then whats the point of working? Just an act to shut your mouth up? The good deal is that i get to have fucking salary, at the price of what? My happiness. My joy. My Soul. Years ago it took me great shame to fight my soul back and throw away all the glory, now you want my soul to get scarred again? Why are people in my family just cannot stand me being happy and what not? My sibling is another whenever i achiev good results.

 

Fuck it, really.

 

I am so sick of all these shits already. Do i look like an ingrate to you? Of all the luxury i have do i still whine, complain, asking for much much more? Because im telling you i really dont think so, you are the one not being grateful enough to bear a child like me!

 

Look at all the dumb fucks around who messes all day and not study.

Look at all the spoiled kids nowadays that cant do a single housework, let alone handling all the housekeeping matter at home.

Look at all the overly protected, overly dependant kids who cant take care of themselves and handle their own matter. E.g. Travelling independantly.

Look at all the critters childrens who lived an unhealthy lifestyles. Smoking, drinking, car racing and noisy car exhaust pipes.

 

At an age of 20 you're still very much treating me like a primary school kid, not understanding the fact that given one container can only fit so many things, and given the presence of a type of object in the cointainer, the other type must be ejected. "One more thing, one less thing", you're being...*inhale*

 

FUCKING greedy. I tell you what now, i'll just REFUSE to work now. You should get a taste of what other type of kids have got to "offer" you, because i tried communicating to you, and i see the utter complete fultility now.

Nothing

Sometimes, during the busiest days of my life, or in any dire shit situation that i've got myself into, i really just feel like dumping everything behind, pack my bags and head to places as such.

 

 

and just sit down there, think of nothing and do nothing. Clear my mind off a while, and feel the insignificance of myself in this planet Earth. Thats why occasional holidays with moderate durations are good for our souls. ( "What about 3 months holidays then?!" ---- "Its still all good for me =D" )

Doesn't mean anything

Holiday is good, only bad thing is the rain stopped. Some ppl are clusterphobic, but i guess i'm a little clusterphillic. I like confined small spaces, feels safe. During rainy days i would occasionally look out when i leave my always addictive computer for a drink. Feels cozy really.

 

So this holiday nothing much, i went up Genting Highland with a bunch of friends. Seems like it really doesnt matter where we go, its really who is going haha. Arrived the lastest to the bus station, 7 of them are alrdy there waiting. Up the bus we go, and not even 500metres and it broke down already. Oh wells, the replacement bus came right after that and we headed for the skyway. Headed for Resort Hotel and ken's aunt is a real nice lady, got us our rooms. The insane 4 are grouped in one room, and the sane 4 are grouped in another. First day didnt do much, only thing i remembered is Whiskey/Coke mixer and then a sleepless night.

 

Next, first thing off is breakfast at resort buffet, followed by bombing in Nagasaki (the insanne room) and Hiroshima (the sane one). First thing we took in outdoor is Cockscrew. Or whatever the spelling is, it sounded wrong tho haha. On the side note, the vehicles are brand new ones, and i'd thought i would throw up after the ride but i didnt. I'm lester, i'm good. Then we went for the kiddy tea cup. Mark tried to spin the cup and had me vomit, then again he was the one who had to go back to his room and vomit. I'm lester, i'm good. ( in your face mark! )

 

Tian went back also, and i think both mark and him had planned this all along. Sheez lol. But the rest of us went around...antique cars, dinosaur land, bumper car, motion master and an immediate detour upon seeing the sign "45min queue from this point onwards" in the badly air ventilated room. Then couple of us went back room, jiayean mark and i. Halfway the other of them detached from us ( they actually went for ferris wheel ) while i rushed back to my room and dived in my cozy blanket. After some rest we washed up, and headed for Coffee Terace. Before that i would like to extend my thanks to sean for his awesome HeadnShoulder conditioner shampoo. Wow feels gd sia my hair haha. And we get to dined in at the awesome restaurant which...your eyes could hardly finishing feasting on all the food there with one big glance, let alone stuffing all the food down your stomach.

 

Had a walk in the misty night, then more whiskey and lots of talk. And then the last day and so on and so forth~i'm getting lazy to blog, things arent mean to be listed down so much.

 

We're suppose to keep memories only in our mind, and only the BESTEST memories. I'd do that, because that way i know i could look foward, without worrying or having to look back because i know, the past is not filled with uncertainties like the future holds, it already have fulfilled promises, and gives me a kind of feeling - i was complete.

 

2009 is a good year for me really. I seriously did not hated this year nor the environment, even if i had, its for a brief moment due to occasional shits. I like my freedom and all now, and actually wanted to prolong my present to forever. But oh wells, some things dont last, most of them in fact, and stop patronizing me tho really, i'm fully aware of the fact that people move on and such, so whenever i said "i wish things could stay the way they are now", im not asking you for your hell-you-think-you're-wiser advices, a simple "hmm" or silence will just do really.

 

...i wish things could stay the way they are now...

really. I <3 you all.

 

 

500 Days of Summer

 

This is not a love story, this is a story about boy meets girls. Almost as equally quoted in the movie. Its a very sentimental movie, about how love should all about fate and coincidences...

 

...but i guess, without the coincidences we wouldnt have had the opportunity to make a choice, so in order for us to be in a position to decide between two options, doesnt that require a coincidence all the time?

 

"If tom had learned anything

it was that you cant ascribe great cosmic significance

to a simple earthly event.

 

Coincidence,

Thats all anything ever is,

nothing more than coincidence."

 

A sentimental movie, the kind which i kind of like to watch it alone, or rather an environment which i could be left undisturbed. I don't know, this movie put a smile on my face...cant exactly explain why.

My keeper

Watched the movie My Sister's Keeper, a pretty sentimental movie with lots of drama. Although i must say i'm pretty surprised that Cameron Diaz would pick up such a role in such a movie, an overprotective mother of her own dying child. Suffering from cancer, Kate decides to liberate her little sister Anna of role of being a "donor-child", which was what happened early in the movie when Anna filed a sue against her parents and wanted to be medically emancipated.

 

Pretty good movie, worth a watch. Unless you're really not into drama and such, you may find the numerous flashbacks occured in the minds of the various characters in the movie boring. Otherwise, its a pretty touching one. =D

 

thats all folks! and my exams are drawing near. Hey, i shd be studying right? lol

Home or not

Just had a conversation with my mom, and i cant shake the feeling off that i actually wanted to tell her

 

"Just go away and leave me alone already"

 

for the entire course of the conversation. Then i recalled seeing my friend kissed his mom every morning before leaving his house. Also friends who prefer to stay home most of the time rather than going out, dining with their families everyday, so then i could already draw a clear distinction between myself and people like them.

 

Its different, our lifestyles. I had dinner outside alone all the time. I came back home 8-9pm+ and still find house's in darkness and empty most of the time. I dont talk to my parents much, am always in this isolated world of mines.

 

I have too much of something called independence. Can you see the negativity in it now?