Somethings Sometimes

Seriously theres nothing much going on recently, except for some REAL dumb things happened.

 

Yesterday my class was at 11am. So i followed my routine, waking 2 hours early prior to the starting of my class etc. Brush up etc, have breakfast and toke me leave. On the way i was pleased with myself cuz theres finally one day in a week i could arrive early to my Uni, and instead of having my lectureres waiting for me i could wait for them in front of the lecture halls. Guess what? Massive traffic jam. I could barely move 500metres in half an hour. I was extremely furious and infruiated by the fact that...the one day i could finally not end up IN TIME for classes - ruined. So you know the usual me, started getting onto boiling point etc. Towards my arrival to the carpark, i never make such haste and walked that fast up the stairs. Finally in front of the Lab - Why O' why are there no one? I pondered around a little ( and was 20min late ) and even checked with the technicians inside. Dissapointed so i started calling my friends, turns out - Labs are cancelled for the first week.

 

Fuck my life.

 

Then again today, with the fresh pleasant mind, i arrived EARLY to Uni today and attempted to get my LAN Compulsary Subjects Exemptions done. Having thought that i could proceed without submitting the LAN Syllabus ( which could only be obtained from my former college ), i made my way towards Uni. 3 quaters in the journey, i hesitated and double-checked with my friend. Turns out? I actually do need the syllabus. So i made a detour and walked all the way back under the hot scorching Sun. All sweaty and finally arrived my former college's Registry Office, i prompted another stupid question again.

 

" Is Ms Meena around?"

 

The counter lady gave me a very sarcastic "Yes" and i was pretty annoyed by that. TURNS OUT?! Ms Meena is just right beside her sitting, and silly me i didnt even notice her. Blame her heights, whatever, its seriously not my fault for not noticing her. So i showed her my certs and obtained the syllabus for 2 of my LAN subjects, and the fact that i didnt have the cert for Msian Studies physically present, she couldnt give me the syllabus. I was extremely

 

DISTURBED.

 

Well what could i do? So i walked off and back to my Uni ( it was a very long walk seriously ). First thing i did was to walk to the library, and find a nice sofa seat and enjoy the cooling air-con, well i knew myself too much, i know i had to cool myself down before i explode on someone. ".........lester". Haha i bumped into Nicole with her lappie. Chat a little with her, caught up with her a little, and vent my anger a little. Well could always use a pair of ears really. So yeah, after the day i went back and searched for my Msian Studies cert.

 

 I cant find it! How is this even humanly poosible?! My things are always tidy and deep down in my head i know where EXACTLY theyre placed. It rilled me up a lot i swear, and pissed me off to the very core of course whenever i know its something im GOOD at, and reality proofed me otherwise. My minds literally cant settle down for the whole day, and untill now i still cant settle down. That is one factor, another is...what if i really cant recover it and they wouldnt allow a reprint of it? Would i really have to redo it? Stress is what im experiencing now. Well it shdnt be that much of a big deal really, but oh well since its downright something shouldnt had happened to a clean-freak, it really start saturating my veins with adrenaline now.

 

Now thats the bad part of it, your past worries and stress are like wooden logs stacking onto each other, once a flare is sparked off, you can bet your ass its going to be a HUGE bonfire. Then more thoughts flowed in, cuz for the past weeks my mind been kinda blank, there ware hardly any deep thoughts going on. I started to be a bit worriesome, academically. Thats why i kinda make it a point to revise daily for my studies. That isnt very much like myself, one was that im actually that disciplined, another was that i'm getting worriesome so easily. Bad.

 

Another is...well what i usually felt all the time. You can measure my confidence level in acedemic and the meter will go exploding because its usually skyhigh ( which brings me back to my first point, i am actually getting worried over studies ), but when comes to my outlook appearance, i'm always feeling timid. Well no worries its a typical homosapien syndrome anyways, most people felt that way over themselves most of the time. I dont know is it really out of modesty or what, enlighten me pls. But i mean c'mon, its hardly the thing bugging you down all the time right? So when it does, which is i am now, its kinda a big deal haha. Looking at all the good looking guys around, i felt very much inferior to them somehow. Maybe i'm A BIT more lonely as compared to my previous college life where everywhere were swarmed with my friends and i felt less-alienated to things around me. Takes time i guess, im pretty sure i'll get back to the same state as i did.

 

Its nothing much really, just something i wont say out IRL, and thoughts that ran inside my head only. "Dude, wouldnt blogging attract more publicity?" haha oh wells people hardly bump by my blogs so for the least, heard by fewer people. Meantime, i could really use a place to talk shits out haha. I like my blog really, sometimes once in a blue moon i looked back at my previous entries that were made years ago, pretty fun to read my thoughts at that time.

 

So yeah, that is all. Laters.