Spring clean-ups

I guess I should include plurality into the term "clean-up", since it only involes iTunes.

However I must stress that doing clean-up for my iTunes library for the first time, is serious major and my library went through some major overhaul. Many of those songs were simply bad and since I've imported my sister's music collection the first time I've got my iPod, I've never really checked the songs. Only sorted their name / artist in a tidy fashion. Realized there are tons of HORRIBLE songs sitting in my iPod when I put my iPod on shuffle a lot recently.

Want to guess how many songs I've deleted off my library?

147 songs...leaving exactly 2150 songs behind. Adding couple more songs shortly after this, was pretty surprised to find that many songs were in fact not in my library, which means downloading time and searching the decades old CDs for them.

Oh wells, anything for my iPod. Well I'm somewhat tired now after running through 2100+ songs, of course I skipped the obvious but for the rest I really did listen song by song, not the full duration of course, and this post has so many sentences that are...not really making any sense. What? Wait...nevermind. 

/yawn

No news means good news

The past few days have been pretty entertaining, and believe ir ot not, they all have to do with birthdays.

First off, of course I finally got my Electronic Confirmation of Enrolment. Thats good news, REAL good news. Turns out they are really sloppy at work, and you need to constantly bug them and remind them in order to get the stuff you want. Sad as it as, they appear to be more sloppy at work than...nevermind.

Right. First off is Sean's birthday with my university course mates. I think i mentioned in an earlier post but whatever. The pathetic cake. The jelly actually slide all the way down, just like what a landslide would seem. Well I get to shop before I head to have dinner with them, brought my DSLR as well to take some pics. The chatter was awsome, I cannot even begin to fathom life without friends and chatter. 

It would suck. Big time.

Oh they went for Batting, its like baseball. Oh wells, I dont do sports. Least thats what I told everyone, although the real reason behind is I dont wanna sweat and then head to a nice air-conditioned restaurant and dine in there. I wouldnt be able to enjoy as much as I would, sounds a bit like OCD, but I assured its not. Its just that...I'm clean? =)

Next off! Ai May's birthday with all my primary classmates. Well I wouldnt deny the fact that being with them felt very much like family. Like there is very little "formality". Everyone had that "make yourself at home" feel right off the bat. Well, I guess of course most of us have been together for some 3 years at least? Not to mention two of them were classmate of mines for 8 years.

EIGHT. YEARS. 

Well we had buffet steamboat at MoMo Paradise, and of course my friend JiaHao and I were always the most punctual whilst the rest...lets not get into that =P. Haha whats so shameful is that I do not even know such restaurant exists even tho I literally live in its neighbourhood, and it was quite a decent restaurant. 

Had a lot of laughter, like A LOT. From excessively asking "ada chicken wing?" to cake pranks to prostitution in Singapore. It was good.

Next up! Brenda's birthday. And yes thats clearly not a cake. I wonder when will anyone come up with an alcoholic cake, because they have ice-cream cakes already. I cannot help but emphasize again how punctual I am. Well to be fair I aint exactly on time, but the rest are just later than me haha.  Brenda's birthday is not exactly the usual cozy ones!

Just some insight into how we usually hang out, I actually drove to her house and was doubtful whether is it really her house or not. I actually called her and asked her whats her house number, confirmed it and she questioned why I doubted myself, so I said

"I guess its maybe I've never seen your house in bright daylight before"

We're night animals. But yeah, we went Jaya One and had steamboat buffet again, AGAIN. But it doesnt really bother me, its still good food anyways and I'm serious deprived of that. After that its some serious drinking. Alcohol is serious business, kids! Along with some really crazy laughter in her house. I particularly liked that drinking game, where guoyaw my drinking is tied together. 

I shall note this down here haha. So we draw cards and certain punishment/rules are bound by the 13 different type of cards from the deck. So GuoYaw is the question master. At anytime anyone answers his question, he'll have to take a sip from the drink. And I have the card that bounds guoyaw with me that whenever I drink, he'll have to drink as well. In addition to all that, guoyaw drew that card that allows him to make a certain rule, and he ruled it that whenever he drinks, I'll have to drink. You go figure out how many times both of us have to drink. This is some serious business, especially I purposely answered his question every now and then.

All and all its been pretty fun these few days. I guess I was right to have changed my attitude towards holiday. Like I should rush to plan an event or something, just sit back and whenever it feels right, we'll just go hang out. I really like this holiday. AND I really have to eat what I love to eat before I head to Aus. 

And...I know I cannot start a sentence with "and" but I just couldnt help it. AND yeah i guess that is all, and the blog's wallpaper need some serious refurnishing.

Military action

Hello? This is not some military action or plan okay, can I have something according to plan for once?

My course transfer process. Yes blame me for handling it late, but hey I'm not at all to be faulted for this shit okay, why do people had it easy whilst my parents took two weeks plus to get the bank draft ready. I understand that we're talking about huge sum of money in Australian dollar, but hey, if we were to count every penny spent here and there for transaction charges, we'll never get the money across.

Then here I am now, waiting for my eCOE from the office in Clayton so I could apply my visa. Yeah I'd hope it could go the way just like everyone gets it, within a week for the completion of visa.

Then the STA travel, of all people to email and make phone calls they actually missed me out and set me on a panic mode. So I called and I'm nowhere lagging behind. Thank you. You really made my day, bitch.

Then there's hostel accomodation to be settled, another sum of money to be paid and another form to be submitted. Visa, another set of forms to be filled and another sum of money to be paid. Flight, another sum of money to be paid and registration at KrisFlyer to get the additonal 10kg worth of luggage allowance. Perhaps I would need to register at the Monash website as well to get airport reception upon my arrival. In addition to all these overwhelming stuff going around, I noticed the hostel expects us only on the 19th of Feb, meaning, we need to make arrangement for our early arrival which is on the 13th Feb. There is also enrollment to be done at the campus and I need to choose a specialty in chemical engineering. Bio, Nano or Processing. Another thing I need to do my homework prior to my enrollment date. 

I don't know. Its just like, I never expected it to be THIS troublesome. Like there could be so many problems, even the most straight forward things could cause me problems and put a halt to my progress. And I'd hate to hear any rantings from people who had it easier, dont let me hear a damn word you lucky bastards.

I really need to take a breather now. Geez.

Update: 15th December

I was right! Everything that could have gone wrong, have went wrong. I dont understand why am I the only one with so much problem regarding my application to transfer to Clayton. I'm speaking from a very honest point of view, and I have done my fair share of asking around and inquiring the status of others' application status. I had to call Clayton campus in Australia today to verify my application, and indeed, they've not received anything.

I hate to say this, and I definitely hate to blurt such things out. But seriously-

Monash Sunway Campus, what the fuck are you doing? Which part of me submitting my application to you on the 8th December, gave you insufficient room to properly send it to Clayton and get it done until the 15th? If you're not confident that you could get the job done, dont offer it! Jesus Christ! I sent everything and leave everything in your hands because I'd thought you guys could get the job done faster and also in a more reliable manner than myself sending the application through email.

You're an utter joke. Period. Your efficiency at work puts even the most experienced performer at for the TV show Whose Line Is It Anyways on a laughter. You are such a letdown. Don't get me to even begin on how the school fees not properly reflecting the education standards. I was dumb for trying to cover your ass whenever I bumped into such topics with my mates.

My offer lapse date is on the 17th, and I had to resend the application myself this time, straight to Clayton's International Recruitment Services. This had better be going as I intended, else wise you jolly well be ready to risk everything to cover my ass.

shopping

As sad as it sounds, i think i actually did my homework before i head to shopping. I sorta walked right straight into the shop knowing exactly what I wanted to buy. Something I've sorta wanted for a while even though it still cost a lot.

Oh yes. Converse. Black leathery ones. I love it because its plain. Yes you've heard me, because its plain! And I could seriously wear this pair of sneakers and fit it with all sorts of pants. Aint that awesome. Besides, I've always liked sneakers, and Converse particularly. Im actually somewhat sad to realized to find out that my other pair of sneakers, had its colour faded so badly that I could barely recognize it from the shelves. But its ok! I'll still love you! But yeah, this pair cost me some RM190 or so, which it took me less than 5min to decide. Well after all, like i said I've done my homework. Actually surfed Converse's official online webpage and browsed through all the sneakers. Had a crush on this particular one for quite a while.

Now its all left to Levi's Jeans. Theres a new 591, but sadly its no in Malaysia yet. Not sure whether I'll pick that or 514's Big and Tall ones, they looked pretty good too. I need to have 591 in the store to do the comparisons, the rest just looked like a carpenter's pants to me. Period.

Oh, also had dinner with tons of people for Sean's belated birthday celebration. It was some nice catching up with people, especially TianHui whom I hadnt talked to for...quite a long while haha. 

I did realize something though during dinner, like although I really do like the company and the chatter and catching up going on the table, there some part of me deep inside, actually wanted to have some solitary. For some odd reason. I dont know what exactly drives me into becoming such a person, but i can sort of feel it has got something to do with...maybe I shall not mention it. I aint all too sure about it as well. 

Oh by the way, Facebook movie is pretty good to watch. Although i think my friend to my left sorta fell asleep during the movie. Guess its just me, and i guess thats all for today. 

Lester, signing off here.

Lies

So today I went Genting for some chillaxing. It was somewhat a sudden suggestion but I'm alright to it because im just so incredibly adaptive free.

Period. I dont know what else to say seriously haha. Other than that I think the next thing that comes to my mind that is worth mentioning is probably the bus driver's crazy driving. Oh yeah I did have some disagreements for the trip but oh wells, better than none else wise this thing called "friendship" would seem abnormal.


Thats all folks!


Not really. I lied. I actually wanted to talk about something else but I guess its too risky to just put it outside, but i guess also I dont want to hide my entire blog just because of this one entry. Cool method to use this javascripts to hide it. Also I dont like to show all my emoness and all, yes its cool to express it once in a while, but if you do it all too often it really do says a lot about your personality.

Anyways I have heard people giving up on love in a matter of months. Seriously you could do that? I'd want you to teach me how to do it if you're really liking a person. Today somewhat my friends and I were talking about meaning of our names.

周立恒.

Thats my chinese name. So we were discussing how inaccurate our names are most of the time. The center character means independence, which I've clearly achieved. The last is perseverance, which to some extent I find it conflicting after I said its inaccurate. I dont understand. You call that love? How can you just give up on it just like that? Two months? It took me great effort and yet i cannot shake that feeling off. The same feeling for the same person, since day 1 you met each other. No matter how hard I try shaking it off, the next time the both of you come face to face, all the "Its not worth wasting my time on" and "I already gave up" went right down into the drain I'm tellin ya. All the feelings you think, yes YOU THINK you've buried it 8 feet down immediately surges from the ground and swarm your entire entity.

That is the situation I'm in, for nearly 2 years. Then I'm hearing people that could give up in months. I'm not judging honestly, I just dont understand. I'm not dying to learn the technique to do it, because that fire that resides in your heart just wouldnt die off, and theres always that tiny part of you who would NEVER give up until the very last moment.

Its to a large extent a very excruciating struggle. All the crazy poets and their exaggeration about love, now seemed to all make sense to me now. Well, you'd probably be asking why am I still not making the move, that's because it'd be deflecting my own moral compass to to break up a person's relationship. I'm not saying I'd win over, which is why I am struggle to tell myself to just, gosh, just give up and it just wouldnt die! I wouldnt want to make the confrontation as well because I'd just want things the way they are now, and I really dont want to create an atmosphere of utmost awkwardness the next time we meet each other.

Its a dilemma, a situation that seemingly could only happen in TV drama. However here I am now, with all these difficulties. Its tiring as well, because...I dont know what to call it, my folly or my very soul just will not give in to any obstacle, and it does not know what my mind's limit it and its taking a toll on my mind. Everything evolves around the person. Everyday, almost without fail, the first 5 things that gets to your mind is the person's face. Being the first is just plain lying, because you might really get awaken by something and you'd think about the noise first.

So yes you can say I'm in the world of pain now, at the same time...you cant call this torment really, its really really wonderful at the same time to be able to fall in love with somebody. Read carefully, I did not say "Step into love", i said "Fall". The center of gravity is no longer in your grasp. So yes, call me a lovetard or what, yes I did had only one relationship in the past and its major failure haha, but this is definitely something more. Much much more. Now I think i could understand a little more how some people in the past, during war times could wait for their loved ones for years. All the sacrifices they have made, willingly for their loved ones.

Well, actually I just couldnt find anyone to pour all these feelings out to and I really need an outlet. SAVING THIS AS DRAFT DOES NOT HELP AT ALL! Posting this somewhat in a hidden manner serves A LOT like an outlet to me really, as in I really do feel like i have let it out. I probably wouldnt like anyone reading this except only a FEW ( I guess you know who you are =D ) who knows a GREAT deal of me at the same time, which on the complete opposite I'd want to talk about. Of course, let alone you bringing the topic out loud and interrogating me the details. Phew, i feel so much better now.

umm, my skin actually felt itchy tonight, for some odd reason. I know, its random haha.

Why can't I breathe

Been a long while since I've posted anything. Partly because when holiday kicks in, everything started becoming real sloppy. Well, im not obligated to rush or get anything done in such a hurry anyways, why else would it be called a holiday anyways. 

Not many interesting things have been happening since the beginning of my holiday, neither is anything so depressing that it would crack my day up. Not saying there aren't any depressing thoughts at all, just that I've decided quite a while ago that I shall refrain of making any saddening posts, be it here or in Facebook. It just goes to say what kind of person you really are. Well, nobody gives a damn anyways. At least for me, towards people who have a habit of complaining stuff on a daily basis.

I'd probably going to get my internship going, but oh gosh my hands are so heavy whenever I'm going to bring myself to type that resume.

Besides, this holiday I have not been planning anything significant for myself and my friends. Probably feeling pretty exhausted of doing so.

Oh wells, so far I've been doing nothing and probably something I wanted to do for this holiday. I just want to take some time off for myself, and spend some time with myself and catch my breath.

I am my own compass.

The compass always points to the north. The human's compass points in various direction. Wheres yours pointing?

Again, its always during examination period where people have ample time at home to study and be with themselves, and that is when a lot of question starts popping out. Our quest, as student, was of course to strive excellence in the academic field. Get a good grade, a distinction, or even a high distinction.

Where as it seemed to be a easy task for some people to obtain a HD, whilst it appeared to be a very difficult task for somebody as well. I am that somebody. I wont deny the truth that, I am in fact still incapable of securing a HD after nearly 2 years have elapsed since the start of University. It seemed too much a shame sometimes. I will not deny the fact that I do secretly envy the clever students around a lot, whilst some really has nothing much to be envious about because their character just blows.

It makes me wonder really, what these people will have to go through to obtain the grades. All the time, effort, and a whole long list of other things they've sacrificed for the grades. Because, I'm telling you for the effort I've put in the get a minimum three Distinctions a semester left me pretty much exhausted and drained after the examination. To think that if I were to put in the extra effort to push the grade up to HD, I'd die. Well of course that is exaggeration. So here am I thinking, is HD really all that is too our lives right now? Of course its a "No", and for those who came up with the answer within a split second, think again.

Digress for a minute, i know its random.
To all the guys out there who have judged other girls, I'd invite you to look at yourself in the mirror first. I'll keep my mouth shut if you're downright a good deal, but I'm sorry, you looked like fuck in the first place. So stfu and L2Respect each other.

Back to the topic. So I'm just thinking, if you're constantly tied down by your affiliation currently and devote all your time to it, and, if and only if, this never ends, what time would you have left for yourself? 5 or 10 years down the road you probably would be one of the many people around that regretted for not enjoying the past times of their lives. Yeah you could disagree on that and I'd give it to you because my intention was never to force these ideas down your gut. Only on one condition.

I do not want to hear your whining whatsoever, at all. No broadcast how FML your life is. Seriously, I admit I used to be a complain-machine, but now that I've learned not to and saw the light to it, it feels sickening to see when people complains. Yes its really fine if you've got into a car accident etc, but if you were about to complain about things like you falling ill or getting a gastric all day everyday? I'm sorry that is just plain voice pollution, or rather, aesthetic pollution since its all over Facebook nowadays.

So finally here I am to my thoughts today. Let me just make it real simple.

I'd rather get three Distinctions, and be happy. 

Stressed desserts

Its been nothing much for the, i dont know past few weeks.

Actually there are. Peer pressure got a hang of me and I'm under a lot of stress. Doing my best no longer counts, its doing well what counts. It sucks, when you've seemingly put in a tons of effort and the results are satisfactory most of the time, well, at least until you started viewing other's.

So I've really been studying, staying at home etc. Only today, when the seemingly nice weather gave me hell. Just got my hair wet by the rain for like less than 10seconds and now I'm already down with fever. Thank goodness its only a mild one where I could get some rest and recover, hopefully. So much for praising the cool weather for the past few days.

I actually missed a couple of things earlier and was lazy to note it down here. E.g. my auntie from HongKong came down and brought their local delight, "wife cake". Also theres this one Sunday i had to babysit my sis and her bf's little dog until the night. Right there and then I realized I really couldnt stand having a dog in my household. Only puny ones like hamster of fish strictly kthxbye.Furthermore there is this one day, hmm, make it two days I've gotten quite worked out with a subject, Heat and Mass Transfer (CHE2163's the unit code). Just an insight into the subject, the past year paper only had 2 pages worth of questions, and then the rest of the 10 pages were filled with formulas. Yes, by formulas I meant formulas. All alphabets and numbers. Good thing is my efforts are finally paying off, at least I could get the majority of the question solved as opposed to having to have to look at solution and still spend 10min deciphering their working. 

Right now i guess I'm just waiting for the food in my stomach to digest a little more before heading to bed. Life sucks, just sometimes.

1,2,3 and 5

It means random, if you're still tilting your head sideways and frown with much confusion.

Just a couple of things, i guess i'm just hyped with my new blog hence more frequent entries are seen. Firstly, I lied. I clearly wanted some other wallpaper. So I've found another one and god knows how long this one is going to stay. 

Digress. I've finally gotten my very own DSLR camera simply because I'll be bringing one with me when I'm going Australia. My initial plan was not to bring one with me, after much consultation, i came to the conclusion that bringing a DSLR over is the situation a condom can get you into. Yes, the seemingly vocabulary mistake you've spotted is indeed not a mistake. Its the situation of "better to have one when you dont need it, rather than not having one when you needed one".

Everything is second handed material. The body itself is a second hand with ONLY a measly 600 shutter count. Well shutter counts are like a car's mileage, they are some form of a measure to its age. Basically 1 shutter count - 1 shot. The lens is a 18-200mm VRII lens. So actually i did clean it up a little. The screen protector is glass and i put it on myself, yes, I'm pro enough to do it haha. The strap is not the original strap because the original one would have no elasticity AT ALL. Its a pain to your shoulder, so I've gotten myself another strap. Very comfortable indeed, and it has that little curve to match your shoulder's dimension. Very smart indeed. Of course, not forgetting the UV filter I've added to protect the lens as well. Thats all about it. 

Digress. Just wanted to show how ordinary my lunch sometimes can be. 

(Oh did I also mention I had this lunch setup, because I found out basically I've overspent for the past few weeks?)

Its more waiting than eating than cooking than washing. Its all the pasta's fault. It takes 10min plus to be fully cooked whilst everything else is nearly instant. The scramble egg which took me less than 3min to make. The pasta sauce from supermarket. The black pepper hotdog from supermarket which I just dump them in the boiling water along with the pasta. Top it off with a cup of coffee, and thats my lunch. 

Digress. This spectacles. Actually works.

(Introducing the 101 Spectacles to view things like a fruit fly)

DO NOT, I repeat, DO NOT look down on this thing. It actually works and last time round when i was still in secondary school, it actually managed to reduce my eyesight degree significantly, but of course not until it could render my 100degree spectacles useless.

Digress. Blogging on blogspot is actually a much more pleasant experience than Windows Live. Yes windows live, you can suck on it.

exfoliate

So, windows live finally offered an alternative to windows live blog. It sucks, if you want my honest opinion. So i was hopping they couldve offered a transfer to blogspot but no, they chose Wordpress instead. Yeah you've probably heard that before but I wouldnt place a bet on wordpress. It just doesnt look as promosing as blogspot. So to hell with it, i actually spent 2 hour or so figuring and searching around on how to transfer all my entries since 2006 over. You've gotta thank windows live for letting you to export your old blog tho.

Here I am, finally using Blogspot. Here marks the beginning of Blogspot.

Havent been posting entries for a while. Actually after the Monash ball event i did a surgery and had my wisdom tooth removed. With the combined help of sedation and local anesthetic, i actually fell asleep right after the injection and woke up realizing they were cleaning up already. What comes after that is both infuriating and annoying. It took me 5 full days for the swell to shrink to a acceptable shape, and 2 full weeks untill i could remove 8 out of 9 of my stitches. Its probably a month plus from then, and its nothing nice to blog about so I did not make a long ass blog about it.

Heaps of assignments and mountain-high of reports came clashing down like a tsunami not long after the surgery. However as of today i'm officially relieved of all these torturous assignments. Thank goodness, i could finally lock myself at home and enters the panic mode.

One particular thing, of all things bothers me a lot. My work attachment. I dont know why it actually bothers me a lot whenever i thought of it, in terms of unpredictability. I've got the idea of working for a month during this year end's break and the remaining two months during the end of Year 3. Well, things dont always pan out the way you want and employers nowadays would of course want you to work a minimum of 2 months. Along with a lot of limitation, also comes the worry that if i failed to get my 3 months done before my final examination, my graduation would be delayed. In all honesty, I really do want to wear that graduation hat with everyone else at the same time.

So it really riled me up a lot. Actually got me thinking, is there something more to me than what I am now? Is there it to all we will be doing for our lives? I guess my emotion at this point of time is really like the background image. I always had a goal. It sounds silly but a quote in Twilight : Eclipse is actually darn good.

"When we were five, they asked us what we wanted to be when we grew up. Our things were answers like astronaut, president, or in my case, princess. When we were ten, they asked us again. We answered - rock star, cowboy, or in my case, gold medalist. But now that we’ve grown up, they want a more serious answer. Well, how about this...Who the hell knows? This isn’t a time to make hard and fast decisions. This is the time to make mistakes. Take the wrong train and get stuck somewhere chill. Fall in love - a lot. Major in philosophy because there’s no way to make a career out of that. Change your mind. Then change it again because nothing is permanent. So make as many mistakes as you can. That way, someday, when they ask again what we want to be. We won’t have to guess. We’ll know"

I'm just not at that stage yet to know what i want. Maybe because im still detesting the idea of working too much right now all because im constantly labeling myself as a student. I know there comes a time where I'll need to work, when that time comes I will work. Meantime, I just want to do what I am suppose to do now. Perhaps I should revise my opinions, maybe I should look at the job attachment at a completely different angle. Who knows.

Monash Ball

Yes my best shot for the Monash Ball 2010. I did have a lot of fun, maybe because my secondary school's prom sucks because its not a prom and because its a boy's school, and Sunway College's graduation night just blows. So you can say its finally a dream come true for me, and i've never spent so much time shopping. 1Utama twice, Pyramid twice, and MidValley twice. Of course i did not coming back with harvest all the time, most of the time i went home empty handed but its a good insight into the current trend.
So i got my coat from TopMan with size 40 and shirt M size. Was taking L size initially but realized its too baggy so went for something slimmer. Belt's and undergarment's the same haha. I particularly love the pants, its from Sub, maybe because its size 34 (read earlier post) and i could fit it just well and i really love the slim cutting. Sub made a huge overhaul of their concept recently and i had the impression of their lala style untill i passed by the Sub concept store in SunwayPyramid, and i was stunned to find out - they have everything to my cup of tea. At least it made me feel like i DO HAVE AN ASS. Didnt get to see the shoes, HushPuppies leather shoes. Gosh you've got no idea how long i've spend shopping for shoes. Its a good 1 hour+ in the same department store section, the shoes either did not come with the size i want, or theyre simply ugly. Size 11, i finally found one! Got the socks right after that and im all prepared. Tie's from MyTieShop.

The whole outfit was pretty much a huge bet placed by myself. I know right away i wanted a formal looking blazier with more than just black colour, and i'd love to get a hand on the exact one i was wearing. Always had that imagine in my head just need to shop and hunt for it. Lucky me, i've found it. Actually i've spent a lot more time searching for it, untill the last shop with vincent and voon, i saw another guy put that blazier on and i was like "How could i have missed that?" because i was in TopMan earlier in the day. Shirt's the same thing. Pants i knew all along as well i dont want to have boring baggy slacks. Condition is not to have normal slack quality pants, and no baggy ones. So the hunt begun and i knew right away i could find one in Sub. I like the quality of the pants, its slightly leathery but has the jeans feel to it. It could really look formal and playful at the same time. For the shoes i know for my height i could not wear short tipped shoes, i have to get leather shoes with lengthen tips. Furthermore i dont want it to be plain black and with straps, i hate it, and i want some metal "thingy" to it. So i found one that i could just slip it in, with the silver tag in front with the brand name. Tie's cake. So yeah i have the image in my mind but god knows how it would turn out when i put everything together. And boy what a relieve, it did turn out good after all haha.

Satisfactory rating - 9.7 out of 10
Cost for the entire outfit? You dont want to know, but thank godness i've been saving for it so yeah.

Ball was just typical. Hell when they mentioned theyre up fro drinking afterwards at Library i'd thought its a club. Hell? Its a bar. I was like OH NO BUT I WANTED TO DANCE TONIGHT. Sat down regardless with tons of friends and enjoyed the talk. More like yelling for me. You know, the typical me got tipsy very fast. Somehow i ended up on a table with free flow of beer and ended up singing madly with bunch of people.
It was fun, at least in my definition of it, and at least for me. I did notice a few people have dissapeared, some went back earlier, some were actually feeling bored and were moving around and around trying to settle down, some threw up, and god knows what else. Oh wells, welcome to night life with night animals like me.

FUN NIGHT REGARDLESS, I ENJOYED THE COMPANY AND THE FUN A LOT!!

......Yeahhhhhhhh. Thats pretty much how i ended up. haha.

Fat

 

That, is of course NOT my body. However you should already have an idea whats today's entry will be about. FAT-ness!

 

I've been skinny all my life, never once fat, never once told im fat, and never looked fat. So yeah i went shopping yesterday in 1Utama for my Monash Ball outfit, wasnt very lucky, and so i went walking all by my own. Can you imagine, the entire mall has not a light-grey seemingly washed-out slim jeans that i could fit in? Every store i walk past i could literally hear the clothes and dummies point their finger and grasp their stomach while drown in laughter of my....fat-ness.

 

Seriously? One of the salesperson even indirectly told me i cant fit into one of the slim jeans with just one glance. SERIOUSLY? I must admit i was left pretty much devastated after yesterday. I couldnt find anything, can you imagine, 1Utama, and went home empty handed. Even my dad got couple of things geez.

 

So today went MidValley with 2Vs. Topman has a nice slim jean, but hell, size 34! GEEZ! I'm like just 1inch bigger or something and i relaly liked the jeans. DAMNIT! I couldnt bother to go into the details but yeah these two days hasnt been kind to me. I guess im like at the size of 35.5 or something, and the thing is when i feel my waist there aint no fats, i could feel my bone only.

 

Oh no, you mean because of my height and bone structure i could never fit in those awesome looking slim jeans? NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! ITS NOT FAIR.

 

P.S. basically im feeling to crappy to paragraph them nicely and mention all the details. urgh.

Photography

Its a tricky thing. Also a pain especially for me - I dont mind bringing the camera and taking good picture for people, only problem is THERE is no one there to take the picture for me!

 

 

Fanciful aint it? Its not my camera btw and i definitely do not own that lens. Its just that i am going for monash ball, and as much as i dont mind taking pictures of everyone else, i just hope i have as much photos of mines as the rest...and as good =P

 

So yeah, figures. Hopefully i could get someone.

 

Oh btw, today was a long day. I actually spent hours sitting in front of my school's comp with 2 of my other groupmates doing HYSYS. Was there since 2.30pm till 6pm. Crazy. It was tiring seriously, but somehow it felt good after all the exhaustion. Like some sense of achievement. Simply put it, we managed to solve the questions by in-depth thinking and lots of discussion and i've really felt that i've learn a lot from the assignment, and theyre exactly like howmy future jobscope would cover. I hope every assignment could achiev this as well, but that doesnt mean i shd get assignments 24/7!

 

So yeah, laters!

One after another

Sometimes, you really just wonder, whats the significance of my existance.

And sometimes, i just want to escape somewhere. Sit down, and think things through. Go somewhere where i feel minute and insignificant, so every other stressful matters in my life would deemed as only pebbles beneath my very foot. Or sometimes, i just want to climb a hill, get to the top and scream my lungs out. All those supressed feelings and all those words that can never be voiced out could all channel somewhere.

We all could use an outlet sometimes, really. Only thing is - when you're actually there, you might end up doing absolutely nothing. Im saying all these because im putting my feeling into this, and i really felt like using an outlet earlier, but come to think about it, i may end up pretending at the end. We're just so used to masking our innermost self sometimes. The weak fragile part.

Whenever we got hurt, we just kept thinking "Wounds would only be healed after bleeding enough. So are feelings and we just need some time". It becomes a habit...

 

 

 

...It already is. I dont know, this is all i could and wanted to say.

 

Apology's aint free ya know

Simply put it,

 

I'll never apologize to someone who'd think whose fault is entirely on the other party and none on their part.

 

I dont recall myself doing that for a long while, and i usually admit at least a mistake on my part whenever someone apologize to make the situation less akward. Unless they attempt to pull off reverse psychology by attempting to do a sarcastic "sorry" and try to put the sympathy on them. Please, reverse psychology dont work on people like me. I know your damn cheap tricks. So again, if you're unwilling to compromise and reflect on whatever happened like i did, sit right there and expect a full apology from me...

 

...it aint gonna happen.

 

 

Show me your tooth!

Today, is a day that i cannot afford to miss noting everything down and making an entry, because theres just so much epicness, as seen with the awesome EPIC PURPLE colour font i used today. Actually its a little hard to read aint it?

 

Start of this morning. The very instance i woke up, its different already. I actually woke up before 6am, by my own, before the Morning Quran Call begins and before my phone's alarm went off (yes i am resorted to using phone for alarm sigh ). The alarm and the MorningQuranCall finally went off and i proceed with my usual morning clean-ups. Seriously, no one wakes you up better than Malaysia's local 6am MorningQuranCall. Breakfast, and left my house. Got honked by a car when i was in front of a round-about on the road, waiting for my turn to get out. Seriously, how about you try showing me how to move out in the midst of all the cars? Weird shit.

 

Went to lecture, had the same typical convo, more like getting spammed at for the entire lecture. Who calls you "NOOB" and spams you that 30 times for a one hour period lecture? That has got to be none other than my old old friend, and her boyfriend which actually used some gel for his hair this morning. Weird much. Not to mention khai hong wore a shirt that i've never seen before. By then its already started working its way down the core of my brain - that today will be different.

 

Went to swim afterwards, and wore that dreadful swimming cap because i love my hair too much, not because i want to increase my aquadynamic. Saw another chinese guy, which im guessing is a chinese ( like china chinese ) came down swimming. He sure has some ManBoobs, muscular one thankfully for him. Noticed that because we were actually on the topic of ManBoobs during our lecture earlier, and i was told that the cause of it are chicken because of the hormone injections and being warned about it and my great liking towards fried chicken fast foods like Poppeyes. I dont have ManBoobs you idiots. grr. Went down to shower, and when i was leaving the chinese dude is already done swimming. What? Wasnt that like just a good 10min only? Weird much.

 

Made my way to Damansara since i've made an appointment for my tooth consultation by my noob friend. Not to mention, off 3 public parking ticket machine, 1 did not respond, 1 ate my money and only 1 worked. Geez. The dentist kept doubting my abilities to make sound decisions as an adult myself and kept asking me to refer to my parents again and have them to accompany me the next time. "Dental medical treatments are expensive, we are no ordinary doctors". Hell i know that gosh! Before anything, let me drop the scan of the x-ray for easier reference.

 

 

Now, R is right. L is left. ( duh ). Let me draw your attention to the bottom left of the PICTURE, see that wisdom tooth? What a silly wisdom tooth. Seriously, do you have to grow that way? That is one. Another is the last tooth, which is also a wisdom tooth ( more commonly referred as 3rd Molar Tooth by dentists) at the top left of the PICTURE. Its actually decayed. The fragment of my tooth that broke off months ago i mentioned? That sudden spike of pain? Its actually because it has already decayed my tooth thats why it could fell off. So, to quote my dentist, he said "its waiting to be removed" in addition to that oddly grown tooth. The best part comes in now. So i asked him ( I actually asked a shit tons of things, like seriously A LOT ) about the removal of the wisdom tooth which he referred to it as surgery repeatedly earlier which i dont get it,

 

Dentist "If you are going to remove both tooth (at once), you will have to be sedated"

Me "Sedated? Wouldnt ordinary...injection work?"

Dentist "Local anesthetic? Yes, but if you're removing two at once you will have to be put out"

Me "Put out as in...faint?"

Dentist "Yes"

 

WHAT! You have got to be kidding me. Is the surgery THAT big? It is no wonder he mentioned the "surgery" would cost in the range of 800 or so which i was very stunned to hear that. Oh wells, after much discussion and reassurance its fine for me to pay for the various treatments today, i went ahead with a X-Ray scan of my tooh which cost a RM100 and i got a copy of the pic, and also a scaling for my tooth. Well apparently there are persistent dirts behind my tooth. That scaling was torturous. Thanks to that, a lot of shits were removed. Yeah, shits. Made another appointment with a day which my parents could accompany me so they could be briefed further about the complications and details of the surgery, and went looking for lunch.

 

My awesome pork noodle stall did not open, which left me a little saddened. Went to hair salon later and i actually sat down, told my hair dresser that i want to thin my hair down, and when she asked me again i actually told her "i actually have no idea what to do with my hair" lol. Well i insisted on her just thinning and tidying my hair up, which turned out pretty good. Went for another noodles commonly known as 三间庄 for lunch. Bought CharSiewPuff next door before heading home, imma going to have it for teatime after this.

 

On the way back, when i was at the road junction waiting for the cars to clear, three school girls, yes i mean literally schoolgirls in their bags their school uniform their ponytails, stared at my car and me with a very weird expression. I really felt like winding my window down and asked them whats wrong, because just a second earlier i heard weird noises and was planning to pull my car to the side after i got off this junction. Hey silly girls, at least wave at me and draw my attention and point at my tyre or something. Well i thought my tyre air ran out again ( which on some 2 weeks ago it got punctured by a nail ). And when i put my signal on and pull off to the side of the road, i actually got quite a lot of aunties' gaze whom are waiting for their children in front of the school.

 

CHEY! Its only a huge piece of styrofoam stucked to my tyre and made that weird noise. Again, why cant those silly schoolgirls draw my attention to it rather than just staring at my car. Silly.

 

Took a nap and here i am! Long entry, my arm sure is tired haha but im pretty sure today's event require some good documentation. Furthermore, WindowsLive, if you dare delete this blog, i'll hunt you to the end of the world since i have archives of blog entries since the year of 2006 and im not ready to lose any of those. Alright laters fellas!

 

Wishing Well

Saw something the other, it was actually Kuroshio Sea Aquarium. It was the second largest aquarium int he world.

 

 

So my wishlist is now,

 

1' To spectate Great White Sharks behind cages OR Swim alongside with a whale shark / whale ( i'd prefer whale shark because other whales gives me the impression that they'll swallow me whole O_O ) in the open ocean

 

2' To visit to Georgia Aquarium in Atlanta / Okinawa Churaumi Aquarium in Japan / The aquarium in Dubai Mall.

 

Either of that. I really love aquariums. And really, i would be very much satisfied for the rest of my life if i get to do, especially the first one, and i would never give that dream up no matter how old i am. I will, and i know i'll never give that dream up because its something i've been having since childhood days and its still strong as it used to be.

Home

 

I just love this song. From Glee, Kristine Chenoweth - Home.

 

 

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Hi there, please read the caption at the top of this blog, and proceed reading at your own risk. Actually, i just found out that this blog is not that secretive as i would think. Well its not really a private blog to begin with, its just that i never knew that everytime i post an entry, windows live will reveal an update about a new entry on my msn. A.K.A, broadcasting my new entry. NO! Its not meant to be like that! So i THINK i've changed the settings, and let me find out after this entry.

 

Anyways, the download for Starcraft II's collector edition's content is slow as hell. Oh wells, its 6GB+ to begin with. This blows. Especially when you have another friend downloading it with 1.4MBps.

 

 

 

Been a while

So its been a while since i last entered an entry, today particularly is a good day to do so because today is just special - in both pleasant and a shit way.

 

Woke up this morning, finished my tutorial, and then played the entire afternoon untill lunch time, and resumed playing my Starcraft II. Packed my fish and released them at Desa Park City.

 

Yes, i packed all my 9 fishes and let them loose in the huge lake. I'm pretty its a environment for the habitat of a fish, because theres just so many others around. The primary reason for this is that i've grown tired of the endless invasion of diseases, although i managed to rescue the all of them for the most part, but i'm just....tired already. I'd watch them go free in the huge pond where they could definitely strive, rather than watching them die under my care. Upon releasing them, there was a huge mix of feelings, and no particular feeling is dominant enough for me to identify it out. Thats it. Farewell.

 

Came back and went jogging, a new activity i added to my exercize routine. So rather than just swimming once a week on Tuesdays, i go jogging on Saturdays. Came back, showered and played Stacraft 2 again. Lost 8 games and won only two, although i'm still in the platinum league, but that sure doesnt feel good.

 

Went packing McDonalds ( Yes, i exercise because i could eat more junk food =P ), was planning to take away, and realised McD is in the Shell Petrol Station as well. So i went into the station's indoor counter and paid for the fuel, topped the fuel tank up, parked at the side, and decided to have McD right there in the restaurant. Counter lady misheard and took the wrong order, and i had to correct her and have her return my money.

 

I feel dumb. Like seriously, dumb.

 

Well, got my spriti's on the low tide now. Sigh.

 

Slim Chance

Thinking of a slim down? Cant find a better solution? Wait no further! Come Malaria-Next-to-France Bodyline slimming centre now!

Seriously? A slimming centre?

Fine, for one part i've never been FAT before, i've been skinny for my entire life, but for those who are obese, is slimming centre your FINAL RESORT? Or its just upright your first choice because you're just...lazy to put in effort?

Yes, some people have a problem slimming down due to their metabolism rate etc, yeah i feel for ya. However for those who arent in such a dire case, seeking slimming centres to cut down on your weight aint the solution. I dont know whats exactly happening inside, if theyre managers who give you workout timetables etc then its fine. If theyre those that, i dont know, wrap yourself up in plastics and undergo all sort of funny treatment, it aint good.

You should know this upfront as well - everything takes effort. You'd think those models get their bodies so easily? Its probably hardwork and tons of strict discipline. You'd think i could be less skinnier now? I've swam and workout for 3 years+. You dont just walk into a slimming centre for two months and hope to get slim down, congrats if you eventually did, but i'm telling ya, your diet will put on weight to you.

Why pay more? Seriously. You couldve just start with your diet. To quote one of my friend, once her doctor told her such things "begins from the minute details". Start with the small things, work with them. Stay standing for half an hour after a meal, excersize regularly, use the damn stairs, eat healthy foods. etc.

Enough talk with fats. Just got into this because i've just received a magazine of advertisements for my housing area, and a significant amount of them are related to slimming centres.

 

Yes baby. After 12 years of developement and 3 years of wait on my part, i've FINALLY gotten it. It released on 27th July 1200pm. So they told me its 1030am, and so i did go to the shop at 1000am along with two other friends. Apparently the ambassador company of Blizzard in Malaysia imposed a strict lawsuit against any violaters that release this game earlier than the time mentioned above. So turns out its 1200pm, and so there i was waiting. Another 2 friends of a secondary network of friends came right after and the 5 of us actually stood there for a good 30minutes+ waiting for the release of the game.

Yes the wait obviously ended and i got home and got it installed. Hell, its a good game. Apart from the usual maps after another for the campaign, this one actually allows you to move around in your battlecruiser and intereract with people. etc etc etc. Theres just so much awesomeness in this game. Pop me a message if you're a Starcraft 2 player. =)

Just came back from pasar malam for dinner, i know, its random. I've still got my mathematics assignment to do. Its considered done, but strictly speaking its still undone because i've havent attained the exact answers yet, but i've got the method / workings out already. Lazy me, got too distracted by my awesome new game. Oh did i also mention its due tomorrow? haha but i'm confident i could get it done in a very good manner.

Of fishes and netting

Who would've thought, another disease outbreak AGAIN! So i changed from changing two big pails of water every week to every alternate week because i'm getting lazy, just when its approaching the weekend when i'm about to change the water, i notice the one damn disease that's been haunting both me and my aquarium for ages.

 

Decades ago ( and have been ) it wasnt this bad, i dont know, ever since the death of the arowana its becoming like this. Almost like the restless souls of arowana haunting the aquarium, hiring a exorcist might work. O_O So now i'm down to draining the entire aquarium dry again. Its a lot of work, and a lot of strain to my back as well.

 

So i was changing the medium of the Intensive Care Unit ( its nothing short of just water and a bit of salt only ), and moving the fishes over. One of the Grey Tin Foil Barb's dorsal fin was stuck to the fishing net, hell it struggled like mad and i had to sit down with a scissors! WAIT...not to cut its fin, but were attempting to cut the net to free it. I had to hold its body with my bare hands to settle it down for a while before i work to pull its fin out of net. Well i managed to pull the fin off the net! WAIT...its still attached to its body dont worry, although it seems a little damaged. Man, i love that fish a lot, and it pains me to see it in pain and wounded.

 

In all my experience, i know it when fish behaves weird. I did hear slight splashes of water when i was in my study room. Its odd. If it jumps right and hit the cover of the ICU hardly and loudly, once in long while, its normal. So i ignored it for a while and after my shower i checked on them, i noticed a third White Tin Foil Barb and a missing Grey one. I swear i count the number of fishes EVERYDAY, even on normal days. I was too afraid of their suicide attempts so i inspected them through the slight translucent cover.

 

HELL, ITS THE BELLY OF THE FISH!

 

Another dead fish. Who wouldve thought me trying to free it from the net would traumatized it and eventually killed it ( Yes, fishes can die of fright believe it or not ).

 

.....

 

Ok i actually just got back from burying it. About 5 min or so. Im not throwing another damn fish into the trash bin no more, because it sucks to know something you have feeling towards ended up in the filthy truck that comes by tomorrow.

 

Now my day is spoilt, and its worse than even knowing i did not get any High Distinction for my last semester exams. ARGHHHHH!!