Movieholic

So, i watched the movie "The Confession of a Shopaholic" and i realized that...i'm actually a movieholic!

 

Says the girl in the movie, that shopping is like a HAPPY thing! Everything is gorgeous inside, you swap that magical card, and that thing is...yours! You will have the confidence, the ownership.

 

Thats so much for a shopaholic, what about a movieholic? I dont know...really.

 

As in, what i like about movies, is just that you walk right into the cinema. Its so dark! No one would see your reactions, no one would know how retarded you would look like when you laugh, no one would know how you shed your tears when you're touched, no one would know how you have your jaws widely opened for the full duration of that action scene.

 

Because you used you watched TV in front of your family members and friends or i dont know, you tend to...hide your real thoughts and expressions about the movie. Its a funny movie Madagascar, and you'd be thinking twice..."Is this the right scene to laugh?". Its a sad ending, "Is it very un-manly to actually shed your tears?" Slowly we're actually conformed, we became what we would want others to see. Isnt that something, that really makes you suffocate at times? Think about it, seriously. Least for me it does really.

 

In addition to that, the dark environment in cinema, actually isolates myself from my surrounding people a lot, like the noises and condescending looks on me. I can finally sit down, and feel the character in the movie. How is it to discover something in your life, how is it to actually stand out for something you believe in, how is it to have your loved one to be everything to you, how is it to feel helpless and realizing how silly you are, because all you need is just...ask for help.

 

Like usually you would complain your life is boring and so on, but wont you feel like you've just tour the world one round, let your emotions go on a rollarcoaster? Like everytime when the credits screen comes out and the light comes back in the cinema...dont you just feel like you've just went through the exact same thing as them? Like hey,

 

Life Is FEeling

 

I'd like to have feeling for things, i want to chuckle out loud whenever i really feel like it, i want to get angry if i ever bump into a bitch, i want to cry like a water tap whenever i feel like it, i want to....you get my point. All i know is that im not a boring steel ball like the ones you can cling back and forth like a pendulum with each other just the how it would do to my actual balls - hurting me. I am a godamn ball of fluffy cotton, with feelings. And here i am telling you my feeling, my life.

 

P.S. and the next day, i would get back to reality and study for Dynamics and become a emotionless dummy. Urghh.