Ok

My blog isnt the most fanciful one around haha. Anyways bumped into Paramore's - Turn it Off. Hell its a damn good song (and again its embeded in my blog hence you can try to listen to it. Try IE if Firefox doesnt display the player. However if this is not the latest post the song may be different )

 

 

Not to mention i love the album cover as well, Brand New Eyes. I found part of the lyrics to be very meaningful

And the worst part is
Before it gets any better
We're headed for a cliff
And in the free fall
I will realize I'm better off
When I hit the bottom

 

Saw a comment on youtube of the music video and it actually meant "it is about wanting everything to be ok, praying it's gonna get better and u keep wishing until u realize everything is getting worse. Hayley is trying to say she's better off just letting things happen". Dang i definitely feel some sense of attachment to the lyrics then.

 

Some music artists just never fail to impress you in some way, the first time i heard this song is through the radio and you know...the typical me would grab the phone on and capture a segment of the lyrics with my right hand and keying it into my phone, and with the other arm holding the car steering down. The melody of this song definitely creates a resonance with my recent mood. And hell, the lyrics have relevance to my feelings as well.

 

There are really still good music out there, you'll just have to listen carefully and feel it. I guess this songs says it all, for my feelings and today's entry.

 

 

Couldnt

 

It was full of lies. I thought it was very well handled, and i thought i could lie to myself. So i did, untill time uncover that sorrowful grave i've dug for myself, with barehands stained with guilt and regret. I just couldnt tell you, and repeat the same mistake again. At least i could keep things the way they are now.

 I thought could finally get over you...maybe.

I just need more time...

 

 

I See You

 

So i just finished the TV series Glee.

 

 

 

Its actually kinda good honestly. A combination of musical and comedy, and i'd love the musical part. Loved couple of the songs.

Thats, and I rewatched Avatar again! A good movie is a good movie nonetheless.

 

Now put aside all those TV series and entertainments, funny how i just some angry voice telling me something like "didnt we bury those cursed things down beneath the Earth's crust?" and also "havent you guys melted enough ice?". Strange. First one would refer to fuels and petrols, the other would relate to global warming. I actually felt angry for a while and wondered, hey didnt i pump those fuel in and drive a car all the time?

 

Now again, put aside all the entertainment and the go-green act, its time to wake up from a long dream. A long holiday. Couple of them are leaving for Aus, transferring to the Monash campus located in Clayton, Australia. Jonathan, Tian Hui and Peggy are some of them to named, and honestly i really don't know anyone else or probably...just forgotten. My brain is not fit to remember repetative stuffs like alphabets and numbers, hence names etc.

 

Jonathan and Tian, thanks for the memory and the fun.

 

I know Jonathan aint the easiest guy to talk to nor easiest to approach, sometimes he would lead a particular conversation to an extend i would just go silent, like seriously silent because i've really got no idea how to converse with him sometimes. Difficult guy really, and the frequent "oh really?", damn but hey he's pretty cool and i guess you can say hes a man to his words. "Insanity, i tell you", yeah hes still a nice friend nice chap to have around honestly.

 

Tian is another fella who will not fail to surprise you, both in a good and bad way seriously. Very typical of a jerk sometimes, but hey at least he kept his promises - promises that i would expect no one to fulfill at all. I'm referring to swimming. That, and god bless EeLing and you.

 

Bye bye...and see you again? =D

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Self-conflicting

So it suddenly struck me today, i realised i've been unhappy for a really long time.

 

For most fashion models, they would tell you to feel good on the outside, you have to first feel good about yourself from within. Of which such pleasant feeling can be achieved through dietary means and whatnot. Hence, for us to really be the kind friendly person, we must of course have in possesion of a joyful soul. Its all about our innerself really, who we are on the outside reflects who we are inside...sometimes.

 

In all honestly, i think thats the contributing factor to why as i am always so hot tempered and repulsive. However i guess life is a journey towards self-understanding. Piece by piece i will put myself together and someday i'll get the full picture.