Friday, June 11, 2010

Ok. Thats it.

It has come to my attention that A LOT of people been getting very depressed over their performance in the exam and whatnot. That is understandable. Whining about the high possibility of yourself failing the paper? Plain bullshit.
 
Call me arrogant and whatnot, I've been through the same shits that you experienced. Hell, if you're talking about shame and utter failure, how about i terminate my godamn ASEAN Scholarship last time because i cant deal with the pressure? Imagine every friends and relatives in Singapore and in Malaysia will know of it. Then you embark on a half of year of so-called HOLIDAY, doing absolutely NOTHING but reflect on your past failures. Now come back to me, and tell me how'd you deal with that at a young age, and compare that to your pathetic paper you've just sat for.
 
I'm not bragging about my ability to deal with life failures, but i'm definitely stating and making a point that, YOU are proven incapable of dealing with your own problems. Whining on Facebook aint going to help, and to top it off, you've let all your surrounding friends worried for you. These post-exampartum syndromes is not just the only kind, there are pre-exampartum diseases as well.
 
The post-effects is to go around saying how badly you will fail. The only reason you will say that, if becuase guilt overwhelmes you. Yes, you've heard me, GUILT. Otherwise, it would be simply anger and rage for how the paper is set. This is what people commonly called as - regrets. Regret has got to be the last thing you will want to feel after every different encounter in your life. I personally dont agree with people regretting over what theyve did OVER AND OVER AGAIN, it just demonstrate a large deal of your character.
 
Deal with your failures, face it. Dont regret on your past failures, reflect on it.
 
The I-dont-think-i-will-make-it attitude is also one attitude that you should be ridding yourself of it. Seriously, what happens in the future is still salvageable, let alone knowing its outcome. Think "fail", and i guarantee you a failure. If you suceed, lucky you. If you failed, you deserve it.
 
RIGHT? YOU WANTED FAILURE, YOU'VE ACHIEVED FAILURE, SO AINT IT ALL DESERVING FOR YOU?
 
People, a lot of things are just in the minds. Demonstrating acts of weakness again and again thinking you'd get pity and sympathy, will not get you far. Yes, ask yourself deep down in your heart, you wanted pity right when you display a sign of weakness? Dont come telling me how you really think otherwise, because if you WANT to be strong yourself, you would just simply state and admit your doubt on yourself, HOWEVER reassuring that there is still time to salvage the situation.
 
I admit that i did not do all that well for my mathematics paper yesterday, but in all seriousness, i've done all that i've could. I painstakingly did four past year math paper question-by-question, read through all the examples in the lecture notes, attempted and finished ALL math tutorials throughout the semester, and reviewed them before my paper. Moreover, i've always paid 101% attention during the tutorials (i do sleep in lectures all the time =X). Yes i did forget a part of the topic that would otherwise secure me an additional 5 marks in the paper, but whose fault to blame? MY OWN because i know where i could revise for that section but did i go the extra mile to revise that part before my paper for the second time? I did not. I definitely think i could secure a pass, credit, and a good chance for a grade sitting in the lower boundary of Distinction. If not, fine. I take it i did not do enough, because one advice from my teacher way back in Sec4 in secondary school, Ms Kwoh Siew Lai, i still remembered her name because shes one scary and yet short female chemistry teacher that is so ever inspiring, she said
 
"If you put in A1 effort, you get A1 results"
 
Simple as that. If i did not get a distinction, that means i am not working hard enough and if i want to want the grade D, i'll just have to work harder next time, SIMPLE AS THAT!
 
Ok? People? You can say "why are you overreacting? I'm just bitching a little for a while". Yes, you may be whining just a little, but given the frequency you've done that and in the shoes of outsiders, its getting infuriating and annoying. Because i'd want to care for you as a friend, but the state of mind you've been putting yourself into, is wasting all my effort and sooner or later, i will no longer bother to even comfort you because you'll just continue doing it ANYWAYS, and i dont want to get myself in a position where i would forfeit a friend like you.
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
So, for your own good's sake, and for the friends around you, stay optimistic and take good care of yourself. Ok?
 
 
 
 
 

Sunday, June 6, 2010

英雄

好!既然我生用中文写作才寥寥几次,那这次我就破例!
 
我还记得当年,也就是很久以前,看过一套戏名 《英雄》. 那么今天就心血来潮,下载了一个高清版的。

管他人说什么,闷啦,或者其它的评语,我倒还挺享受这套戏。用中文沟通还挺辛苦的叻。。我的今日博客就到此结束!

Thursday, June 3, 2010

Mirror mirror on the wall

Mirror Mirror on the Wall, tell me...
 
Wait, what? Anyways dont sometimes you just stand in front of a mirror, looking into yourself, and then greed just overwhelmes you? No?
 
Because i'm telling you, i do! That or sometimes in the day you saw someone of better outlook appearance than you, and then the first thing that came to your mind is "NOT FAIR" or "Darn it, i wanna just rip that face off and use it for my own!". Interestingly, to others you'd always look good enough, but never enough to yourself. Sometimes they meant it, sometimes people just dont give a damn. Seriously. Its not an offensive comment anyways, well to better phrase it, i just dont care about it as much as you do because, hell, its not my face haha.
 
I personally find it tough to have a neutral feeling towards your own looks, comments like "outlook appearance never bothers me" etc does BOTHER me a lot. Like seriously? I mean like you actually DO believe that deep down in your hearts? Cuz i dont buy any of those, not a single bit. That and encouragements like "There are no ugly people, only lazy people".
 
I dont know, i take things for granted really. I've gotta admit my height is definitely one. 183cm, hell thats a figure many guys would want it.
 
Speaking of which, dont you just love certain mirros in your home? Somehow you just appeared to be exceptionally handsome in front of certain mirrors, with that lighting and angle.
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
This entry is such a bimbo. I cant find any other word to better describe it. >.>

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

Theme

On a sidenote, i really dont know who Lebron James is. And windows live theme is so inflexible and ugly. I've got not many choices.
 
Came by Bryan Chong's blog, saw couple of interesting stuff.
 
 
- "I made a robot powered by Hate, but i love it so much it didnt work". Much awwness? =D
 
 
- "Look again at that dot. That's here. That's home. That's us. On it everyone you love, everyone you know, everyone you ever heard of, every human being who ever was, lived out their lives - on a mote of dust suspended in a sun beam". Look at the drawing again, i bet you've got some feeling running inside right? Thats good visual art.

 
Some visual arts. Good stuff. Check out the captions tho. Oh and this website, http://www.rainymood.com/ it just playes the sound the rain continuosly. Pretty interesting.
 
Thats all folks!