Susan Boyle

I bet there is no need for me to reintroduce Susan Boyle, "Global interest in Boyle was triggered by the contrast between her powerful voice and her plain appearance on stage" from wikipedia.com.

 

 

Check out the song Wild Horses (windows IE is recommended to view the windows media player, it should start automatically) embedded. I heard it, and loved it already.

Lester's Letter

Dear ___________ ,

 

      Hi, its been a while already huh i guess. Holidays been great, and xmas been fun as well. Had xmas eve dinner with friends and had some real fun with Band Hero, and also a fun time @ City Harvest Church near my monash campus, and also enjoyed the cozy family dinner with my extended family, at least untill the part where i overheard my aunt prompted the same old question to my sis. Shooked my head and gave a long sigh at the side there.

 

      Hey and guess what? i'm going to head down sg for the first time after a real long time. Gonna go there and countdown, and meet up with my secondary classmates which i really missed their company a lot. Feels like family sometimes, because i could just be myself for the 100% when i'm with them. Cross yer fingers i get to go for the Eye of Singapore ferris wheel ride tho. Was planning to go down to Night Safari, only to have my friend checked the site and one of the animals are pig. On top of that, the animals are hardly anymore fascinating than a zoo. Figured why spend the money in a Night Safari where my visions are blurred and handicapped, when i could juts go to the damn zoo since my purpose is all about seeing the creatures.

 

      Help at my dad's shop today, which is a Sunday. Got there at like 3pm or so, and was busy attending customers at least untill 5 or so. Then only to realized i havent had my lunch yet. Usual drill for my parents i guess, moneys are earned hard. Some of them pisses me though, like a phone call asking me are there any "test units" in the shop which i misheard as "cash units" and for the 3 times i requested for him to repeat his sentence, or explain what did he mean, he simply just say "test unit" again instead of attempting to paraphrase. Whats wrong with you people really? Isnt it obvious that i dont understand you? I make an effort to paraphrase all the time tho.

 

       Time is passing slowererererer as the days pass, but so far i've been really optimistic about it. What hangs on in my mind is "i should enjoy my holiday to the fullest, enjoys its leisure and the need to not do anything. And should have no regrets when comes the time where these things are long lost". For now i'm hearing a lot of people's regrets and believe it or not, i am actually noting the all of them down.

 

       Oh hey, and i think i really enjoy people's company sometimes. That includes just sitting down on a soft couch and just talk. Weird thing is i sometimes shut myself off people, don't exactly know the reason tho. Perhaps i was too accustomed to living alone, and i just suit all my time to myself and wouldnt have to bother about other at all.

 

       One thing, recently i have a lot of nightmares. All of them have got to do with a loose teeth, or getting my car damaged or scratched. Everytime i wake up of those dreams i felt really really horrible. Nontheless, i still felt very much secured when i dive into my nest with the comforter, pillow and bolster. Oh, and i swam the other day also, pushed to 14 laps the other day and 12 laps couple days ago. Shouldve remained at the 14 lap mark but procrasinated, damn! I really liked swimming, or should i say, i liked the water a lot. Did i also mention i used to stucked the water exit channel in my shower room with a bucket and let the water filled up my entire toilet a lot when i was a kid? Don't know where i got this liking from.

 

       I think thats all, hope you're doing great and havent heard from you a long time already.

 

P.S. I missed talking to you, and i think i missed you already.

 

 

                                                                                                     

                           Sincerely,

Lester

 

 

 

MoS

i'm actually downloding the Ministry of Sound annual 2009 and 2010 album (terrible me for commiting privacy O_O ). Unbelievable. Wonder how will they turn out to be in my mobile 4 wheeled music box a.k.a. my car.

 

 

I actually liked this song a lot, and it sounds badass with earphones and high bass.

Still

(Try using windows internet explorer instead to view this, firefox may encounter problems with viewing the windows media player and playing the song embeded)

Quiet isnt it? These days. I kinda started to like it...the quietness, the nothingness in the air. Its just myself and sometimes it feels just like the pic above, just stare at a big open area, and just feel...open. Inside these walls, echoes of my past nightmares will haunt me in resonance, and then finally an opening, a place to let out and vent out all the...feelings like hundreds of pillows pressed hard on your chest, couldnt let go. And then just stand there, looking at blankness at peace with yourself and put behind all the guilt you've came in bad terms with yourselfs, self-inflicting conflicts that would give you not one day of inner peace.

 

Be still....shhh.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Shhh...its alright, Lester.

 

Of snails and human flesh

 

Dang what came to your mind when you see this pic?

 

"A creature of mother nature, O' god bless all the living beings on Earth"

 

"Disgusting piece of slimy things that could crawl on your very wall, and that blue disgusting secretion when you pour salt on it? urgh!"

 

Which is it? For me, it'd be "what vulnerable creature...hang on a sec, we humans are not any better honestly"

 

You've guessed it right! We're weak and vulnerable to many forms of injury. Look at all the amazing creatures dwell in the same planet as we do. Tough turtle shells that even a lion's teeth would have problem piercing through it; Or a shark's immunity system, so strong that it the probability of a shark getting cancer is almost near zero. And we human? A knife would leave us with an open wound and what came out?

 

Blood.

 

Scary isnt it? You'd think snails are the only creature with so much liquids inside their body, we're in fact not any better honestly. Nearly 60% of our body are consist of water. I think you get my point here, we're in fact very fragile creatures. Not to mention human childbirth is one of the many most difficult tasks around, due to the fact that we have brains so big that makes us so smart.

 

Just another thought today when i was swimming, i'd thought how it would be swimming side by side with a whale shark, or in a school of black marlin/swordfish. Saw it in discovery channel the other day, man actually video tapped in the open ocean with those swordfish swimming around him. Speaking of which, still it is my lifelong dream to withness a great white shark in the open sea ( and of course, behind bars in a cage ).

 

( On an entirely irrelevant side topic, i got locked in my own damn house this evening. I'd actually wanting to go out to get myself dinner, only to find that....all the damn keys have been taken by my parents and sister. Doesnt feel nice getting locked in tho honestly lol )

Shackles

Just had a game of Starcraft, and realises the enemy will not pull back their pursue...untill the last of my building burns in ashes.

 

So does my dad.

 

WHY do you have to pester me every single holiday? To work and what not. When i say this holiday is deserving for me because all the hardwork i've put in earned me this holiday, you told me "so you're going to sit in front of this machine for the entire holiday?". What and where is this coming from? Then when i said so what, i couldve just went for dish washing just to shut your damn mouth up, you said its as if you're forcing me into this.

 

Seriously, what?

 

Countless times have i told you that i cant just be taking any jobs for the sake of doing it, if then whats the point of working? Just an act to shut your mouth up? The good deal is that i get to have fucking salary, at the price of what? My happiness. My joy. My Soul. Years ago it took me great shame to fight my soul back and throw away all the glory, now you want my soul to get scarred again? Why are people in my family just cannot stand me being happy and what not? My sibling is another whenever i achiev good results.

 

Fuck it, really.

 

I am so sick of all these shits already. Do i look like an ingrate to you? Of all the luxury i have do i still whine, complain, asking for much much more? Because im telling you i really dont think so, you are the one not being grateful enough to bear a child like me!

 

Look at all the dumb fucks around who messes all day and not study.

Look at all the spoiled kids nowadays that cant do a single housework, let alone handling all the housekeeping matter at home.

Look at all the overly protected, overly dependant kids who cant take care of themselves and handle their own matter. E.g. Travelling independantly.

Look at all the critters childrens who lived an unhealthy lifestyles. Smoking, drinking, car racing and noisy car exhaust pipes.

 

At an age of 20 you're still very much treating me like a primary school kid, not understanding the fact that given one container can only fit so many things, and given the presence of a type of object in the cointainer, the other type must be ejected. "One more thing, one less thing", you're being...*inhale*

 

FUCKING greedy. I tell you what now, i'll just REFUSE to work now. You should get a taste of what other type of kids have got to "offer" you, because i tried communicating to you, and i see the utter complete fultility now.

Nothing

Sometimes, during the busiest days of my life, or in any dire shit situation that i've got myself into, i really just feel like dumping everything behind, pack my bags and head to places as such.

 

 

and just sit down there, think of nothing and do nothing. Clear my mind off a while, and feel the insignificance of myself in this planet Earth. Thats why occasional holidays with moderate durations are good for our souls. ( "What about 3 months holidays then?!" ---- "Its still all good for me =D" )

Doesn't mean anything

Holiday is good, only bad thing is the rain stopped. Some ppl are clusterphobic, but i guess i'm a little clusterphillic. I like confined small spaces, feels safe. During rainy days i would occasionally look out when i leave my always addictive computer for a drink. Feels cozy really.

 

So this holiday nothing much, i went up Genting Highland with a bunch of friends. Seems like it really doesnt matter where we go, its really who is going haha. Arrived the lastest to the bus station, 7 of them are alrdy there waiting. Up the bus we go, and not even 500metres and it broke down already. Oh wells, the replacement bus came right after that and we headed for the skyway. Headed for Resort Hotel and ken's aunt is a real nice lady, got us our rooms. The insane 4 are grouped in one room, and the sane 4 are grouped in another. First day didnt do much, only thing i remembered is Whiskey/Coke mixer and then a sleepless night.

 

Next, first thing off is breakfast at resort buffet, followed by bombing in Nagasaki (the insanne room) and Hiroshima (the sane one). First thing we took in outdoor is Cockscrew. Or whatever the spelling is, it sounded wrong tho haha. On the side note, the vehicles are brand new ones, and i'd thought i would throw up after the ride but i didnt. I'm lester, i'm good. Then we went for the kiddy tea cup. Mark tried to spin the cup and had me vomit, then again he was the one who had to go back to his room and vomit. I'm lester, i'm good. ( in your face mark! )

 

Tian went back also, and i think both mark and him had planned this all along. Sheez lol. But the rest of us went around...antique cars, dinosaur land, bumper car, motion master and an immediate detour upon seeing the sign "45min queue from this point onwards" in the badly air ventilated room. Then couple of us went back room, jiayean mark and i. Halfway the other of them detached from us ( they actually went for ferris wheel ) while i rushed back to my room and dived in my cozy blanket. After some rest we washed up, and headed for Coffee Terace. Before that i would like to extend my thanks to sean for his awesome HeadnShoulder conditioner shampoo. Wow feels gd sia my hair haha. And we get to dined in at the awesome restaurant which...your eyes could hardly finishing feasting on all the food there with one big glance, let alone stuffing all the food down your stomach.

 

Had a walk in the misty night, then more whiskey and lots of talk. And then the last day and so on and so forth~i'm getting lazy to blog, things arent mean to be listed down so much.

 

We're suppose to keep memories only in our mind, and only the BESTEST memories. I'd do that, because that way i know i could look foward, without worrying or having to look back because i know, the past is not filled with uncertainties like the future holds, it already have fulfilled promises, and gives me a kind of feeling - i was complete.

 

2009 is a good year for me really. I seriously did not hated this year nor the environment, even if i had, its for a brief moment due to occasional shits. I like my freedom and all now, and actually wanted to prolong my present to forever. But oh wells, some things dont last, most of them in fact, and stop patronizing me tho really, i'm fully aware of the fact that people move on and such, so whenever i said "i wish things could stay the way they are now", im not asking you for your hell-you-think-you're-wiser advices, a simple "hmm" or silence will just do really.

 

...i wish things could stay the way they are now...

really. I <3 you all.