Spring clean-ups

I guess I should include plurality into the term "clean-up", since it only involes iTunes.

However I must stress that doing clean-up for my iTunes library for the first time, is serious major and my library went through some major overhaul. Many of those songs were simply bad and since I've imported my sister's music collection the first time I've got my iPod, I've never really checked the songs. Only sorted their name / artist in a tidy fashion. Realized there are tons of HORRIBLE songs sitting in my iPod when I put my iPod on shuffle a lot recently.

Want to guess how many songs I've deleted off my library?

147 songs...leaving exactly 2150 songs behind. Adding couple more songs shortly after this, was pretty surprised to find that many songs were in fact not in my library, which means downloading time and searching the decades old CDs for them.

Oh wells, anything for my iPod. Well I'm somewhat tired now after running through 2100+ songs, of course I skipped the obvious but for the rest I really did listen song by song, not the full duration of course, and this post has so many sentences that are...not really making any sense. What? Wait...nevermind. 

/yawn

No news means good news

The past few days have been pretty entertaining, and believe ir ot not, they all have to do with birthdays.

First off, of course I finally got my Electronic Confirmation of Enrolment. Thats good news, REAL good news. Turns out they are really sloppy at work, and you need to constantly bug them and remind them in order to get the stuff you want. Sad as it as, they appear to be more sloppy at work than...nevermind.

Right. First off is Sean's birthday with my university course mates. I think i mentioned in an earlier post but whatever. The pathetic cake. The jelly actually slide all the way down, just like what a landslide would seem. Well I get to shop before I head to have dinner with them, brought my DSLR as well to take some pics. The chatter was awsome, I cannot even begin to fathom life without friends and chatter. 

It would suck. Big time.

Oh they went for Batting, its like baseball. Oh wells, I dont do sports. Least thats what I told everyone, although the real reason behind is I dont wanna sweat and then head to a nice air-conditioned restaurant and dine in there. I wouldnt be able to enjoy as much as I would, sounds a bit like OCD, but I assured its not. Its just that...I'm clean? =)

Next off! Ai May's birthday with all my primary classmates. Well I wouldnt deny the fact that being with them felt very much like family. Like there is very little "formality". Everyone had that "make yourself at home" feel right off the bat. Well, I guess of course most of us have been together for some 3 years at least? Not to mention two of them were classmate of mines for 8 years.

EIGHT. YEARS. 

Well we had buffet steamboat at MoMo Paradise, and of course my friend JiaHao and I were always the most punctual whilst the rest...lets not get into that =P. Haha whats so shameful is that I do not even know such restaurant exists even tho I literally live in its neighbourhood, and it was quite a decent restaurant. 

Had a lot of laughter, like A LOT. From excessively asking "ada chicken wing?" to cake pranks to prostitution in Singapore. It was good.

Next up! Brenda's birthday. And yes thats clearly not a cake. I wonder when will anyone come up with an alcoholic cake, because they have ice-cream cakes already. I cannot help but emphasize again how punctual I am. Well to be fair I aint exactly on time, but the rest are just later than me haha.  Brenda's birthday is not exactly the usual cozy ones!

Just some insight into how we usually hang out, I actually drove to her house and was doubtful whether is it really her house or not. I actually called her and asked her whats her house number, confirmed it and she questioned why I doubted myself, so I said

"I guess its maybe I've never seen your house in bright daylight before"

We're night animals. But yeah, we went Jaya One and had steamboat buffet again, AGAIN. But it doesnt really bother me, its still good food anyways and I'm serious deprived of that. After that its some serious drinking. Alcohol is serious business, kids! Along with some really crazy laughter in her house. I particularly liked that drinking game, where guoyaw my drinking is tied together. 

I shall note this down here haha. So we draw cards and certain punishment/rules are bound by the 13 different type of cards from the deck. So GuoYaw is the question master. At anytime anyone answers his question, he'll have to take a sip from the drink. And I have the card that bounds guoyaw with me that whenever I drink, he'll have to drink as well. In addition to all that, guoyaw drew that card that allows him to make a certain rule, and he ruled it that whenever he drinks, I'll have to drink. You go figure out how many times both of us have to drink. This is some serious business, especially I purposely answered his question every now and then.

All and all its been pretty fun these few days. I guess I was right to have changed my attitude towards holiday. Like I should rush to plan an event or something, just sit back and whenever it feels right, we'll just go hang out. I really like this holiday. AND I really have to eat what I love to eat before I head to Aus. 

And...I know I cannot start a sentence with "and" but I just couldnt help it. AND yeah i guess that is all, and the blog's wallpaper need some serious refurnishing.

Military action

Hello? This is not some military action or plan okay, can I have something according to plan for once?

My course transfer process. Yes blame me for handling it late, but hey I'm not at all to be faulted for this shit okay, why do people had it easy whilst my parents took two weeks plus to get the bank draft ready. I understand that we're talking about huge sum of money in Australian dollar, but hey, if we were to count every penny spent here and there for transaction charges, we'll never get the money across.

Then here I am now, waiting for my eCOE from the office in Clayton so I could apply my visa. Yeah I'd hope it could go the way just like everyone gets it, within a week for the completion of visa.

Then the STA travel, of all people to email and make phone calls they actually missed me out and set me on a panic mode. So I called and I'm nowhere lagging behind. Thank you. You really made my day, bitch.

Then there's hostel accomodation to be settled, another sum of money to be paid and another form to be submitted. Visa, another set of forms to be filled and another sum of money to be paid. Flight, another sum of money to be paid and registration at KrisFlyer to get the additonal 10kg worth of luggage allowance. Perhaps I would need to register at the Monash website as well to get airport reception upon my arrival. In addition to all these overwhelming stuff going around, I noticed the hostel expects us only on the 19th of Feb, meaning, we need to make arrangement for our early arrival which is on the 13th Feb. There is also enrollment to be done at the campus and I need to choose a specialty in chemical engineering. Bio, Nano or Processing. Another thing I need to do my homework prior to my enrollment date. 

I don't know. Its just like, I never expected it to be THIS troublesome. Like there could be so many problems, even the most straight forward things could cause me problems and put a halt to my progress. And I'd hate to hear any rantings from people who had it easier, dont let me hear a damn word you lucky bastards.

I really need to take a breather now. Geez.

Update: 15th December

I was right! Everything that could have gone wrong, have went wrong. I dont understand why am I the only one with so much problem regarding my application to transfer to Clayton. I'm speaking from a very honest point of view, and I have done my fair share of asking around and inquiring the status of others' application status. I had to call Clayton campus in Australia today to verify my application, and indeed, they've not received anything.

I hate to say this, and I definitely hate to blurt such things out. But seriously-

Monash Sunway Campus, what the fuck are you doing? Which part of me submitting my application to you on the 8th December, gave you insufficient room to properly send it to Clayton and get it done until the 15th? If you're not confident that you could get the job done, dont offer it! Jesus Christ! I sent everything and leave everything in your hands because I'd thought you guys could get the job done faster and also in a more reliable manner than myself sending the application through email.

You're an utter joke. Period. Your efficiency at work puts even the most experienced performer at for the TV show Whose Line Is It Anyways on a laughter. You are such a letdown. Don't get me to even begin on how the school fees not properly reflecting the education standards. I was dumb for trying to cover your ass whenever I bumped into such topics with my mates.

My offer lapse date is on the 17th, and I had to resend the application myself this time, straight to Clayton's International Recruitment Services. This had better be going as I intended, else wise you jolly well be ready to risk everything to cover my ass.

shopping

As sad as it sounds, i think i actually did my homework before i head to shopping. I sorta walked right straight into the shop knowing exactly what I wanted to buy. Something I've sorta wanted for a while even though it still cost a lot.

Oh yes. Converse. Black leathery ones. I love it because its plain. Yes you've heard me, because its plain! And I could seriously wear this pair of sneakers and fit it with all sorts of pants. Aint that awesome. Besides, I've always liked sneakers, and Converse particularly. Im actually somewhat sad to realized to find out that my other pair of sneakers, had its colour faded so badly that I could barely recognize it from the shelves. But its ok! I'll still love you! But yeah, this pair cost me some RM190 or so, which it took me less than 5min to decide. Well after all, like i said I've done my homework. Actually surfed Converse's official online webpage and browsed through all the sneakers. Had a crush on this particular one for quite a while.

Now its all left to Levi's Jeans. Theres a new 591, but sadly its no in Malaysia yet. Not sure whether I'll pick that or 514's Big and Tall ones, they looked pretty good too. I need to have 591 in the store to do the comparisons, the rest just looked like a carpenter's pants to me. Period.

Oh, also had dinner with tons of people for Sean's belated birthday celebration. It was some nice catching up with people, especially TianHui whom I hadnt talked to for...quite a long while haha. 

I did realize something though during dinner, like although I really do like the company and the chatter and catching up going on the table, there some part of me deep inside, actually wanted to have some solitary. For some odd reason. I dont know what exactly drives me into becoming such a person, but i can sort of feel it has got something to do with...maybe I shall not mention it. I aint all too sure about it as well. 

Oh by the way, Facebook movie is pretty good to watch. Although i think my friend to my left sorta fell asleep during the movie. Guess its just me, and i guess thats all for today. 

Lester, signing off here.

Lies

So today I went Genting for some chillaxing. It was somewhat a sudden suggestion but I'm alright to it because im just so incredibly adaptive free.

Period. I dont know what else to say seriously haha. Other than that I think the next thing that comes to my mind that is worth mentioning is probably the bus driver's crazy driving. Oh yeah I did have some disagreements for the trip but oh wells, better than none else wise this thing called "friendship" would seem abnormal.


Thats all folks!


Not really. I lied. I actually wanted to talk about something else but I guess its too risky to just put it outside, but i guess also I dont want to hide my entire blog just because of this one entry. Cool method to use this javascripts to hide it. Also I dont like to show all my emoness and all, yes its cool to express it once in a while, but if you do it all too often it really do says a lot about your personality.

Anyways I have heard people giving up on love in a matter of months. Seriously you could do that? I'd want you to teach me how to do it if you're really liking a person. Today somewhat my friends and I were talking about meaning of our names.

周立恒.

Thats my chinese name. So we were discussing how inaccurate our names are most of the time. The center character means independence, which I've clearly achieved. The last is perseverance, which to some extent I find it conflicting after I said its inaccurate. I dont understand. You call that love? How can you just give up on it just like that? Two months? It took me great effort and yet i cannot shake that feeling off. The same feeling for the same person, since day 1 you met each other. No matter how hard I try shaking it off, the next time the both of you come face to face, all the "Its not worth wasting my time on" and "I already gave up" went right down into the drain I'm tellin ya. All the feelings you think, yes YOU THINK you've buried it 8 feet down immediately surges from the ground and swarm your entire entity.

That is the situation I'm in, for nearly 2 years. Then I'm hearing people that could give up in months. I'm not judging honestly, I just dont understand. I'm not dying to learn the technique to do it, because that fire that resides in your heart just wouldnt die off, and theres always that tiny part of you who would NEVER give up until the very last moment.

Its to a large extent a very excruciating struggle. All the crazy poets and their exaggeration about love, now seemed to all make sense to me now. Well, you'd probably be asking why am I still not making the move, that's because it'd be deflecting my own moral compass to to break up a person's relationship. I'm not saying I'd win over, which is why I am struggle to tell myself to just, gosh, just give up and it just wouldnt die! I wouldnt want to make the confrontation as well because I'd just want things the way they are now, and I really dont want to create an atmosphere of utmost awkwardness the next time we meet each other.

Its a dilemma, a situation that seemingly could only happen in TV drama. However here I am now, with all these difficulties. Its tiring as well, because...I dont know what to call it, my folly or my very soul just will not give in to any obstacle, and it does not know what my mind's limit it and its taking a toll on my mind. Everything evolves around the person. Everyday, almost without fail, the first 5 things that gets to your mind is the person's face. Being the first is just plain lying, because you might really get awaken by something and you'd think about the noise first.

So yes you can say I'm in the world of pain now, at the same time...you cant call this torment really, its really really wonderful at the same time to be able to fall in love with somebody. Read carefully, I did not say "Step into love", i said "Fall". The center of gravity is no longer in your grasp. So yes, call me a lovetard or what, yes I did had only one relationship in the past and its major failure haha, but this is definitely something more. Much much more. Now I think i could understand a little more how some people in the past, during war times could wait for their loved ones for years. All the sacrifices they have made, willingly for their loved ones.

Well, actually I just couldnt find anyone to pour all these feelings out to and I really need an outlet. SAVING THIS AS DRAFT DOES NOT HELP AT ALL! Posting this somewhat in a hidden manner serves A LOT like an outlet to me really, as in I really do feel like i have let it out. I probably wouldnt like anyone reading this except only a FEW ( I guess you know who you are =D ) who knows a GREAT deal of me at the same time, which on the complete opposite I'd want to talk about. Of course, let alone you bringing the topic out loud and interrogating me the details. Phew, i feel so much better now.

umm, my skin actually felt itchy tonight, for some odd reason. I know, its random haha.

Why can't I breathe

Been a long while since I've posted anything. Partly because when holiday kicks in, everything started becoming real sloppy. Well, im not obligated to rush or get anything done in such a hurry anyways, why else would it be called a holiday anyways. 

Not many interesting things have been happening since the beginning of my holiday, neither is anything so depressing that it would crack my day up. Not saying there aren't any depressing thoughts at all, just that I've decided quite a while ago that I shall refrain of making any saddening posts, be it here or in Facebook. It just goes to say what kind of person you really are. Well, nobody gives a damn anyways. At least for me, towards people who have a habit of complaining stuff on a daily basis.

I'd probably going to get my internship going, but oh gosh my hands are so heavy whenever I'm going to bring myself to type that resume.

Besides, this holiday I have not been planning anything significant for myself and my friends. Probably feeling pretty exhausted of doing so.

Oh wells, so far I've been doing nothing and probably something I wanted to do for this holiday. I just want to take some time off for myself, and spend some time with myself and catch my breath.