Cloud Atlas

This movie...I've gotta say it's simply beautiful. Maybe it's the music, maybe it's the chemistry in all the scenes...I don't know. It's just simply touching and I am deeply moved. 

It talks about how past, present and our future self is all linked. How every act of evil, or kindness affects ourselves or people in the future. This movie however requires one to be very open-minded, to perceive what the movie has got to tell, and offer you. 

Makes me wonder sometimes, about the act and role we play in the continually traversing universe. How tiny we are, and to quote the movie, "no matter what you do it'll only amount to a single drop in a limitless ocean..."

"...what is an ocean but a multitude of drops?" And then again, we might not seem all that small after all sometimes...because we, probably mean the universe to ourselves. It's our life that periodically undergoes zooming in and out, and that's probably how our lives are. Sometimes we're just that tiny little being in the grand scheme of things, nothing ever matters because it JUST DOESN'T MATTER; or how our actions dictates our lives and how it evolves from there and it means the world to ourselves. Courage, kindness, forgiveness etc. 

Ultimately we are all suckers who just yearn for happiness. It is in times when you deemed yourself to be a nobody, then suddenly it seemed like you owned the world; or put aside all the personal logic and the what-if's, and go after the things that truly mean the world to you. 

Some may or may not have realized this, but in my life - I have this old photo. Sometimes this is all I need. It's always there, clanged by my rough hands - but it is all in that picture, my reminders, the happiness and that is all I need. It's the memories, the best of all the lot of them. They really do play like old movie tapes, the sights, the sounds, and all the feelings. Its like moments like now, that if I were myself in the future, I'd like to bring myself, if I ever get lost, you, me, back to this moment - where I'm a nobody, but I think I have the world already. 

Fly

Just something to watch. A heartwarming story, is all we need sometimes. The journey is what matters, and not necessarily the ending. 

That aside, some distractions every now and then is good. I could only look at my own life, and know that the desired story of my life will only be a fairy tale. It's always "so much is at stake" because we're never quite there yet to know the ending, but like the story above, it's always about the journey. I'd wish I know my next step, to take that leap of faith - to reach out for it. 

Perhaps one day I'll reach that jump pod, so I could take that jump across the canyon; and perhaps too that day is never going to come, and I'll live my entire life lying to myself everyday. We're all suckers to the comforting embraces that people could offer, but ultimately - we're always in it ourselves. I just chose to tune into the harsh reality tone earlier than anyone else, because enough is enough...I could only manage to lie so much to myself. 

Who knows...the day...