Restart

Going back Singapore, for, maybe one last time, taking one last look of those places i've been.

 

One last look.

South Africa

Sigh, im getting more and more lazy to blog.

 

Anyways, i went for a trip to South Africa, to their CapeTown and Johannesbug. Overall a nice trip just that the first few days was a havoc for rooming. Trip was sponsored by Nikon so everything was luxurious hehe. Weather there was cooling all the time, and COLD in the morning and at night, about 16 degree celcius. Thats all lol, rest i leave it to the pictures to speak up for me.

 

Oh, and i passed my driving examination, i was numbered 7, lol my lucky number, and surprisingly that day i drove so smoothly, and going up the slope, parking and three point turn was done in such a prefect manner that i never did during my trainings.

 

thats all =P laters peeps!

Chill

Today is kind of cold. Thats all.

At least...i am not the only one

"If I had a christmas gift.. I'd wish that i could travel through time and do my sec 3 year again.

Time really flies.. It seemed just yesterday that I was in ACS(I) uniform"

- Ian

 

you know...you left me in tears.

Happy ending?

[Edited 0010h 19/10/07 ]

Felt that it was too much of a long story, the whole point is that its game over for me in Singapore, and its a new game back here in my hometown. Fullstop, and my 4.3 buddies, i will remember you all.

I am back home...finally.

Question

 

What is it that i am lacking in my life that could set my life back on track?

 

 

Thank you

I denied my religion, but i will never deny the God i trusted and believed in.

 

Thank you God for making so many miracles in my life, and for the promotional examination that is approaching, thank you again, for giving me a reason to work hard, one that is really a motivation and one that is worth working hard for. Thank you.

The polarity shift of Optimism

Alrighty people, here i am telling you this - i am really fucking sick of my life. Dont be fooled by all the demonstrations of optimism, the fact is that i have been struggling with that goddamn bloody A lvl which inflicted so much agony in my life, and those stress were so fucking uneccessary. really.

 

Finally i have some Nationla Day holiday, which it stretched from Wed to Fri, includind Sat and Sun, i have some 5 days holiday to rest and chill out ad cath up with homeworks. BUT NO! This life's a bitch and that fate is really an assshole to have EVERYTHING against me. 

 

Wednesday, have to wake up early, go to school exactly the same time, went for some lame celebration, then have to go out with my Chinese CUltural Society ( which involved drama only ) and we have to bring a bunch of Indonesian exchange students for a cultural tour, because our club name said so. ALRIGHT i went out untill 3pm, came back, and was very tired and I spend most of the time resting and sleeeping.

 

Woke up today, Thursday on 12pm. Guess what? At 1.30pm my hostel having a sports carnival. YEA YEA although our house was used to be some "loser house" however we clinched the champion for this event, everyone was delighted, but it ended at 6pm+, and i just woke up taking a nap, what time is it now? YOU FUCKING TELL ME?! its near 12! Where on Earth any human have the mood to study now? DO NOT PATRONIZE ME I TELL YOU! Do that and i'll make sure i'll go straight to your mom and mutilate her and i will burn down every single thing you treasure in your life!

 

Tommorrow, Friday, WHAT A COINCIDENCE! She smsed me tonight asking me to help her in the day with her new house! OH NICE JOKE! Not 1h, but FOR THE DAY! You tell me what to do really. Oh yea, and its 10am in the morning, imagine how much more early i have to wake up and just to reach there on time.

 

Saturday, SURPRISINGLY got some chinese drama coming up and what a coincidence it falls during this holiday, although i purchased the ticket recently, but i never realised that it was actually during this holiday. Furthermore its a club activity that is compulsary. WHAT THE FUCK REALLY? its not going to start at night and last for few hours, its taking place in the afternoon. Means, you have to wake up early, get ready, travel under the hot sun, watch the damn movie, rush back for dinner yadayda...one of my friend even invited me for a group study and i am so tempted to just point a fucking middle finger back to her. MY SCHOOL LFE HAVE ITS TOIL ME ON OK?! I AM NO ROBOTS!

 

Sunday, you tell me what's left for me. I have swimming coaching in the afternoon, that is 4pm. Right after that i would be busy showring and rushing down for dinner. Then some hostel assembly untill 8pm.

 

Seriously people, YOU FUCKING TELL ME HOW TO LIVE LIFE LIKE THIS? I HAVE ALMOST NO TIME FOR MYSELF! For once i have time to chill out and sort things out, you gave me all this shits and expect me to cope with it and still catch up with my academic performance? People i did not socre all distinctions for my mid-year OK!

 

I SCORED THREE...3 FAILS!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Out of 5 subjects!!!!!!!

 

YOU DONT EXPECT ME TO COME BACK FROM ALL THESE AND STILL DOES HOMEWORK!

 

There are some real bastards and son of a bitch out there, which can do this, theyre robots and and work so much much much more than they can even have time to think in their life, its just way beyond the proportion. Yes its them, BUT THERE NO SUCH GENES IN MY VEINS OK?! I JUST CANT DO IT! Got the guts and come and tell me " if he/she can do it, i dont understnd why you cant do it also"

 

God DAMN you. You're a motherfucking assshole, and i wish when it reaches the day you're dying, i would reward you with and additional 20 more stabs in your heart, and i would pour hot tomato soup into that would, seasoned with salt later, later craving "son of a bitch" on your face, cut off every fingers of yours, pluck to chopticks at your eyes, and make you swallow a big bucket of detergent to make sure your brain is well washed. YOU WILL DIE SAYING THAT! I WILL TURN TO THE SATANIC VERSES AND I WILL EVEN IN MY DEATH WILL COME AFTER YOUR DARN FUCKING SOUL AND SATURATE YOU WITH FEAR AND AGONY EVERYNIGHT! YOU HEAR ME??!!!

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ok hey fellow readers. Well recently i am having this social problem, but i do not blame it, it really makes me reflect a lot on myself and in those times of lineliness i realised a lot of things, and learnt a lot.

 

People, i think it is no bullshit for camps to get you to have reflections every night, on whatever you did in the day. Reflections have its benefits, and adults do not just have reflections every night to make the schedule looks packed. People, take sometime out, i am not asking for some hours of reflection, just a mere 10 minutes off each day, to just pause what you are doing and what have you done in the day. Just pause, and reflect. It will do you good in the growing of your body, soul and mind.

 

Many things i have learnt recently, like

 

Being mature is not pointing your finger at another person and saying hes childish.

 

No. That is just plain not the way to make you more mature than others. I swear never in my life i would use the word "childish" on other people, if i do so, you can point your finger right out at me and tell me im childish and because in my blog i said so, and you should be expecting an apology from me. I am not joking. No adolescents are childish, and even if so may i ask how would you define childishness? People have their reasons, their reasons to behave in that way, like what i previously said, "every action triggers a reaction", so stop pointing your finger at them and say such things. That leads me to my second point,

 

Humans are all unique and diffrent from each other.

 

So, before you blame them for doing so, you should really do as i said, just take sometime out, try to figure out why did he react in that way, and what have you done to make him so mad or pissed or dissapointed. Make up for it if it is your fault. Even if it is not your fault, sometimes you have to ust take the first step. Yes some of you may point me out that i am not taking my first step, but in God's name i swear, if such things happened, means i have already taken way too many first-steps to resolve things with you, and you are just sitting there being ignorant about what you have done. That is not the way.

 

Sometimes we may make mistakes to react in such a bad way to another, but, after your reflections, learn from it, make up for it. I know, that i am very very very hot tempered, and i am such an asshole to always react so fast. Yes people i am sorry. However, as i said, sometimes it is just too much, i can no longer take first-steps, and i have my own dignity to uphold and i am not going to apologize, really, so if you i am an asshole, and not aplogizing, you are obviously not doing your daily reflections. Understand other people, be sensitive. Dont just say things, think before you does. Dont insult before, because you are in no position to do so, you can tease, but do be sensitive to others, and dont over do it.

 

If i might add a word, yes i AM OVERSENSITIVE, i admit that. However, the some of you, are just plain INSENSITIVE towards others. I know this sort of opnions are sometimes very one-sided, but people, but, it is something i find no wrongness in it. Care for people's feeling. I may be a freethinker, but my heart still listen to God and Jesus Christ, and i truly believe that what they want, is only to have this world, a better world ; to have people, living in harmony.

 

People commit sins ( why in the holy god's name i am so holy now? ), and trust me, even if that person will not forgive you for that, theres still always someone there to forgive you. Be it Christianity, Buddism ( sry if i make a spelling mistake) or Hinduism, all religion exists to make this world - a better world. So its ok to make mistakes, but grow up from it people. I can tell you right now, i am NO WHERE NEAR mature, but i am sure of one thing - i am growing each day by day.

 

Few erm, mottos i would like to share with you guys.

 

- Being mature if not pointing your finger at another person and making him childish

- Humans are unique and diffrent from each other

- One more thing, one less thing

- Play hard, study hard ( someone said something even more more more meaningful, and i will remember it, she said "play hard, study hard ; study now, play in December" )

- Every action triggers an reaction

 

So all the best in life!

 

The action-reaction pair

OH finally, new fonts...

 

Anyways, hope you guys enjoy the song embeded in my blog, its a lovely and spirit lifting one =D

 

Days passed and im nearer to my promotional examination, and life always seem so relaxing for me. Last Friday, tempted by the offer "attend 1.5h get 3 hours CIP", i went for the Translation Competition. Finals were two Hwa Chong teams, one Raffles Instituition and Raffles Girl School ( where the hell is ACS? ). It was boring, towards the end. However there were many silly mistakes the competitors made and everyone let go of a big LOL. My friend and I sneaked out, some other of my friends also did. We sneaked and he wanted to hand in his homework to the pigeon hole near our school's staff room. While he was searching for his teacher's slot, i was pondering around, looked into the staff room and...

 

" LIM CHOONG YAN! " I pulled him and we hid at one corner, we were breathing deeply, and he peeked. WOAH he almost got caught, we waited till she went for the lady's restroom and went downstairs then only we reappear. We even went into one of the classrooms, which were used by drama club members or dancing or whatever, did it because she was somewhat heading our direction. While we were inside the classroom catchig out breath, those members of that club walked in and was O.O staring at us. I was like " uh, can we borrow your classroom a sec?" a girl replied "uh.....ok....what are you guys hiding from?" I ignored her and was busy cathing my breath. Went out the class, looked down, and she was was walking down the stairs and ALMOST again caught us, my friend ran and all i did was to just squat down. Phew, danger's over.

 

Made my way out, toke the bus and overslept on it. Alighted the bus some 547.43m away from the one im suppose to alight. It rained. I ran. So drenched untill the extent that my light brown school uniform looked dark brown and as if it was a brand new colour on the entire shirt. Finally made it back, chilled out and dried myself out. Went out in the night, to ACS(I), simple because one of my friend was performing and he asked me to watch him.

 

OK OK!

 

Buana and me was in the centre for perfoming arts, also known as CPA. We sat on the ground floor, the decide to move to the 2nd storey. Guess what? we got chased down by a teacher like as if we were a student, a prefect came to us an asked us to sit downstair ( which were swarmed with ACSI kids). I refused to, notified him that i am no student of this school and is an outside guest. " I uh...dont care ". I stared at the prefect. My friend got me downstairs. I swear i would cast goddamn Pyroblast stacked with Arcane power and a trinket on him and ensure it'll be a critical strike and watch him burnt under the effect of Ignite, IF ONLY my friend did not get me downstairs before i could react ( yes im THAT slow ). The show was funny. I swear, with my friend inside. 2nd show, entertaining. 3rd, boring. Yes guess what, before the 3rd show started, my friend whispered to me "your dearest friend's acting" i was puzzled. When the show started, i was.......

....

....

....

 

My ex-roomate was there. I swear i stayed for the sake of giving them face. The show only started 5min and some group of 10 people left. Followed by 4...5...6....7...8...or whatever. I pity you Theodore.

 

We went to Wah Chee, our common hang-out-place. Ate Mongolian Pork Rib rice. Got danny there also. Had a great time, then meet up with two of our friends back at the school gate and talked so goddamn loudly ( which i have not done for such a long time ).

 

Saturday, rain rain and rain. Nothing much. Except for the swimming pool's was so cold untill it felt like hypothermia when i got in. Today, nothing much, went for swimming lesson, free-style. I still remembered my first time there, when the coach asked me to swim free-style and have him judged on my umm...swimming skills? and to have couple of my friends there asked "WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE?!". I think pushing towards perfection more than heading towards the mastery of this swimming technique. Was great, as in the lesson, the coach pin-pointed so many mistake i made and have ways to correct it.

 

Hostel assembly. They made sang the song "we have peace at the river" and did the hand slapping thingy. It was the hallmistress who were doing it, and she explained that we should enjoy every moment of our life and make it a happy one. She even changed the lyrics to " I have love for my neighbour" and asked us to smile at our neighbour.

 

Only one voice echoes in my head, "I hate scholars and i hate being one". Dont ask me why, i have no idea where that hatred comes from but it kept echoing in my head. Scary shit.

 

Been studying, playing WoW, doing homework, sufring net, eating, excercizing, sleeping, staying up at night playing, having a great time in school talking crap, ignoring people in my hostel, hanging out with old friends, seggregating myself from scholars in hostel. It sounds funny and childish. I know. I thought of it. I reflect on my self, and i find no reason why i have no right to behave in wahtever way i behaved. I have a reason. I have my personality, i love it, it aint evil. But what you people did was to dampen that spirit of mines, instead of amplifying it, and i grew very very sick of it. So before you calling a childlike person childsih, think again, are you the one behaving that way? Below is what somebody i hated so much told me during secondary school, it was engraved intomy mind, and although it comes out from the mouth of an asshole, but i bear it as if it was like a code.

 

Every action triggers a reaction

 

 

 

 

suicide

Why people commit suicide? one of the reasons are which the reasons to live are removed. That is what i read from one of my GP passage.

 

Desire to live? Yea its true. When studying takes up all their time and they have literally forgone everything except for studying. From the economist print edition, " suicide rates have been rising in India, especially among the young, and over a third of those who kill themselves are under 30 years old"

 

shocking eh? more, " In india the deperation of students has been studied relatively little compared with that of farmers, who have killed themselves in rising numbers in recent years".

 

" Japan, whose suicide rate has long been among the highest of never-communist developed countries. Japan is a confrmist society, and life, it is said, is bleak for those who do not fit in"

 

Cruel eh?

 

Suicide here suicide there. Just some thoughts here, nothing much, and wondering what will happen to the next generation in the future. So people, find a reason to live for. At least you can cling on it and not commiting suicide and hurt those loved ones. Laters all

My world

As mcuh as im hating everyone around me, i realised why sometimes games are such an addiction to some people.

 

In my opinion, they simply created a virtual world which is "perfect", they have justification, they have the space for each individual to do their own things, and like MMORPGs they gave players a sense of security, as your real identity can be anonymous. In comparison with the nowadays REAL world, the game world seemed to be a far better place and a far more wonderful place, so sometimes its suprising that even players found their sanctuary within the game. This is of course what i felt.

 

In additiion to it, they also allows the player to wield all sorts of power over other things, like creatures and so on, which is mostly lacking in nowadays people's capability - control. I lack control, all of us lack control, of the future, of what we are doing now, because they simply promises a thousand poosibilities. Although they are not exactly similiar, however the lack of that can be fulfilled with another in the game.

 

Also, games are actually a place where you could dwell in and enjoy it. At least better than mugging blindly for your examination that im for sure. Like today, my college's reading period gave us an article on acts of commiting suicide, i think those teachers more or less wanted to relieve us from our stress. Great job lol. Korean has in fact the highest suicide rate, followed by Japan. Inside it stated that reasons for suicides are " defieying generalisations", and that they are mostly an impact from the change of the society. True, from my point of view. Look at those countries, students are undergoing a tremendous ammount of stress everyday ( i personally think singapore is catching up ), left alone the high requirements for their academic performances, they also faced the satanic expectations from their parents. Ouch.

 

You know, recently, i am just so sick of socializing with humans. ( this is totally out of the point ). I do not understand why must I always be the one who take a step back and see things through. If for doing it for once or twice would resolve the matter for good, i wouldnt mind, but not occuring on me so frequently and in the end they get all the glory and i suffered. I am so sick of everyone. I am sick of this world infested with people with such a behavious, if God were intending to make a better world, i'd request him to hasten his plans. " Teenagers nowadays dont know how to talk" and the something like calling us senseless people. One Go teacher commented today during my reading periods. Gosh, i couldnt but reply her with a thousand nods. Not forgetting that i am a teenager also, but i find that people are worsening bit by bit after each passing seconds. Weep for Humanity.

 

Commiting suicide? Yea i seriously thought of it a million times, this world aint changing you know, people will keep scoring better results, entering better universities, getting better jobs, earning more money, and then i dont know what they do with their money. Worsening the Earth's situation? really whats really the use of studying so hard while your character sucked so badly? Whats use of a person with great personalities to the society? oh wells so long as you do not get your pass grades or an A, you literally die. Simple, the hunter or the hunted.

 

I am just so sick of this fake world, people play draman and all sorts of stupid tricks on one another. Where was the world that honesty was treasured? Nobody gave a damn to that you know, if you are good at sucking up, good for you, you get tons of friends.Sad enough that nowadays people cannot even identify as one sucking up to you, or maybe they loved it so much they can leave it as it is. People poke fun of you, just on one hand to relieve themselves of their boredom or whatever. Its fairly fine for me. But not doing it for everyday. Mindless peoples. Sometimes i hated some people so much because they just simply take people's gentleness for granted. You thought you could fool around? Right now, i am shutting up from everyone. I mean it, 3 days already and i haven had a proper conversation with anyone except for my classmates, or rather Singaporeans. Call me a betrayal. singaporeans? kia-su? you just made me L------O------L, let nme tell you what, the SCHOLARS are the kia-su ones. In my life those who were down to earth, theyre all sinagporeans. These scholars? Fake. Your attitudes are - such a monstrosity. Horible. Oh yea, i hated being a scholar now relax people. I hate my hostel now, i hate all the limitations caused by the scholarship agreement, i hated my school, i hated scholars that are around me.

 

For you all, i am just a fucktard who made some silly and loud noises all day long, and is so unglamarous, so "face-losing" for you. So nerdy, so fun to be bullied. Go on man, go on thinking like that, i wish to see the all of you dying in front of me and i'll just stare into your face and giggle. Laters.

Unyouthfulness

Its a Youth Day and im stucked in hostel. Oh one more thing, im really really (i mean it) sick of my life without internet and all those whos around me, im just fucking sick of you all.

WTB

Want...

 

- Merciless Gladiator Warstaff

- full Wrath of Spellfire set

- Icon of Silvercrescent moon

- Seal of the Exorcist

- Pendant of Dominance

- 375 enchanting

- 375 tailoring (spellcloth spec)

- armored netherdrake

- exalted with all factions

- the title Grand Marshal

- Attunement to Mount Hyjal to be done

- 4 primal mooncloth bag

 

Will be trading a one night of slimy sizzling hot sex for it.

 

Hey but really, you believe that shit? no way! im keeping my virginity...wait a sec...maybe i'll consider lol nah jk

 

anyways, 5h more to my depature back to Singapore, back to my *shakes fist* hostel. In addition to that, it'll some mugging and then moment when school resumes, i'll have my mid year examination. ALRIGHT WELL DONE A LVL! screw it, the examination totally lifted all my hardcore WoW-ing plans. gone!

 

Seems like i spent a lot of time studyin huh untill my gaming hours are affected. eh NO. the ratio of playing over studyin is 9 : 1. Im sry mom dad sis lol i studied less than 3h during my holidays only, too bad =P what did i do most of the time? what else, WoW-ing

 

Pvping...arena-ing...oh by the way, formed a 2v2 team named frostbite ( if you cant understand any of this, means its time for you to get the fuck out of my blog =P jk dont be mad okay? ), with me and a mage only. Both spec'd the infamous "3min spec" or "PoM Pyro". Owns. When the both of us one shot one of our opponent, it'll be game over for them. However there are always exceptions, like presence of a damn fucked up healer ; or two players with S2 or full epic'd-out gears ; two rogues with cloak of shadow and vanish. "fuck that heals!"..."gay pally bubbles"..."two rogues? cloak of shadow and vanish? sienz" etc

 

Anyways, really, i couldnt stop laughing when i saw some of the team's name. "The Thundering Fart"..."Im exalted with your mom"...one even have the name "Ba Ku Teh"...immediately i assumed that they were chinese, and i must say, they got thrashed mad. Sad pair of chinese people sigh ( lol aint me some orange skinned people? ). But thanks, you gave me a good laughter. Moreover, my teamate's this Ph.D holder in Hokkien, lol funny languages. Won a match " song bo?"...One shotted some people " we both 3min spec even warriors also buay tahan"..."even wars will cmi"...etc lol

 

WoW, so many WoW stuffs.  But umm, really, i felt unprepared for my exams, i constantly forget that i am a scholar myself ( who gives a fucking damn... ), althought baheve very unscholarly, but am still one. Hmm, i'd say scholarship is one fund that supports our education in singapore, and it doesnt mean that you MUST excel in order to obtain the scholarship, thats my point of view ( im walking a big round, and shooting myself back, bleh what websters implies is so contrasting ).

 

So basically, i want everything to go my way. simple. i just wish i have Billgate's fortune, and really, with that money, i can live my entire live without even working! i can play WoW all day! If only theres no such thing as money and everything you asked for would drop from the sky.

 

" I wan dim sum! Lor Mai kai" *puff* "wow delicious!"

" i want Alienware desktops!" *puff" "wow window's starting!"

" i want an aquarium and tiger fish! " *puff* "yay! "

" i want you to shut the fuck up!" *puff* "mmmmmmmmmm!!!!!mmmmmmm!!!!!"

" i want you to drink shits! " *gulp gulp* "ahhhhhh!"

 

ok wtf. Im off, tomorrow got some travelling to do and i want to sleep.

 

"i want to sleep" *snoring*

 

 

Enough is enough

What the fuck? I swear this Malaysia is one hella retarded place, and i seriously have no idea why people go mad about their shopping paradise or local foods, i for one will hate this fucking place like a forever!

 

This place is unhygienic, kept very unwell and many things are just unreasonable ( you know what im talking about ).

 

A person from Telekom called me, asked me where's Mr Chew ( my dad he is referring to ), i said " im sorry hes not in at the moment" he replied " sorry boleh cakap dalam bahasa melayu" i was like THE FUCK? you cant understand simple sentences like that? replied in malay to that fucker, then he asked me for my dad's hp i said (for example) " zero one two- two three four five six seven eight ". Guess what? he couldnt understand also. i have to again translate everything to malay to him. Seriously i understand my poor malay standard and yes im in this country, but ENGLISH is still the international language and we ALL live on this 3rd rock from the Sun. really...

 

OMFG

 

For years in my childhood i am prone to having running noses and it never gotten better no matter what supplements i toke ( trust me, thousand of RMs have been spent onto it) and then when i moved to Singapore, i realised that i literally do not sneeze or "nose stuck" at all. Believe it or not, everytime i went back home, the moment i stepped in my house, i'll sneeze a minimum of 10 times in a row. I swear it!

 

Another thing i'll never understand is that, up till now, i will never be able to enjoy some stable fast internets. NEVER! Diffrent peoples have diffrent needs, some needed a nice Porche, some needed lots of handbags, some needed a lot of cooking utensils or whatsoever.

 

I      JUST       WANT     A    GOOD     INTERNET      DAMMIT!

 

I'll never get it. Some even have the guts to tell me a good internet is of no great importance to my life. I screwed that person.

 

So really, ENOUGH IS ENOUGH, im sick of everything around me.

Love me or hate me

Well i noticed my blog's been left desserted and been collecting dust. So dropping some shit onto my blog, ad doing it out of my boredom.

 

1) LF world of warcraft consistent 2v2 arena pst

 

2) " Love me or hate me its still and obsession

               Love me or hate me its a question

      If you love me then thank you

                If you hate me then fuck you"

 

3) I fucking hate examinations to be conducted just right after holidays, it kills my fun during my holiday

 

4) [A] 70 mage LF weekend raiding guild pst

 

5) I hate studying

 

Thats all, later guys!

White hairs! Stress!

Seems that stress have infested my veins. Even i can feel the intense bloodflow nowadays. Simpyl because of the deprivation of internet. How sad.

I am now in Starbucks, with my roomate just opposite of me, using internet, struggling ( for me ) just to get something downloaded. 268mb of world of warcraft pacth. One more thing i wanted to stress, i can no longer trust other people to do things for me, for i shall, from now on, asked no one but myself to get whatever things to be done. A wanted to pass a CD to me, broke his promise, but thats alright, he passed to B, an ex-classmate of mine also. Very nice of him, i mean it, without a single bit of sarcasm, to do such a favor for me. B however needs to leave for Rugby finals, alright, thats an asshole lol, i looked for C a scholar friend of mines, grab hold of the CD and came along with a million "Thank you"s. Guess what? He went for his drama CCA, totally forgetting that i am on my way to get the CD, and he forgot to bring his phone with him. *shakes fists*. Its alright, because he helped me to get from the friend. I got D, a junior of mines, to get from C. Thats done. However only later he noticed me that hes going back the very next day back to his hometown. What a tragic. He mentioned he would pass to E. "Thank you" again. Called E, mentioned he was not aware of such things as a CD, called D back, just to realised that he left it in his room.

Seriously, weep for humanity. Such an act is a real insult to us, to most intelligent creature of this realm. Enough has been said, you more or less can taste my anger warming up the medium around you, air, like a microwave.

I am here in Starbucks for internet. Before that, for my mobile phone ownership transfer. AFTER all have been done, the customer servicee called me and notified me of a precedure that was missed out. Guarantee of a guarantor. FINE! I dragged my slippers ( hey, i am in Orchard road...slippers? Its fairly ok thought, but i am wearing some downtown shorts and some Giordano plain red t-shirt...) down back to the customer service centre. She apologised, of course to my expectation she'd better apologise however of which i held her for no fault. Guarantor needed to be 21 and above, and a Singaporean.

Just something to interrupt this flow of event, i just got disconnected by the Wireless@SG and reconnected, damn, they're never stable, for thank God for that i get to download my baby - WoW patch.

Continuation of that, i was kinda pissed to only a small extend. AFTER i had paid the $200 for the deposit, you told me that? Still upholding my gentlemanly behavious i replied " That $200 is not my concern, its the guarantor. So when can i get back to you?" Of course she assisted me in any ways i could after serveral methods she suggested like getting my aunt here physically to be the guarantor, gosh if my aunt could be here i wouldnt have to literally went to their house and beg them for the letter for the authorisation for the transfer. So? I just have to wait untill couple more days to see if i can get hold of a scape goat just to drag its bloody flesh to just sign a bloody deal.

Oh yea, i think theres a joker keep coming into my system and put a configuration into my wireless. untill i have to type a command

%SystemRoot%\system32\services.msc /s

in the run system just to clear it off and blablabla yadayada. What a prank. However, i am intelligent enough lol, Microsoft.com and its support centre helps! Previously ( trust me it has occured serveral times) and when i try to configure my wifi to reconnect it just wouldnt, caused me to restart. Maybe its just a bug, who knows.

Alrighty, 55% more to finish the patch. Its been a long time since i went Nanyang Junior College. My classmates and I have blended well also, quite some fun time we have. Just that my NAPFA ( of which to my greatest extend of my knowledge I am still unable to figure out what that acronyme stands for though), basically its just a physical education test. I got 0 pull-ups. ZERO lol. The rest went well. 

Errps, holidays drawing close, and I kinda going back very early, for the sake of my World of Warcraft thats all. Furthermore, my mid-year examinations are jusr drawing close.

Oh yea, another recent incident that angered me a lot. Before that want to tell you briefly how inhuman most hostels are nowadays. DO NOT see it as something common and so conform with it, but use your humility and judge it.

Weekdays curfew : 7.30pm

Weekends curfew : 11.00pm

To stay overnight at friends' house, parents letter and hostel approval is required. Leaving without approval from the Oldham Hall Intranet System will result in consequences.

To leave hostel at anytime, logout must be done.

Main door is magnetised at curfew hours.

Tell me. Is that how you babysit scholars? Or should i put it, adolescents? Its laughable how many people got used to it and quietly nod their heads when questioned about it. You tell me this generation of people are going to be future leaders? Again, enough has been said, once, just recently, i submitted an overnight leave at 2pm (thats is the lastest time i could think of), left hostel, went out at 8pm. Later at 12.30am, just about four hours after that, i got a sms from the Assistant Hall Master that i went out without conscent. Oh god, you tell me for a period of 10 hours you cannot get a overnight leave approved and you blamed me for that? WHAT?! I dont sit in the hostel all day long just to wait for your petty staffs to get my leave approved. I AM A HOMOSAPIEN! Accidents do happen and we are all holding this time bomb. You have your reasons, i understand that, that is WHY i sent it so EARLY in, but i HAVE my stance also, i need it approved fast also for my own convenience while i already toke care of YOUR convenience. You tell me this is an environment you could put a 18 years old adult in? Funnier thing is, the hostel manager mentioned somehting like if were we of thinking to live independently, we were to think twice again. WHOA? Are you blackmailing us?

For that one of the house master got pissed with me. SO? i couldnt bother much. Seriously. Moreoever when recently one of my roomate represented our cluster for a forum on whatsoever improvement we wanted. I gave him a VERY STRONG and VIOLENT objection on this curfew and to a horrific way "requested" of him to jodly well present this idea to the entire hostel committe. Of course we was on my side also, so all the more he would make it a point to stress a lot more on that.

Toke a look of myself just now in a restroom in the shopping mall, noticed a lot of white hairs coming out again. You tell me, what is at fault of this domination of white hair on my head?

Me hamster fantasy

Me is a hamster, name's Lester.

 

Me now in hostel computer, hand too shot, type too slow. Me like rainy days, like now.

 

Twoday me eat Fillet-Oh-Fish, OH wrong, me ate Double Fillet-O-Fish, very nice, 3 tomato, 2 mayonise, 1 curry, with french fries and nuggets, while eating, me wonder will me ever find a nugget in a chicken.

 

Later me take bus back after get the bus concession renewed, saw one big tummy lady, me think she is a mother-to-be, but but but, me saw her husband holding her arms and supporting her because floor wet wet, later she slip slip then pain pain. But but but, me saw the guy also have tummy, same size as her wife...is he a Fomther-to-be?

 

Me me me saw lots of cow pictures at the side of the highway today when me in bus, just like hollywood like that, pretty cows stood there. Me me find it intriguing.

 

Me me me a simple hamster, ask nothing but World of Warcraft : Burning Crusade and internet, but but but then cannot get them. Me think because God hate mouses fighting and using each other, thats why i got banned from computer entertainments. Me did nothing wrong! Me just use mouse to move that cursor in my computer thats all !

 

Me very deprived now, like hamster eacheverysingleoneperday running on the wheel, doing things like what me hamster's master called them homeworks. So tiring. Me me locked in a cage, but but then very the cozy, me have a very cozy bed, cozy blanket, cozy bedlinen, cozy cold air-conditioner, cozy roomates, and many many more! Me get to play SimCity4 now and then, me never know that me hamster's master's world, their building is smaller than me on the screen! So small! Also also me me watching 1 Litre of Tears now, very very nice japanese drama. Me me very touched by the japanese series. More more, me also joined the hostel badminton club, got couple of pro players that can trash I, that day coach, which is one of the Assistant Hall Master in me hostel ask me to go for trial, at the end, me got asked to come back next Friday, yay!

 

Me me cant wait anymore, me me need entertainment, if not it is going to be the end of the World.............

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

of Warcraft : Burning Crusade....

 

Me me hamster wan me master Lester to be able to surf Friendster everyday, not mixing with gangsters in school like twisters, or eating maybe not fillet-o-fish but fillet-o-lobsters when me is sad.

 

So anyone out there can help I with me sadness? >.<

 

Maybe me should just study for A levels, sigh~~

Bitter tastes

Where the melodious rhythm of rainfall cleanse my sleepy mind and awaken me...

 

Its raining now. Yes and its been a centuary since i last blogged, thanks to many unfortunate events that hinder our reach to a broadband, and now we face a much fearful peril and is dealing with it. Its been very frustrating for the whole lot of us in the room, tyring to get abroadband, only to find out that we dont have a cable point in our rooms for our cable modem, even with the paid charges for the installation of a cable point there is still no darn way for this Oldham Hall to have a cable point set up. How tragic. Something even more annoying to me, while me and the other roomate of mines struggled to obtain a broadband connection, the other few sat there doing nothing and just wait for a miracle to bestow on them. Dont mention that you've got nothing to do, its just that you've got no sincerity to participate in.

 

Enough of it, and now i have to pay for the painful internet fees to access internet. I must really say, some people NEVER change. Rumors have him potraited as a very mean and inconsiderate bastrard, my intergrity shielded me from that mindset. Facts are factual, theres no escape for it. Ever met a person, you were on the bus, bypassing him on a bus stop, asked him to board the bus and head to hostel across a glass panel of the bus, refused, upon reaching the bus stop in front of hostel, said changed him mind and asked you to wait for him at the bus stop in front of hostel. The hell? Why should i? I am right in front of my own hostel and i cant bloody walk some 200 steps and get in and must wait for you to board another bus that might eat up 5min and welcome you at the bus stop? You common sense really shocked the human population, really. Or, asking you to buy him snacks whenever he knows that you're out. Get your lazy ass moving please and stop troubling other people worse than a master troubling his maids. Or, playing that i dont know whatsoever called box thingy that have 6 diffrent colours and you keep switching those 9 squares at each side of the box to obtain a dominant colour on one side of the box, untill late night at 3am, talking and kept asking on how to solve it. For goodness's sake, i know its a Good Friday, if you want to solve it, go to your bed and solve it, dont come and make all those noises at night at my corner of the room. Also, a person that no matter how many times you try to asked him to just STOP lying on your bed, he just simply does it. I swear, one more time and I'm going to get him flamed. Seriously, you telling me this is an act of a 18 years old guy?

 

Go back to your hometown and die please, and let tommorrow be a better day for the world.

 

Luckily there are still good news for me. Went for mural paintings, somehow its like some wallpaper painting. I touched-up...i swear in God's name, i touched-up REALLy a lot, and spent some 2-3 hours non stop for that, and before that even some 1 hour+ non stop painting, and i swear the reward's just as sweet. Towards the end a teacher approached me and asked for my name, later followed by a " Are you an art student? " and then compliments on my skills and thanked me for that effort. Not trying to boast, but for once in my life somehting wonderful has haoppened, i could not resist to share the...good news...just like how those Christians in my family who tried to lure me into that religion and toke the reason "sharing good news" to brainwash me on things like that.

 

Anyways, i am deeply sick about my life now. Its been very boring and meaningless. Its really a waste of my time, and my life. I just spent hours sleeping and doing nothing. I woke up this and yesterday morning, listened to online lectures, so revised a bit and i am already sick of it. i swear, so many sick things are happening all around me, and the goodness of those good events can barely come, or rather totally outweighed by those curses.

 

Day after another, im pushed nearer and nearer to my brim of sanity. Its will not hold on much longer, clock's ticking, merciless time is draining sand in an hourgalss to the bottom, the sunken places for dismay. I taste only bitterness in my life, nothing else.

Of birds and cage

Such pathetic life i have, upon moving into a new boarding, i found my surrounding malnourished with internet. How awful and tragic for a person like me to face this depletion of "life" when internet and its entertainments are my power source. Im starving.

 

Now? I paid some S$10 for the hostel internet, and surprisingly today's quite a "weird day" for me. Went to a barber shop, and they charge S$22 for just a college students, i stretched out my eye widely and responded with a "ok........", rejecting this *ehem* offer. Buying all gloceries, washing powders, biscuit and tissues cost S$10 exactly. A motorcyclist on the road who was on his motorcycle, kept standing up and sitting down simultaneously while driving on the street, i thought he was fucking the air but NO, the hell is the guy doing lol. Swining my leg while waiting for a bus at a bus stop, simple because the seat is so god damn high from the ground and rarely theres a chance for a 183cm guy like to to have myself sitting on a seat when my legs are not in contact with the ground, then got a annoynamous person sending me a sms "stop swinging your leg", left me stunned lol, called up the person only to found out that my friend changed his hp and saw me swinging my leg...violently on the seat at the bus stop. Taking off my handphone skin, since the shell is tranparent and the skin beneath the shell is removed, my battery and all the parts inside the phone is now nude to its surrounding, what a feast for my eyes!

 

Enough for the good things lol, bad things had struck me for the past few months, one thing after another keep condemning my luck. Its not like im superstitious, however i DO believe that bad lucks do come at times and after that certain period you will blossom with this unlimited fragrance of luck. What a wonderful thing it is...to dream about. sigh. Getting into ACJC was the one and only thing i wished for and blessed with. The rest? nah....CCAs i wanted to get in...badminton, choir, getting into shooting club's school team, all like bubbles, popped and vanished. Getting into Oldham hall? Many claimed that its a "nice" hostel, but not me, a nice hostel is when its a HOSTEL and total freedom is granted. Perfect architectures...aesthetic polllution-free...air-conditioned rooms...those are always an added values to a hostel, however for a wild horse like me who dwelled on wide un-fenced plains, these places are a big NO-NO for me.

 

Moreover, my sly truency and all my cunning plans which were suppose to be "behind-the-scene" got exposed to the authorities of my hostel under this very unfortunate circumstance. Sky was falling on me that day when i got to know about it. Along with this unfrotunate events, i think God has all the more reasons to rain another series of unfortunate event on me, right after thatr, when i got paged by the office to go down and collect my bedlinens, i was left locked outside because i forgot to bring my room card and access was denied into my own room. NONE of my roomates were in and i had to go down and retrieve a temporary card to gain access to my room.

 

"No matter how dark the night is, morning always come..."

 

yea yea for the millionth time i have mentioned it. Today, finally the formula to all the dreadful deeds in my life has gotten to an end. I am seeing a sunrise now, and a bird who can once spread its wing and soar in the sky with the key to the lock is just right in front of me. For so many rules and regulation in my life that i have to take time out and mugged, I found this section of the booklet mentioned

 

" Boarders who wished to apply for a PRIVATE broadband internet service, a phone line is installed in the room. For boarders 18 years old and below, a conscent is required from guardian..." yadayadayada....

 

INTERNET! Now the tide has changed and its time for the scale to be even, if in return i have to follow this strict rules but i get to have a private internet connection and can have my own time over my favourite game World fo Warcraft, its definetly worth is. See? Chinese sayings are true at times lol. So for now, i will use my darn beak and drill the hell out of all pillars of the cage and break it and fly away! I can get myself an internet! Furthermore i can play WoW! YES! My saga in the world.............

 

of warcraft will have its continuation!

 

So much for that, i am feeling thristy now, so am lazy to type furthermore, moreover, i have my laundry downstair waiting for me. Laters, bitches!

the F*** in my life

Have you ever felt the utmost agitation in your life?

 

Yes i am experiencing it now. A lousy internet, is all that need to agitate me to the very extreme.

 

So now i am telling you now the

 

FUCK OF MY LIFE!

 

After some stressful week on my Junior College posting, and my utmost dissapointment over my GCE O level result of which it REALLY did not fuckin demonstrate and reflect the effort i put into the examination AT ALL. FUCK YOU, YOU GOD DAMN BASTARD O LVL!

 

Upon being subjected to these torments and I still have to face the MOST nerve-biting case in my life - lousy internets. Of which this problem alone has caused my to bang my keyboard hardly before...screamed at whoever i sees...have no appetide over any kind of food thingumajig...

 

Scenario I

You wake up early in the morning, 3am and tried to at least have a chance to enjoy your World of Warcraft because simply it has been a long long long time since you last played it and then found it so laggy that you cant even cast a single spell in the game and then ended up disconnected from the server for many many many times

 

Scenario II

You wake up again on the same morning at 5am, and tried again, same thing happened

 

Scenario III

You wake up once again at 9am, same shit happens

 

Scenario VI

In the afternoon you tried the same thing and it happens again

 

Scenario V

You cannot log into msn AT ALL and for a 10 minutes non-stop trying you finally get it logged in

 

Scenario VI

You found out that you cannot log in your hotmail account

 

Scenario VII

You tried numerous times then only you can get into your blog

 

Seriously people, you still have such things in a hostel in this 21st centuary? You are outdated. If you tell me you cant even know how to make a copy of a folder. You are seriously outdated. If you are telling me you dont even know how to install a program. You are seriously undoutedly outdated. If you are telling me you dont even know how to shut down a computer. You are seriously undoubtedly a...i don't know you go ahead and figure on your own a word... 

 

While on the other hand you complained that we do not learn to study well....we just do not learn to do houseworks...we just do not learn how to do our own laundry...we just do not know how to behave...we just do not know how to drive....we just do not know how to cook....while we have already mastered it you simply toke the reason that "i am tired and old" to get away with it. NO WAY.You  better darn make sure you have the same turn-outs and not some dimished returns. Futhermore, it is plain dumb to bring in "time" into the arguement, you have your career but we also have our career - study. Is the scale even now?

 

I am seriously very sick of my life now, frankly i just PON school last Friday for no reason, simply because i am SICK OF MY LIFE. This lousy retarded education system is ripping every student's life out and you are telling me you are selecting the best for elitism and to rule the rest of us? I am telling you that you are just selecting the same person over and over again with the same attributes and term them as "good"..."smart"...you are just making this society dumb and slow and not creative anymore you know?

 

People with good results. "Oh they are smart" HELL FUCKING NO. They are just people who just commit more time to STUDY the same thing others are made available to. That is all. Look at nowadays society...does this word "mugger" sounds anymore familiar to you?

 

You scientists debunk to have your fellow creations to serve this world better and make it a better place. Do you think so? Look outside your window and try to take a deep breathe. What is it? Try to flip open your newspaper or your TIME magazine, what is it that you see inside? War. Go to your junior college and attend your GP sessions. What is it that they need you to submit regarding in an arguement as your assignment? You more or less can figure out. AND THEN you have to guts to come and tell me " Oh wells what to do, it is what society is and you HAVE to know"

 

I'd rather die now.

 

One more simple question, are you happy now with your life? You may say now but let me assured you, bear this question in time and when you get agitated by something in your life question yourself this, you might just result in giving up reading my blog and drove off to shop and you will end up in a traffic jam and you will start bitching. you happy?

 

Now, i dont have a mood to play World of Wacraft now. (Hooray lester can does his homeworks now!) In addition to that, i am even unfocused on my homeworks now than ever before ( try me this aint working, im still an ordinary teenagers).

 

The more tou try to refrain us from something we want, the more we will crave for it. There are instances where i play WoW and i automatically stopped and did my homeworks, even i was surprised with that nature that time. However if you give me a bloody internet to surf on, and when there are unsatisfaction...you jodly well make sure you don't say anything "exothermic"...

 

Conclusion - I see no point in studying, and no reason over why i cannot get a good internet, and why am i stucked in this world and not dead yet.

 

A letter to....

 

Dear XXX,

 

     Hi how have you been? Its been ages since I last contacted you and surely the both of us have much to missed out. Hows you holidays been? Haha i bet you must be so caught in the A level warzone. Well then, pity the both of us, simply because we are on the same boat :( i am doing my A levels also. By the way, send my regards to your family and wish they remain in the pink of health.

 

     Anyways, something to "cherish" you lol. My favourite cybercafe is closing down! It was that day i went to the shopping mall and tried to restock my warehouse of biscuits, i was stunned by the sudden closure of many of the shops. I browsed through the mall and found out that there are only few remaining shops open. Of which one of them was my favourite cybercafe. I approached the shop, a note saying " Thank you for all your support, since 1999, Last day on 25th Feb 2007" pasted near the entrance. I was literally devastated and the sky was falling on me. Of course i played in that shop for one last time. Gosh i am going to miss that place so much. out of curiosity i actually questioned the shopkeeper about the reason over the shop's closure. Said the shopkeeper that the mall's undergoing a big renovation. dammit.

 

    I have grown weary over something also these days. I am on the verge of losing control of myself and fall addicted to World of Warcraft again ( and Nescafe also ). Of course i strive for the equality of my attributes, like gaming skills...academic...health etc. Rest assured, i will still remember this dreadful A level deed i signed, and my pact with it will definetly serve as a drive to do my homeworks and refrain myself from those *temptation*. Anyways, just something delightful to share with you, i finally got my mage to level 70! maximum level! Woot i was so happy! Now i can fully enjoy the world with my new Snowy Gryphoon Mount. A flying mount! Grind golds for my epic flying mount...grind reputation for my leet caster sword and if time allows work on my profession.

 

    Ok enough of those. Something's been disturbing me a lot, to some extend. My JAE posting result. Its coming up soon, estimated to be 6th March. I really wanted to stay in Anglo-Chinese Junior College, cut-off point is 8 points, of which i got a 12 points for my O levels and a bonus point of 4, so i am just right on the margin. Fear the unavailability of places for me in ACJC though. However, so far i have been able to stay optimistic. Come rain or shine, i thought. Who knows right over at Anderson or St.Andrews Junior College can offer a better life for me?

 

    Days been boring for me. Chemistry test tomorrow. Today went to gym and workout. Everday some 2 hours of study times and of course an evening for my world of warcraft untill dinner time. School? Lectures...tutorials...practicals...they are all the same in some sense - boring etc. My room? never had a minute when theres not a single ant crawling. Just now i just ate pizza.  3 pieces and a cup of coke. Some coolies they have there huh.

 

    Last week we had Choy and May ( heard that they are quite renowned and soem people in...MTV? ) . Thye gave each of us a big calendar and was there to spread the awareness of the illness Lupus. First lady went up and told her about her past times, she is married now and when she started off and halfway she "partially' broke down and started weeping and sobbing. When she mentioned "the sky come falling down" when she got Lupus and that many illnesses came along, that was when she broke down and cried. Followed up next are May and Choy, one of then started sobbing also when they mentioned that their mom is a victim and how she suffered. At that moment i realised something though, the part of me that makes me want to stay in Interact Club has already gone...sad right?

 

     XXX, these days been very clouded for me. Are we teenagers always question the same thing? Are we feeling empty all the time? Is it love? is it because we live our life in materialism? Is it because we live our life wandering aimlessly? Well surely you will tell me time will unfold those answers slowly. Lets hope so, really. As you know i am quite an impatient person so dont expect me to hang on with this for long, i am going to get desperate soon. So much so for me, all the best to you in all aspect of life also =D .  Keep in touch ok? 

 

    Seems to me that the cunning time does not allow me to write anymore, so i'll just stop here and all the best in your A levels also. Laters.

 

P.S. I am still a 18 years old BOY hehe

 

Yours faithfully,

Lester

 

Lust Lush Greenery

Yes, symptons of a loveless life...we whine about almost everything in our life...even the most wonderful thing can be converted into the vilest deed and hurt us. Sigh...

 

Let me construct a lists of annoying things which agitated me

 

- Ants infesting and invading my poor laptop of which they are attracted to lights while im just trying to have a peaceful time blogging, but they left me in a restless mood

- Gusts of dry associated with this extreme heat's onslaught for the entire evening, while I am just trying to have my laptop laid still on the table however this curtains kept slapping my darn face while im facing my laptop, and this "vacuum" which literally drained off the very last bit of moist on my skin while i was sleeping. Awful.

- Dusts. I just cleaned my room yesterday but when i got back to my room today the floor if carpeted with this layer of dusts, the hell!

- Sat on the bus which i just want to stay alone for a 5 minute or so, but this pair of "lunatic" couple went on the bus which the girl was sobbing and the guy was like hugging her and was *ehem* giving her some close-ranged kisses. Dammit, do you know that is damn cruel and hurts a loveless guy just sitting right behind the both of you?

- My retarded working 120GB external hardrive which I bet it is pushing me to the brim of buying another USB cable since it has been acting weirdly recently

- Thinking of tommorow's mass physical education, of which i just realised i have totally lost my pace to those excersizes simply because I was absent on Thursday for THREE consecutive weeks

- Put tartar sauce instead of Thousand Island on my salad just now for dinner

- Loads of homework, which I barely managed them, and in spite of all the time spent on homeworks, it still end up as some bluff to show my fellows teachers that i am doing my homework, and left me gasping for air everyday.

- I spent most of the time of the day day-dreaming or playing computer games. Dammit, I cannot focus! ( of course, when its time to study, i went day dreaming; when its time to rest, i play games)

- I dont have a girlfriend and I am feeling bad over that darn face of mines, envying all those "hawt" and "cool" looking guys around.

- I got myself a hair dye labelled "chocolate brown", but the result is some extra dosage on the darkening of my hair tone.

- I am bearing this curse of aha-never-gets-gd-but-laggy-internet, doomed by it for eternity. Caused my lvl 67 mage to die 5 times consecutively in the game simply because it got disconnected, of which i would have leveled to 68 by then.

- I am so sucky in Mathematics, Physics, Chemistry, Economics and Chinese. Of which 5 of them out of 6 are my subjects which i am taking now. General Paper? Darn that, i'd rather back to those days which I am still struggling with English but excelling in sciences and mathematics ( *hallelujah* Angel :" Lester, must be grateful of what you have. Be happy!" *thunder roars* Devil :" Crave for more! drown yourself in the sorrow of your past!" )

- My next room roomie which just cannot understand the Philosphy of Humility ( go get "Dummies on Humility", please ) and just kept banging the door hard everyday they enter or exit the room, despite the many times i gently requested that they stop doing that because it is some...irritant

- My addiction over Nescafe

- Worrying over poosibilities of getting kicked out from my current Anglo-Chinese Junior College ( of which AC is where my heart belongs )

 

You see, its not like I am making a big deal out of this tiny puny details of my life, and bitching for the sake of bitching. NO. It is because there is no such thing as Love ( i am getting desperate, shit why am i like this, i am only 18! )...NOT! I am just damn ungrateful with every happenings in my life, there is nothing for me to look foward to the next day. Except for my darn World of Warcraft which is the drug of my life ( OH REALLY?! ), I see nothing else in my life that serves the same drive. Sad huh?

 

I just want my next day to be full of hope, a day that i will look foward to, which everynight i will want a tommorrow, i would want to shed the old leaves on that darn old tree, and grow new ones, and that lush green looks of it. You want it?

 

 

White Rose

The,

The rose~

in my hands~

is not in red~

but in white~

my rose~

Rose.

happy valentine's day

 

Uneven Scale

General Certificate Examination "Ordinary" Level, your fucked up

 

English Language - B3

Combined Humanities ( Literature Elective, Social Studies ) - A2

Geography - B3

Elementary Mathematics - A1

Additional Mathematics - B4

Physics - A2

Chemistry - A2

Biology - B3

Higher Chinese - D7

 

Lets go subject by subject.

 

English - I am glad

Combined Humanities - Delighted

Geopraphy - I had never knew that mental breakdown during the examination would get me this grade however I could not bother much about it

Elementary Mathematics - I had done my duty of getting this grade which is a must

Additional Mathematics - I had no idea what have became of me, the all-good-in-maths Lester is already long dead, I have expected this turnout

Physics - its is FUCKED UP! Do you have any idea in my stance I put in the time to mug and study for this subject? 

Chemistry - ITS EVEN FUCKING RETARDED! I swear with my entire ancestor's name and with teh blood in my veins, i SWEAR i paid a 100% attention to every single practical every week and 99% of the lesson! I SWEAR TO THE GOD! I DID ALL MY FUCKING PRELIMINARY PAPERS AND MUGGED SO BADLY FOR IT AND THIS IS WHAT YOU FUCKERS OUT THERE GIVE ME?! YOU JUST HAPPILY TOKE AWAY MY ONLY HOPE AND ONE AND ONLY CONFIDENCE THAT IS LEFT IN MY FUCKING LIVE YOU FREAKING SADIST! From a term test result of 40% I did all I could and all the effort put in to get a good grade and I improved all the way to a 82% in mid-year examination and maintained the same result in Preliminary Examination which is way harder and in this all easy looking O lvl exam you gave me an A2?

Biology - Not something in my will-so-so-affect-my-mood list

Higher Chinese - Do i look like i freaking care? i got an A2 for chinese and which retard in this world would go all the way to get an A1 in Higher Chinese?

 

My testimonial is as followed: [comments enclosed in this form are my responses fyi ]

 

Lester has been a student of Anglo-Chinese School (independent) since 2004 to 2006. I was his Pastoral Care teacher ( PCT ) for th eyear 2006 and taught him in Elementary Mathematics.

 

Academically, Lester is exceptional and diligent student [that is a damn good lie]. His assignments are proof of his hard work and good organisational skills [ did i mentioned that i only passed out 4 of his million over homeworks in the entire year and yet still get A1? ] He also has shown a keeness to learn from his errors. [yes, everything except for this maths and yet i still get the fucking A1 and the rest? i learnt their mistakes and yet i get a fucked up result from those subjects] He is perceptive ad possesses an alert, inquiring mind.

 

What is highly praiseworthy is that Lester has been a steadfast worker, despite his heavy workload and his huge comittement to the school. He is highly disciplined in his time management and has achieved commentable results in his studies [ studies =/ O lvl ] and Co-Curricular Activity. Lester has been an active member of the St.John Ambulance Bridgade ( SJAB ) since 2005 [did i mentioned I just got the Adult First Aid Certificate just now? ] . In the same year, he was elected a m=comitte member in SJAB ( CPBS - External Assistant ). Lester was also named the Best Cadet in 2006. [ since when im the best cadet in 2006? i thought only 2005? anyways, you should know that I was "dis-illusioned" in mid 2006 fyi ] In recognition of his exemplary performance, he obtained the NYAA Silver Award and the Commissioner Badge in 2006 [ piece of cake, just do what they tell you to do and you'll get it like oxygen in the air]

 

An active member of the Interact Club [ you dont interact in this club, it stands for INTERnational ACTion, dont take us wrongly] Lester puts in numerous hours of voluntary work at Rotary Childcare Home and Chao Yang Special School. In 2005, Lester went to Thailand under the Rotary Club Singapore as a Tsunami Volunteer [i paid for the trip, but i tell you, the one week CIP is definetly worth going, no regrets AT ALL ] . His promotion to Public Relation Officer (PRO) is a testimony to his competent leadership [ just talk a lot and talk crap and you will get this rank ] . He had also perticipated in Singapore Special Olympics and was one of the referees for the game Bocce. Given his undivided commitment for CCA and outstanding contribution to the club, Lester was awarded Distinction award for CCA honours.

 

Lester has clearly proven to be a dependable and responsible student. He rendered invaluable service to his class by being part of the Class Committe [bullshit] . His unwavering positive attitude [ yea right, im a moody guy ] and determination to excel are key factors to his sucess. A confident student [ i may look like one but i am not, and dont argue that with me i know myself better than anyone ] who exudes positive self-esteem, [ do you know i intend to sign up for the Dove, self-esteem fund? ] Lester continues to make positive contribution to the class through his cheerfulness [ finally, something that is factual ] , enthusiasm and perseverance. He is adored by his peers [ as the craziest and most un-scholarly classmates OF COURSE they adore me for that lol, but i like my class a lot, i LOVE YOU GUYS! and i still am...] and valued as a true friend. He has participated in variety of charity drives and has gladly lent his hand in serving the community [ bye bye malaysia! ] . His charitabl spirits also helped to raise funds for various causes such as the President's Challange in 2006 [ seriously, i dont recalled me myself doing so O.o ] Lester has certainly been a delight to teach and will undoubtedly give his best in all that he does. 

 

The end~~

 

Well seriously, I am very disaapointed with my results. However to some extend I do accept the results that I have gotten because it is partly due to my own slackiness. Once a teacher told me this,

 

"You out in A1 effort, you get A1 result"

 

However, I am 18 years old now, and i will learn to see it through. Pick up from it, which is just plain easy to say for myself and not do it, and not make the same mistakes again. I am, of course very fearful to the fact that I might be able to remain in ACJC and maybe got kicked to other JC, but frankly i really wanted to stay in ACJC. Whatever it is, there are just few subjects I am very pleased with the grade. English and Combined Humanities. I have no idea what to say, but just that i did MY best to scoring the best out of it, dont judge my diligence from YOUR point of view, pls, that is just plain immature, if you want to argue on that, i have tons of analogy to argue on that and by all means, be my guest and debate with me, bring it on! But looking at those number of people who got 9A1s and 8A1s and one evn got 10A1, I wont judge god on that, because i know plain envious on them aint bringing me anywhere, I truly believe everyone is made uniquely, and is just that this unfair society and generalise what is "good" and "bad" and people out there who umm...did worse than me, there is no need to cry out loud for that, its not worthy.

 

Of which i am brave enough to say, " I like who I am now "

 

I like the way I am now. I may be some jokers who acted silly in front of people but its me. I dont mind going to Holland Village with my past year classmates, some 8 of us shouted "FUCK YOU" and "ACS ACS ACS ACS" there and attracted almost everyone's attention ( yes we did that and i swear we ALL will be in deep shit if someone ever recognise us). I like my sometimes head-care attitude on stuffs and works. I like my Nokia 3100 stone-aged like phone. I like my handwriting. I like my drawings. I like my retarded-spoiled-without-a-roller-mouse. I like my boalster.  I like hardcore playing World of Wacraft.

 

I am happy the way i am that I am dare enough to do things with myself standing firmly on the ground, doing what I believe in and go according to my policy and will never violate it. I like myself not like acting cool and be cool just to climb to the *ehem* top of the society, rather i like mixing with retarded peopls who talk craps all the time and ended laughing mad at it. I am Lester Chew. I am who i am.(sounds familiar?)

 

I am happy the way i am now,but there is just one last thing i want -  to stay in ACJC. I dont want to become a 6 pointer or whatsoever, just give me my life back and please, humans,  dont take away what every single individual are meant in this world, you are killing and slashing their soul. Return their soul back, dont overdo things and forced people to the brim of their capability...we dont...feed on people's sorrow...we are the dominating species on this Earth because simply we possesed

 

Humility

 

So, to mark the end of this entry just want to thank all teachers

 

English, Ms Chew, Mrs Yeo and Ms Fiona Ho for teaching me all the way since sec2 and i must really thank you in helping my in my English Language. I did improve a lot and am glad you were there to help me. Especially Ms Chew Kar Wai, although she may nag you a bit, but her weekly assignments have really brought my english to higer standards

Chinese, ok la...still thank your for helping me a lot.

Mathematics, Zzzz, kinda dont want to thank you guys but still, thank you for the A1 in mathematics

Physics, Mrs Alice Teoh, most dedicated physics teacher i have ever seen my life, just all your notes and powerpoint slides really amazed me by the enthusiasm and dedication to really...nurture the next generation and you will also not forget to enchance teaching with many realife experiments and lame stuffs

Chemistry, Ms Ho Fui Ling and Ms Kwoh Siew Lai, woah Ms Kwoh, most effective chemistry teacher around. Has the ability to bring up a pupils score in chemistry of 40% to 82% and still maintain the same result in Preliminary. What i want to say is that, some people are just meant to be teachers and so thank you a lot. And also what you have said before, "if you put in A1 effort, you get A1 result" I will remember that

Geography, *ehem ehem*, thank you for the wonderful knowledge, and i enjoyed learning geography in some sense after all i have interest in it, biggest thanks to my sec 2 geography teacher Mrs Jacqueline Yeow

Literature , yes its very boring lol, but somehow i enjoyed those dramas in those novels at times and some craps in class. Thank you for planting those seed of artisticism Mrs Suzzane Yeo and Ms Fiona Ho

Biology , yes Mr Terence Ng! love you lol!! and Mrs Toh Siew Tee, for giving me the A2 in biology during preliminary, and i still remembered VERY fontly what you said before, "all things on Earth are beautiful, even onions! look at those fleshy scale leaves". That was some MONTHS ago and i still remeber very clearly. Also thank you for although ur naggy, but your nice to some of us ( me me! ) and taught the beautiful side of somethigns =D

Social Studies, Mrs Lee Gek Kim for the teacher i RESPECTED the most for her wisdom. She taught for some 30+ years and i still remeber sth like "A wise old own on the tree, the more quiet it stays, the more it hears ; the more it hears, the more it learn". Indeed, Mrs Lee, u set me a gd example and I will not 4get your teaching. And Mrs Ho-toh, another teacher that our entire class favors, fun one but very responsible and she knows what she is doing, suprising BOTH are GCE O LVL paper MARKERS! ownage! that is some serious teachers man, no joke, i *salute* the both of u

 

Also my class 3.3 Issachar and 4.3 Caleb, i must admit i was so regretful on getting into YOUR class when got in sec3, i was all "shit...how cna i study in thi environment" but one thing, you guys are now my best buddies around and i must really thank you for teaching what is called "simple". That class is by far the most comfortable place ( yes more comfortable than with those in boarding and anywheer in boarding, yes i didnt miss out anything) I enjoyed staying with you guys and is really sad to leave. Its a all drama-free class, very down to earth class i've ever been. Honesty and all sorts of things, it really suprises me.

 

Dayl Tan, Zhi Jie, Alex Lua, Thana, Ian Chua, Javier, Noah See, Russel Lee, Make Chia, Bryan Wong, Jonathan Woo, Terry Tang, Anish Pahram, Yong Thung, Nicholas Tan, Ian Lim, Bryan Eng, Putera Zenata, Mandeep Singh, Ruben Money, Tito, Lester Wong, Muhammad Arif bin Salim,  Elgin Leow, Wayne Cheong and Davin Yeow. Thank you for giving me the best in ACS(I) in 2005 and 2006.

 

And to all the staffs, like laundry aunties, the super nice curry mee from Just for Mee, Nescafe latte from Oasis, chicken pie and ice kacang from Fruitie Tuitie, super cheapo and tasy fried chicken from Sister Act 3, nice Unagi and tempura chicken and pineapple rice from Mama Mia. Uncle and aunty form the pool cafe. Uncle John from boarding. Matron. Yoke lian!!. funny lab techs. the aunty who clean our room weekly in hall5. Mr Sham, Ms Ong, Ms Ho, Mr Patrick Soo, Mr Michael Doyle, Mr Gunawan,Mr Reginald, people and seniors in hall5. Its nice to have met you all.

 

Now it is time to move on and mark the closure of my pastimes in Anglo-Chinese School (Independent)