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It's officially Tuesday now and the idea of packing my life up and getting my ass up in the air for 8 hours just bores me out. Yeah I do miss my awesome new home and my awesome new room alright, but it's not like I'll go crying about missing my home. I think I've just gotten too numb with this, need to keep shifting my life and getting myself out of my comfort zone all the time.

......and crap, to digress completely from the said topic, I actually having a difficulty in figuring what song is relevant to today's entry and mood.

So back to the packing, I mean it's human's nature to be bored by the constant shift in environment. 

......digress. Actually I'm sorta done with the packing topic.

I get to visit my condominium's most expensive Penthouse unit. Boy. That was insane. The purity of the insanity that you get upon setting your eyes and foot into the Penthouse is overwhelming. The Penthouse was mindfucking. At 38th floor, with 7330 sq ft, that is 3.5x of my current unit. 4 bedrooms with maid room. Enlarge the second picture, and see how far it actually extends with me standing at the other corner of the house. It's...plain crazy.

......weird. I feel like digressing again.

On a side-note, I actually getting increasingly cranky these days. That include filing a complaint to a security at my condominium and raising my voice at a cashier girl at Guardians today. 

Story - 1

It's a fine afternoon when my friend drove to my house to meet up with me at my place. You know how condominiums have designated visitor and resident parking. So I drove down from 1st floor parking and when I reached the visitor's parking, I figured I've forgotten to bring my water bottle so what's the harm in just, parking at the visitors and take 5 minute at the tops to grab my bottle? So I did and this old grumpy (they're suppose to be young, vibrant, good looking and polite securities until they've decided to change the whole lot of them because their contract ended and they needed to head back Nepal ) security came and spoke to me in Malay that I couldn't park here.

Look sir, you don't speak Malay with me in this first-class condominium. Half of the residents are Korean and Caucasians. You've just severely degraded us. Well of course I explained my predicament here that I just need 5 minutes at the tops to grab something real quick. He then go on and blah-blah-blah which I wasn't paying attention at all because of all the gibberish that I couldn't be bothered with BECAUSE I'M THE FUCKING RESIDENT. So I smiled and replied "I'm a resident". He actually had the guts to tell me no again. That tone and expression, oh you're really looking for a fight. I spent the next 1 minute arguing with him and he still insisted no.

Cocky securities. I hated these sorta low-life who dared raising their hands at me. I'm not asking a lot, I'm asking you to do your job without overextending yourself. 

So I lost the argument. Correction, I couldn't stand all this blathering. I went back into my car with utmost defeat and annoyance. When I'm about to drive out, I actually wind down the window and asked for his name. There and then he displayed signs of fear and smile and replied his name AND THEN WENT ON WITH HIS BLAH-BLAH-BLAH. I actually said it was enough and he obviously didn't stop. Old people and their grumbling. I actually just rewind my window back up and drove away.

When I got back I approached the Head of Security and reported everything to him. THANK GOD he's an understanding fella and he's been here in the condominium as long as I had. It really felty like chatting with a neighbour when I brought up the issue to him. I have to emphasize again on how I would usually speak in a gentle tone with anybody UNLESS they've decided to trample on my kindness. You'll get hell. He got hell. For the next few days he did salute me with more respect. 

You brought it upon yourself. 

(To which I'd like to explain the situation further. It's really for security purposes that I should ought not to park at visitors because they do crosscheck all the vehicles for safety purposes from time to time. Hence his unwillingness to let me park there in-spite of numerous other available spaces. The Head of Security did suggest that I park at the handicapped if I ever bump into the same circumstance. The thing is, HE could've told me all that like the head of security did, rather than that he told me "no" for every request I made, with that bloody cocky expressions of yours as toppings. Good job there. )

Story - 2

I was shopping at the pharmacy Guardians today with my mom. Upon getting all our stuffs in the basket we approached the counter and place the items on the counter. I was unwrapping a green-bag whilst this Malay cashier girl was scanning the items. She was chatting with the other cashier girl.

The. Whole. Fucking. Time. Without even acknowledging our presence.

Fine by me. Then I said "oh, sini ada bag" and I actually opened the bag for her to place the items inside. 

Boy, the conversation sure was more important. 

She was going to get a plastic bag and put those items in, and you know how I hate to be un-environmentally-friendly. There and then both my mom and I increased the decibels of our voice and mention it again that we do indeed, have a bag of our own, and we would like to save the plastic bags. 

Really? You were that indulged in that conversation?

I actually said very sternly, and raised my volume to a moderate extent at the cashier girl "SINI ADA BAG". She finally stop her conversations but had the GUTS to tell me "janganla marah". This is when I need to show these disrespectful insects who's the boss here. I actually already have my arm rest on the cashier and I told her very, very, very sternly that "Bukan. Sini ada customer and you asyik cakap kat situ". Bitch finally knew her place. Both the cashier girls finally got to work instead of talking. She did right by shutting up and finishing the deal with utter silence, else wise I would really give her hell. I walked out first, then my mom. My mom did mention to me afterwards that the cashier girl later apologized to her and mentioned how sorry she was. My mom too, agrees that these snobbish critters need to be taught a lesson if not for their constant impolite act to customers. 

That and a whole long list of me experiencing idiotic bastards who take my smile and my politeness for granted. Funny how packing my luggage could lead to this.

Tinted visions

Haven't updated my post for a while, probably due to my internship and how much of my stamina it drains on a daily basis. It's true that everyday after work, you just want to sit down and do nothing. Absolutely nothing except relaxing and recuperating.

Chinese New Year been pretty fulfilling, like it literally fills up my entire CNY schedule to the brim. It was more of a dare, to myself that I could handle all the invitations etc. It'd probably didn't occur to a lot of people around my age but if you're reading this, it'll do you good if you take this to heart, because you guys had it taken for granted and my past circumstances put me in a situation where I'd learn to appreciate it and see the importance of it in the future. Don't take it for granted that you've got 10 invites from 10 different group of friends, I know many of you would start to weigh friends in terms of their value and how you'd prefer a certain network of friends instead of another. True, it's only human's nature when two groups of friend come together at the same time to be weighed on the scale, but remember this - a promise's a promise. I have nearly 10 days of my CNY holiday packed with activities and invitations, and I'm proud to say I've not broken a single promise, only very early notices with compensations. Whoever comes first, comes first. The common practice of "ffk" and ditching events is shameful, it's an insult to the word "integrity". A simple act of that devalues yourself. Don't. 

Primary classmates, teacher and I.

Many of you definitely took it for granted as well for when you have several invites coming at you. This is the prime time to forge those friendship where many of you would fail to see the very importance of it. The sheer thought of yourself being wanted and popular, and that you could put those invitations aside because it does not suit your mood will one day be your harbinger. The times when all of us dwell into the working life that we would all be saddled with the rest of our lives will bring that into test. People would be tired and lazy to respond to such case and time will erode your bonds with your friends. There and then you'd think you're fine, until the day you needed external help. Would you then cry over spilled milk and say "hi" to those that you've cast  in the barren lands?

Monash coursemates and more and I.

Time and time again, there are people around who want to get to know you better and offer you the chance and platform for such an opportunity to take place. It's ok to be uncertain and seek a companion for such events, well, that's you. Usually people would take an extended amount of time to wait for someone to take the lead, my question to you is, what if there is none? This is the typical situation where you really burdened the organizer because of your selfish reasons. I have personally seen several of such case and I see the frail humanity in those disappointing individuals, and I can assure that it was the case because when I took the courage and be different. That too, applies for volunteering yourselves and making sacrifices. I may have brushed the issue aside but I saw it crystal clear and will see and treat you in a very different way already. I'm just simply astounded by your blatant lack of awareness of the situation, do you not see how this attitude of yours will imply to your future friends if you continue this path? Do you not know what SINCERITY is?

Monash coursemates and I.

Although this dare to myself for this CNY may have been a tad tiring, however it has been enriching and I learnt new lessons. It is also my resolution to be more truthful to myself and the people around me. There ARE friendship I have called off this vacation, call me harsh - but the lies and the betrayals were too much. I'm not blind and I'm not deft, and think again if you think i'm boring at the times when I'm quiet. "A wise old owl stood on a tree; the quieter it gets, the more it hears; the more it hears, the more it learns", something from my most respected teacher in the past. Although God has had bonds severed this holiday, but I sure do make an effort to learn something from it. HE also allowed me to see what I really have in my hands. 

Collegemates and I.

This holiday to be honest haven't been the calmest actually. I sure heard a lot of things going on around me. Sometimes I gotta hand it to the Malays - their Hari Raya is a very good practice to forgive and forget. Something that I will not deny having difficulty in. Although that department requires much more improvement to be made, however I gotta say I'm pretty proud of my anger management. It's more like, I have discovered alternatives to solving issues, so to put myself in a calm state when I encounter it. Somehow, I just learn that a lot of things are really not worth my time, let alone letting it worked me up. Hence my blog title which I have a great sense of affinity to it - it's like watching a bad movie, you just turn if off if you don't like it. At the same time, I also start to not bother with who wins the end of the argument. It just does not matter if you know you've done your best and you're sincere about it, let them twist the facts however much they want, that's what they do. They'll do what it takes so that triumph at the end of the argument comforts, and assures what was their uncertainty. I need not face your condescending looks when I lose that argument, I know so long at the end of the day, if I could face God and lift my head up high, it would be suffice.

Primary schoolmates and I.

Amidst of all the chaos, I too am glad I have things in my possessions that are invaluable and priceless when compared to money. Something that outweigh that materialistic thing which corrupts the mind of others and make them do hurtful things. It's at the back of the mind of people doing, and saying hurtful things. Yes, I am truly blessed and also grateful at the same time that such thing would not bother as much as others, however it's also the choice of each individual to define what is important to their lives. There are always richer people than me, but it's my decision to remain unmoved by that. That being said, I'm glad I can find friends who have the same moral value as I am and really, I'm glad to even get the vibe that, nothing else matters so long we're together and happy.

ACS(I) boarding schoolmates and I.

Well, I sure have a lot of philosophical statements to make, probably because I haven't been venting much recently I guess. Well, I finished my internship just last Friday and although I'm pretty free and bored at home but I SHALL not say so (actually I just did, but it was a lack of a better word to describe my situation!) I would still prefer this boredom over working anytime. That and I shall make my last year as a student a blast in Australia. Oh, before I forget, the highlight of my CNY has got to be the Pulau Pangkor trip, big thanks to the planners, I basically just nod to everything they asked, that includes my presence to the trip. I actually promised to join the trip (knowing that there is 4 days holiday in a row and that anyone in the right mind, would plan something within the 4 days because the all of us are working) without knowing the itinerary at all! The awkward moment when the organizer text you to confirm again prior to inviting you by verbal means, and then you text back asking how many days the trip is going to be. Best damn thing is, I actually wanted to go to a beach pretty badly this holiday and, the second I thought it's going to be impossible, IT HAPPENED!

It's a very good feeling to be at a beach, really. 

To me arms I stretch them wide, to thee mother earth I embrace; And the boundless ocean wide, shall take away all my worries.