Ouch!

Ok, i'm going to cut this short.

 

OUCH!

 

lol nah, not like that. But anyways, yesterday i went jogging. It was a plan of mines to have McD for lunch that day, then jog, and then give my car a wash. So when i was on my car reaching the park near my house, weird as it may be, i actually did not notice my steps, twisted my ankle and fell down. Worst part is when i have to WALK my way back with that twisted ankle. Frankly, i cant diffrentiate between "twisted" and a "spraint", all i knew was that it was very painful and i was not relieved of that pain untill now.

 

Only get to see a doctor  this morning, would actually look for a specialists and you know, but today's a Sunday and tomorrow's a Deepavali, great, now i kinda hate holidays. So all i got was my ankle wrapped up, and now i cant use my left leg AT  ALL! That actually means, i literally jumped around my house using my right leg, SIT my way up to my room on the 2nd storey etc etc.

 

LESSON FOR ME :

 

Yeah i could seriously run, and was trained in running 2.4km often last time, and were no where behind those ah-mak and ah-pats jogging in the park as well. But the thing is, i twisted my ankle, i couldnt get my jog done. If applied to other aspects in our lives, i would actually say - complacency kills. Yes it does, you thought you're such a brilliant student and you're able to score for many subjects easily, but at the end of the day, if i'm complacent people will still take over me. So yeah, i'll be more serious in my revision for my finals now.

 

LESSON FOR YOU :

 

Don't get turned down by all the failures in your life, if you're like those ah-mak and ah-pats, one day or another if you keep trying, you'll be able to shine like the sun. Doesnt mean you're disadvantaged, say in the field of academy, means you'll be facing failures for the fucking rest of your life! Getting an academic-wise failure, doesnt mark the end of your life or a doomsday. Keep trying, stay with your pace but put in efforts bit by bit and i'm sure you WILL overtake and succeed in your life. ( BUT  and BUT that doesnt mean you can be complacent! Its like Lester's First Law of Life lol, only if you applied my First Law of Life only can you applied the second one, just like Newton's haha...ha...ha -.-""  )

 

Yeah and did i mentioned i was a little embarassed at the park? Cuz when i was jogging my way to the park, i overtoke a guy, and when that very same guy got there, i was on the bench with my left ankle twisted and right knee injured. You have no idea how many pairs of eyes stared at me. lol. What a day. So, all my carwash plan all gone, i cant swim anymore next week and i'll get fat ( NOOOOOO ), i cant go rewatch Eagle Eye with my sis ( which is coming back tomorrow ) which i had promised her. Oh yeah did i mention my parents left me at the clinic ( fair enough, they had to rush for work ) and i drove home myself with my left ankle bandaged? Tell me i'm so amazing of a guy. LOL =D

 

 

 

No more

It is said that no two snowflakes are alike, and it is also true that no two years in your life will be the same.

 

People come and go, and like i saw the other day on my friend's MSN personal note, "By fate we meet, by choice we've became friends". Or perhaps something more, which is very one directional. It surprises me all the time how time passed by, and by a blink of an eye, i'm approaching the end of another year.

 

Alright cut all the nonsenses out.

 

I just want to say i'll miss you. Thats all.

Ha ha ha ha

Now i got a confession~

Ha ha ha ha~

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...

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Careful what you wishing for~

Cuz you just might get it~

Cuz you just might get it~

Cuz you just might~

 

BANG!

 

There i was, sitting in the car strucked by this pandemonium! A sudden catastrophe caught me unprepared and i was left devastated, with eyes staring blankly in front. Yes you've guessed it! I got into a car accident. ( somehow i made it sounded like its so much fun, its not really lol...actually i didnt mean to "lol" anyways )

 

So yeah i got down from my car, and really there was nothing to argue. Clearly i was the one at fault, as in why would it be his fault if he was staying still during a traffic jam, and then some car kissed his ass. I apologised, and thank god hes a malay at mid 20s, and hes not hard to deal with. Imagined what would've happen if someone came out of the car furiously and then scolds me in the middle of an expressway. Terribad. So yeah i apologised, and first thing he did after leaving his car was to take a snapshot. So i suggested that we moved further in front to talk things out since we're sorta blocking the traffic ( and yes theres only 2 lanes ). 

 

So we moved foward to a petrol station, and there goes the talking. He just prompted me the question, "how?". Well obviously i said i could, to some extend ( i'll leave the defining of "some" to some other day ) i could pay for his repairs, so long he dont report me., simply because my driving liciense is still under probation and if a report is filed, my liciense will have a high probability of facing a confiscation. Well frankly, his car had only a obvious scratch, bent a little at the back, and a car boot that cannot be opened. Mines on the other hand...was...you should just see it with your own eyes ( check below ).

 

Frankly, he wasnt that awful of a person, even joked that i was lucky to have crashed into this cheap old car instead of some others. So yeah, both of us toke snapshots of our cars. I paid him an amount of 100bucks initially ( DONT patronize me by telling me i shouldve given less, i wished i could but this aint happening. Given you in his position would you want 50 or a 100? Think again), gotten each other's contact number. Well he mentioned what should be done of this if i sorta like dissapeared into thin air if he evers need additional repair bills, my reply was just "report me then". So i continued to college.

 

THE END~

 

When I grow up~

Wana see the world~

Drive nice car~

Wana have~

 

SMOKE OUT FROM MY CAR'S ENGINE?!

 

Yeah, when i was on the way back from college, due to the accident, some damage was done to my car's radiator and caused my engine to have smokes coming out. Contacted my parents and while i was on the phone, i'd thought i could somewhat make it back cuz the smoke really aint that much. However as i drive, the meter seems to keep going up and when its approaching the red bar, i was like "ok my turn to have to stop my car on the highway just like any other cars that does that and ends up casuing a traffic jam". Well thankfully the road had 3 lanes and i aint blocking that much traffic anyways. Turned on the signal lights, and put the triangle-whatever-sign some distance behind my car, and sat inside. Yeah i would've STOOD OUTSIDE becasue it was somewhat dangerous, but it started raining.

 

Although safety's always first but somehow i'd rather sit in the car, you have no idea how much attention i paid to my rear and side mirrors for cars appraoching from my back. Well, neighbour opens a car garage, so he got me someone to toll my car. They kept emphasizing that i shouldnt let anyone toll my car except for this car-toller-whatever-name-for-the-vehicle with the carplate XXX YYYY ( haha not telling you =P ). Many other people came and asked whether i needed a toll and offered A SHIT LOAD OF GREAT SERVICES, again and again i rejected, about 4 of them. So finally he came and got my car tolled.

 

Zzzzzzz. Long way to my neighbour's garage, and another hour of waiting untill they came then only i got get a lift back home.

 

Long day, really. Lesson learnt. Like my sis said, i lost my virginity, it all falls back to "how hard and how loud" it is and everyone has their "first time". Well on the bright side, i was on my ~8years old car, knocked onto a not-so-ber-jenama-car, and i survived!

 

When i grow up~

(just so you know, thats actually a pussycat's doll's song. heh) 

 

( Below are the pics, the golden coloured vehicle is mines and the silver is my victim's car =X )

 

Quiet Silence that nobody hears

Well it just kinda scares me when this post-mock exam break is...unusually silent. Or maybe its just me always have so many voice in my head that i cant seem to get used to a moment of silence. Whatever.

 

People seem to have their own worries, their own plans and have things of their own to be done. Pretty scary when your MSN shows about 60 people online and all of them seems all so quiet and busy with something. Anyways this break been quiet, there are people making full use of it as a break, some sulking throughout this holiday over their underperformance during mocks, some actually studyin, some actually gaming, and some actually blogging and bitching about everything like me.

 

Actually i felt the presence of troubled souls way more than you know, the opposite. Don't know, just really curious what people are actually thinking at the back of their head. Are they really worried about mocks? Well because i for one would never be able to comprehend why lecturers would pass out such a tough paper and lower the average marks of all Ausmat students. Maybe because they think by lowering the internal marks, will bring about a moderation which will be marginally higher after the externals? I don't know. Are people worried about some other issues in life? I was at the verge of sanity by the way, because i was left with absolutely nothing to do. 

 

Felt some desperation for some company, yeah sounds desperate. But oh wells, i admit i cant stand loneliness that much, always feels better with someone pr anyone. I don't know, everybody seems to be holding onto their own worries and not pouring it out.

 

Nothing unusual, and nothing of the norm also. Just some predictable unpredictability of life that i would love to note it down somewhere. Blogged about this mainly because of the uneasiness i felt. Thats it and thats all.

My sassy me.

So i watched My Sassy Girl, and this movies have tons of things about love blah, and about destiny.

 

Destiny. Yeah would you actually believe in that? Fate? They all sounded the same anyways.

 

As for me i really believe in fate, as in who we met, where we end up, what did we do, what happened around us. They all have a reason for happening. Personally i've seen enough mircles in my life, trust me whenever you're down and start sulking for exams, and when i say "Miracles do happen", i really mean it because i've seen it and i've exprienced many.

 

First when i went Singapore, and the first trip i made alone when going back Singapore, i was completely clueless where i shuld be getting down when i reach thbus station in sg etc. Halfway in Johor Bahru, everyone in the bus alighted leaving me and another lady. Yes i was frantic and restless and terrified, to a small extend haha. So when i went thru the immigration centre ( Causeway Point and not Second link, and i swear thats the only time i went thru that for the course of 2 years, ad maybe another second time ) So, this lady lost in the immigration centre, and because of the traffic we had to proceed and while on the other side of the bridge. One of the staff in the bus went searching for her leaving me alone in the bus.

 

Yeah awful experience, then she finally came, with her heels broken. Amazingly she sat near me, and i noticed her taking another pair of new shoes out. She initiated a conversation with me, telling me how one day in KL she bypassed shoe repairers on the street but ignored them, but somehow got the urge to get a pair of shoes for godknow what reasons. And there was she, trying to rush to the bus and her heels broke. Later when we reached she walked me thru buildings and all the confusing paths to the nearest MT stations, 10min walk at least.

 

I used that path ever since.

I bitched about drivers not turning on car signal lights. Then one dayi was day-dreaming in car and forgotten to turn it on during a turn. Now i know why.

 

I hate drivers who drives slow, but once my mind was just somewhere else when i was driving, now i know why some drive so slow.

 

And many many more things kept happening to me and i really noticed it myself, i know i may look an entirely diffrent person from the outside all the time, with all my amplified emotions. I know...i know...

 

I get angry too easily...i laugh too easily...i frown too easily...well because grief make people crazy. I know it sounds selfish, wrong etc. "I thought i was diffrent. I thought i was strong but i'm not". I kept using the reason that i'm always so diffrent thats why i'm like that all the time. Its like a shield and i use it as an excuse all the time. Its pretty pointless most of the time, and stupid. Funny and everytime after such things happen, i felt so ever awful and like, you know the typical "how i wish i've never done that". Maybe thats part of growing up i don't know.

 

Oh and did i mention, this movie My Sassy Girl, i watched it halfway and never continued it untill today. Always thinking its going to be an awful dumbass movie...for a dumbass. Hell, miracle. I now know why...destiny made me watch this movie right now right then. See thats the reason why i love movies. Well something happened recently ( check the date and day ), and this movie had really strucked me hard. I know im all speechless now and probably and apology would never help.

 

Call me emo or whatever, that is because you refuse to sit down, flip the pages and read the storybook. Oh wells, so...hmm...sorry? "How i wished i've never done that". Maybe thats exactly why it happened. Maybe. Perhaps. I don't know.

 

 

Just something

" I know i have suffered things at the wrong place and wrong time, and i also know that what

i have been through is probably very little as compared to maybe some people.

But,

the thing is, all of us had our fair share of growing-up before,

no one deserved to be looked down and despised upon.

 

 

and because everyone had their fair share of their torturous past, everyone is shaped diffrently.

  

 

and we are to catalyse ourselves to fit best for someone. If you cant, just stay away from them.

Find a way to "click" and fit in well with other people.

 

He is who he is. I am who i am.

 

Its like a piece of puzzle, i have my unreasonable part of me, and also the tolenrant part of me"

 

Just something i said in a conversation recently.

Time flies

Yeah yeah you'll probably think im not much a diffrence as compared to some old hags sitting in some kopitiam talking about life etc. But you've got to agree with me here, time flies. AND its fast.

 

So yeah i dug my grave last year by returning from the southern-island,  and i crawled out early this year by submitting myself under the torturous hands of Ausmat staffs. Oh well, torturous it may be, it turned out to be a blessing. Another long road down my self-discovery and growing-up i have made throughout this year, pretty fruitful year i guess. Ausmat IS ending, dont deny it. Theres couple more days to my trials, and then 1 more month and it'll be out finals and there mark the end of my Ausmat.

 

Here am i, drunk with caffein, grieving about the fact that i didnt make an effort to slow things down throughout this year, so things wouldnt bypass so fast. (yeah and at this hour, 1.45am urghh).  Call me an emo-er, whatever.

 

sigh~time really flies. 1.5months more to go, i've gotta make the best out of it. Honestly, i really hate farewells, and i'm afraid of forgetting people.

 

P.S. I am a very forgeful person. That is why i am afraid of forgetting you, my dearest.