Tinted visions

Haven't updated my post for a while, probably due to my internship and how much of my stamina it drains on a daily basis. It's true that everyday after work, you just want to sit down and do nothing. Absolutely nothing except relaxing and recuperating.

Chinese New Year been pretty fulfilling, like it literally fills up my entire CNY schedule to the brim. It was more of a dare, to myself that I could handle all the invitations etc. It'd probably didn't occur to a lot of people around my age but if you're reading this, it'll do you good if you take this to heart, because you guys had it taken for granted and my past circumstances put me in a situation where I'd learn to appreciate it and see the importance of it in the future. Don't take it for granted that you've got 10 invites from 10 different group of friends, I know many of you would start to weigh friends in terms of their value and how you'd prefer a certain network of friends instead of another. True, it's only human's nature when two groups of friend come together at the same time to be weighed on the scale, but remember this - a promise's a promise. I have nearly 10 days of my CNY holiday packed with activities and invitations, and I'm proud to say I've not broken a single promise, only very early notices with compensations. Whoever comes first, comes first. The common practice of "ffk" and ditching events is shameful, it's an insult to the word "integrity". A simple act of that devalues yourself. Don't. 

Primary classmates, teacher and I.

Many of you definitely took it for granted as well for when you have several invites coming at you. This is the prime time to forge those friendship where many of you would fail to see the very importance of it. The sheer thought of yourself being wanted and popular, and that you could put those invitations aside because it does not suit your mood will one day be your harbinger. The times when all of us dwell into the working life that we would all be saddled with the rest of our lives will bring that into test. People would be tired and lazy to respond to such case and time will erode your bonds with your friends. There and then you'd think you're fine, until the day you needed external help. Would you then cry over spilled milk and say "hi" to those that you've cast  in the barren lands?

Monash coursemates and more and I.

Time and time again, there are people around who want to get to know you better and offer you the chance and platform for such an opportunity to take place. It's ok to be uncertain and seek a companion for such events, well, that's you. Usually people would take an extended amount of time to wait for someone to take the lead, my question to you is, what if there is none? This is the typical situation where you really burdened the organizer because of your selfish reasons. I have personally seen several of such case and I see the frail humanity in those disappointing individuals, and I can assure that it was the case because when I took the courage and be different. That too, applies for volunteering yourselves and making sacrifices. I may have brushed the issue aside but I saw it crystal clear and will see and treat you in a very different way already. I'm just simply astounded by your blatant lack of awareness of the situation, do you not see how this attitude of yours will imply to your future friends if you continue this path? Do you not know what SINCERITY is?

Monash coursemates and I.

Although this dare to myself for this CNY may have been a tad tiring, however it has been enriching and I learnt new lessons. It is also my resolution to be more truthful to myself and the people around me. There ARE friendship I have called off this vacation, call me harsh - but the lies and the betrayals were too much. I'm not blind and I'm not deft, and think again if you think i'm boring at the times when I'm quiet. "A wise old owl stood on a tree; the quieter it gets, the more it hears; the more it hears, the more it learns", something from my most respected teacher in the past. Although God has had bonds severed this holiday, but I sure do make an effort to learn something from it. HE also allowed me to see what I really have in my hands. 

Collegemates and I.

This holiday to be honest haven't been the calmest actually. I sure heard a lot of things going on around me. Sometimes I gotta hand it to the Malays - their Hari Raya is a very good practice to forgive and forget. Something that I will not deny having difficulty in. Although that department requires much more improvement to be made, however I gotta say I'm pretty proud of my anger management. It's more like, I have discovered alternatives to solving issues, so to put myself in a calm state when I encounter it. Somehow, I just learn that a lot of things are really not worth my time, let alone letting it worked me up. Hence my blog title which I have a great sense of affinity to it - it's like watching a bad movie, you just turn if off if you don't like it. At the same time, I also start to not bother with who wins the end of the argument. It just does not matter if you know you've done your best and you're sincere about it, let them twist the facts however much they want, that's what they do. They'll do what it takes so that triumph at the end of the argument comforts, and assures what was their uncertainty. I need not face your condescending looks when I lose that argument, I know so long at the end of the day, if I could face God and lift my head up high, it would be suffice.

Primary schoolmates and I.

Amidst of all the chaos, I too am glad I have things in my possessions that are invaluable and priceless when compared to money. Something that outweigh that materialistic thing which corrupts the mind of others and make them do hurtful things. It's at the back of the mind of people doing, and saying hurtful things. Yes, I am truly blessed and also grateful at the same time that such thing would not bother as much as others, however it's also the choice of each individual to define what is important to their lives. There are always richer people than me, but it's my decision to remain unmoved by that. That being said, I'm glad I can find friends who have the same moral value as I am and really, I'm glad to even get the vibe that, nothing else matters so long we're together and happy.

ACS(I) boarding schoolmates and I.

Well, I sure have a lot of philosophical statements to make, probably because I haven't been venting much recently I guess. Well, I finished my internship just last Friday and although I'm pretty free and bored at home but I SHALL not say so (actually I just did, but it was a lack of a better word to describe my situation!) I would still prefer this boredom over working anytime. That and I shall make my last year as a student a blast in Australia. Oh, before I forget, the highlight of my CNY has got to be the Pulau Pangkor trip, big thanks to the planners, I basically just nod to everything they asked, that includes my presence to the trip. I actually promised to join the trip (knowing that there is 4 days holiday in a row and that anyone in the right mind, would plan something within the 4 days because the all of us are working) without knowing the itinerary at all! The awkward moment when the organizer text you to confirm again prior to inviting you by verbal means, and then you text back asking how many days the trip is going to be. Best damn thing is, I actually wanted to go to a beach pretty badly this holiday and, the second I thought it's going to be impossible, IT HAPPENED!

It's a very good feeling to be at a beach, really. 

To me arms I stretch them wide, to thee mother earth I embrace; And the boundless ocean wide, shall take away all my worries.