Breaking the hourglass

" Lester...clock's ticking...time and tide waits for no man..."

 

" Time and future, the greatest fear of mankind, its is something so immaterial...how do you call TIME? a thing? Its just something just keep going, its undefinable. What IS time? Or is it something just man term the progression of things as? "

 

in my opinion, time does not exist at all...although we all say tat in everyday...."wats the time now?"....lol.....well seriously.....somehow im juz....i duno....when it comes 2 the planning of future n so on.....i uz went...blank...."haf u bought ur books for ur junior college"...i replied him wif a "duno lol"....seriously....i felt tat i haf seriously wasted my LIFE playing World of Warcraft the entire holiday for some 10hours++ everyday.....yes im serious....no im not joking....

 

i've done very little things in this holiday except for playing WoW.....yeap...i went out 2 do some cloth shopping n shoes......yeap....n made myself some spectacles....yeap...i bought new wallet....yeap....i went for PC faire and got myself a 120GB external hardrive which u can store some millions of porn videos ( jk =p )....yeap i have done my houseworks like vacuum cleaning the entire house n do laundries ( trust me.....rarity of doing it is much higher than u seeing a tiger in Forest Research Institude of Malaysia.....).........yeap i have locked myself in my home n did not socailize wif ppl except for those who play WoW oso.....yeap i do sweep all the dead leaves outside my house's courtyard.....yep i hfa neglected my health caring.....

 

n yeap....i have no idea what i am becoming of now.....as days progressed....my mind's juz getting more n more twisted....i wanted ppl whom i hate 2 die....i wanted ppl who says all sort of things in front of me 2 b lies and craps....i wanted ppl 2 shut up but juz let me do the talking all time....i wanted....a world of my own....

 

i feared of things 2 b known 2 other.....i feared of those ugly flaws i haf....i feared tat my mage got feared by the FEAR spell....i fear of moving foward....i fear of losing everything and regret not treasured while its existance is still around....i feared tat the damn song would turn myself away form tis solemn mood and hinders the completion of this blog....i fear 2 b unwanted and forgotten.....i feared of now of which i haf exactly no directions in my life.....i feared of the emptiness now....

 

haf u feel empty? there is a solution so far to it...but....its has not gone through the trial sessions yet.....

 

Zzz its now n i juz celebrated a Christmas event tat is such that its essence of celebration has all lost....nvm....i got a necklade from my mom of which a cross's ( christian the cross ah.....)......told her "im dissapointed but i accept it =D "....she laughed and very daring of me 2 say such hurtful things...i was expecting a WoW gamecard n she said she doesnt noe where  2 get 1 Zzzzz......

 

I called my frens.....n wished em merry xmas....y in the damn world u juz wouldnt gif me back a more cheerful-er respond? " hah? oh ok lo...." WTF??!! i toke my damn fucking time out 2 wish u a BLOODY MERRY XMAS n i got aimed shot in my chest by this piercing arrow.....pls....sounds merrier in ur tone encouraged me more....ur demoralizing my further attmpets 2 do this little nice work of myself on trying 2 AT LEAST keep in contact by taking tis event as the golden opportunity...n u happily turned me down....seriously...find a wall in ur god damn house....n bang ur head 2wards it.....

 

for now u can start imaging n image of a devilish Lester and n Angelic lester in my brain and theyre fighting 2 take control over me....STOP U!! STFU the BOTH OF U!! so many voices in my brains....FYI....my back's hurting now....i haf n ache on my shoulder....im hungry....my skin's all feeling dry....feeling heaty now....so u'd better *cough*

 

SO u'd BETTER drop a COMMENT and COMMENT on my blog and pls dun type some SHITTY AND ALL WHORING AND BITCHING MOTHER FUCKING comments...lol no la.....i do appreciate all comments all time....except for the qiongye thingy and wat wwat LICK ME on his blog address....PREPOSTEROUS!