My world

As mcuh as im hating everyone around me, i realised why sometimes games are such an addiction to some people.

 

In my opinion, they simply created a virtual world which is "perfect", they have justification, they have the space for each individual to do their own things, and like MMORPGs they gave players a sense of security, as your real identity can be anonymous. In comparison with the nowadays REAL world, the game world seemed to be a far better place and a far more wonderful place, so sometimes its suprising that even players found their sanctuary within the game. This is of course what i felt.

 

In additiion to it, they also allows the player to wield all sorts of power over other things, like creatures and so on, which is mostly lacking in nowadays people's capability - control. I lack control, all of us lack control, of the future, of what we are doing now, because they simply promises a thousand poosibilities. Although they are not exactly similiar, however the lack of that can be fulfilled with another in the game.

 

Also, games are actually a place where you could dwell in and enjoy it. At least better than mugging blindly for your examination that im for sure. Like today, my college's reading period gave us an article on acts of commiting suicide, i think those teachers more or less wanted to relieve us from our stress. Great job lol. Korean has in fact the highest suicide rate, followed by Japan. Inside it stated that reasons for suicides are " defieying generalisations", and that they are mostly an impact from the change of the society. True, from my point of view. Look at those countries, students are undergoing a tremendous ammount of stress everyday ( i personally think singapore is catching up ), left alone the high requirements for their academic performances, they also faced the satanic expectations from their parents. Ouch.

 

You know, recently, i am just so sick of socializing with humans. ( this is totally out of the point ). I do not understand why must I always be the one who take a step back and see things through. If for doing it for once or twice would resolve the matter for good, i wouldnt mind, but not occuring on me so frequently and in the end they get all the glory and i suffered. I am so sick of everyone. I am sick of this world infested with people with such a behavious, if God were intending to make a better world, i'd request him to hasten his plans. " Teenagers nowadays dont know how to talk" and the something like calling us senseless people. One Go teacher commented today during my reading periods. Gosh, i couldnt but reply her with a thousand nods. Not forgetting that i am a teenager also, but i find that people are worsening bit by bit after each passing seconds. Weep for Humanity.

 

Commiting suicide? Yea i seriously thought of it a million times, this world aint changing you know, people will keep scoring better results, entering better universities, getting better jobs, earning more money, and then i dont know what they do with their money. Worsening the Earth's situation? really whats really the use of studying so hard while your character sucked so badly? Whats use of a person with great personalities to the society? oh wells so long as you do not get your pass grades or an A, you literally die. Simple, the hunter or the hunted.

 

I am just so sick of this fake world, people play draman and all sorts of stupid tricks on one another. Where was the world that honesty was treasured? Nobody gave a damn to that you know, if you are good at sucking up, good for you, you get tons of friends.Sad enough that nowadays people cannot even identify as one sucking up to you, or maybe they loved it so much they can leave it as it is. People poke fun of you, just on one hand to relieve themselves of their boredom or whatever. Its fairly fine for me. But not doing it for everyday. Mindless peoples. Sometimes i hated some people so much because they just simply take people's gentleness for granted. You thought you could fool around? Right now, i am shutting up from everyone. I mean it, 3 days already and i haven had a proper conversation with anyone except for my classmates, or rather Singaporeans. Call me a betrayal. singaporeans? kia-su? you just made me L------O------L, let nme tell you what, the SCHOLARS are the kia-su ones. In my life those who were down to earth, theyre all sinagporeans. These scholars? Fake. Your attitudes are - such a monstrosity. Horible. Oh yea, i hated being a scholar now relax people. I hate my hostel now, i hate all the limitations caused by the scholarship agreement, i hated my school, i hated scholars that are around me.

 

For you all, i am just a fucktard who made some silly and loud noises all day long, and is so unglamarous, so "face-losing" for you. So nerdy, so fun to be bullied. Go on man, go on thinking like that, i wish to see the all of you dying in front of me and i'll just stare into your face and giggle. Laters.