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So, windows live finally offered an alternative to windows live blog. It sucks, if you want my honest opinion. So i was hopping they couldve offered a transfer to blogspot but no, they chose Wordpress instead. Yeah you've probably heard that before but I wouldnt place a bet on wordpress. It just doesnt look as promosing as blogspot. So to hell with it, i actually spent 2 hour or so figuring and searching around on how to transfer all my entries since 2006 over. You've gotta thank windows live for letting you to export your old blog tho.

Here I am, finally using Blogspot. Here marks the beginning of Blogspot.

Havent been posting entries for a while. Actually after the Monash ball event i did a surgery and had my wisdom tooth removed. With the combined help of sedation and local anesthetic, i actually fell asleep right after the injection and woke up realizing they were cleaning up already. What comes after that is both infuriating and annoying. It took me 5 full days for the swell to shrink to a acceptable shape, and 2 full weeks untill i could remove 8 out of 9 of my stitches. Its probably a month plus from then, and its nothing nice to blog about so I did not make a long ass blog about it.

Heaps of assignments and mountain-high of reports came clashing down like a tsunami not long after the surgery. However as of today i'm officially relieved of all these torturous assignments. Thank goodness, i could finally lock myself at home and enters the panic mode.

One particular thing, of all things bothers me a lot. My work attachment. I dont know why it actually bothers me a lot whenever i thought of it, in terms of unpredictability. I've got the idea of working for a month during this year end's break and the remaining two months during the end of Year 3. Well, things dont always pan out the way you want and employers nowadays would of course want you to work a minimum of 2 months. Along with a lot of limitation, also comes the worry that if i failed to get my 3 months done before my final examination, my graduation would be delayed. In all honesty, I really do want to wear that graduation hat with everyone else at the same time.

So it really riled me up a lot. Actually got me thinking, is there something more to me than what I am now? Is there it to all we will be doing for our lives? I guess my emotion at this point of time is really like the background image. I always had a goal. It sounds silly but a quote in Twilight : Eclipse is actually darn good.

"When we were five, they asked us what we wanted to be when we grew up. Our things were answers like astronaut, president, or in my case, princess. When we were ten, they asked us again. We answered - rock star, cowboy, or in my case, gold medalist. But now that we’ve grown up, they want a more serious answer. Well, how about this...Who the hell knows? This isn’t a time to make hard and fast decisions. This is the time to make mistakes. Take the wrong train and get stuck somewhere chill. Fall in love - a lot. Major in philosophy because there’s no way to make a career out of that. Change your mind. Then change it again because nothing is permanent. So make as many mistakes as you can. That way, someday, when they ask again what we want to be. We won’t have to guess. We’ll know"

I'm just not at that stage yet to know what i want. Maybe because im still detesting the idea of working too much right now all because im constantly labeling myself as a student. I know there comes a time where I'll need to work, when that time comes I will work. Meantime, I just want to do what I am suppose to do now. Perhaps I should revise my opinions, maybe I should look at the job attachment at a completely different angle. Who knows.