Sunday, November 6, 2011

just another day

It is. Maybe that's how the world seemed like when you lock yourself in your room for an extended amount of time, where the sky and the trees is what you see only from that tiny window frame from inside the room. You can say its as if I'm the frog in the well, but that's if you choose to see it that way. Things just seem to be pretty much the same from the same point of view. The unchanging world, where I would sometimes just take a minute break from my studies and sort of just stare into the outside scenery and let my mind go blank for a minute. It's a good view really, all I see are trees and grass and the blue blue skies, not even a hint of civilization (pavements, roofs whatsoever).



Don't get me wrong, I'm not putting up a fit with how boring my life is. Its just how calm things are, if you just sort of close your eyes or tuck yourself away to some desolated place for a period of time. Rid yourself from the newspaper, of the war going around, of the politics and all its atrocities, and all the catastrophic disasters befalling on mankind. 

"Ignorance is a bliss"

=)




Thursday, November 3, 2011

需要人陪

哈,那今天心血来潮,就来个华语的“博克”输入。

今天呢,就完成了另一张考试卷子, 可能是因为下一张考卷是在下周星期二,感觉上就好像还有挺多时间的呢。那也避免不了,难得辛苦了一阵子,有时也得疼自己一下。人家也有说吗,正所谓“休息就是为了走更长远的路“,有时候我的脑袋也真的不能承受这么多的压力和熬煎,也得坐下来,对着电脑放空一下。

既然在考试的话题, 那就得说说第一份考卷。我也倒是觉得有失望。就。。。令场表现可以差得这么样吗?就有一个题目我中途中就困住了,那只好把它丢下先, 赶快完成其他的题目。那题呢,到最后我有总共差不多四十分钟呢。 我想也想不到,堂堂一个十几年的读书生,就连那一行字也没读到。那题目里关键的一行字,我保证你,我可以五分钟内完成他。唉,天真的是有不测风云,我偏偏就在最后那一分钟看到。哇塞,你可以想象我那时可真有多不甘愿。 我明明整份卷子可以胸有成竹的把它完成,还闭门念书。搞得我差点走火入魔,就为了那个HD.

也许是因为那件事,希望也放低好多了。目标放低了,说真的,人也放松好多了。

晚餐之后都没做些什么有建设性的事情,就一直看《康熙来了》。难免看多了也会厌倦,所以就飘落到现在,无所事事,也无思乱想。有时也不知道为何我有这么多繁杂的思想,怪不得我白头发这么多,害得我时不时得染头发,不然就天天有那沧桑的脸色。

忧从中来,何以解愁

有时候,还真的不知道自己可以撑到几时。那些创伤的呐喊,就每天这样埋在自己的心坎里,每天都告诉自己“我还能撑多一天!”。奇怪的是我也没有要日夜有人分担这负担,反而很坚持的觉得这毕竟是我的私事。 但众多人当中,也得感谢(只有)一位,能够聆听我的哭诉, 能够彻底的了解我的心情。就这么一次,就很足够了。 我觉得我对我人生,打从心里,也没什么抱怨了。

Friday, October 28, 2011

Waiting.



Just something I did during my study breaks.

Sunday, October 23, 2011

Of spring and blueberry muffins


Spring is back and the tree outside my room is blooming with leaves again. See that kettle? Its dying soon and it served me a good year =) about time I go home already.

Finished all assignments last week, and have the first examination paper coming next Tuesday. Internship's settled, flight ticket as well. Going to look for houses over the course of the holiday, buy AirAsia ticket back to Aus this holiday too, and also a concrete plan for moving our stuff to our friend's house after our exams. The same bunch of friend offered their place for us to stay for next year's house huntin' too.

Weather's pretty warm these few days. With nearly as much as 26C for Monday and Tuesday, and thank goodness it rained the next few days. Gloomy days with rain as the toppings make me happy, for some odd reason. So much for being "gloomy" eh?

I bought blueberry muffins again from Coles. They do cost a little bit too much but they taste good. Every damn thing I've bought recently has a countdown timer on them, and all of them are expected to finish by mid-Nov. Going to get a haircut this coming Tuesday because beauty comes at a price. I'm just kidding, I just don't want to be bothered by my long hair at all when I'm doing my revision. I'd like to keep it moderately short and fresh. Easier for outward diffusion of stress, you know.

Donated blood again last Thursday, saved three lives last time round around May and hoped to continue helping. Pretty glad with my health performance for year of 2011, with regular home workout ( tummy is hereby officially postponed for another year ), and weekly swimming ( and not jogging because the last time I did during end of Winter resulted in me having headache for 1 whole day ) and also very healthy meals. With fruit intake almost everyday and vege for at least one meal a day, to top it off I usually conclude the day with green tea after dinner, for three quater of the time.

Blizzcon took place yesterday, announce a new Kung Fu Panda expansion...excuse me, a new World of Warcraft expansion, a new cinematics for Diablo 3 and a very awesome teaser for Starcraft 2 : Heart of the Swarm which gave me intense nerd-boner excitement and anticipation for the game.

This year's happy meter - 82/100

Well, at least I think I'm happy, or rather every time I prompt that question to myself I'd always have "I think there's hardly anything too bad?" as my answer which is good, I guess. Cheers.

Tuesday, October 18, 2011

You know, amidst of everything happening around me, sometimes I really just want to zone out, pause the time and do nothing at all. I do wonder every now and then,

Why have I not met you yet?

...or had I?



Sunday, September 11, 2011

Knowing


Usually when people ask me about how my life has been, I'd always joke and say "same shit, different day".  Not forgetting that I should probably add on and say "same joy, different day" too =) Well life's been good, nothing I couldn't handle, nothing really upsets me so immensely that I could not get back on my feet again.

So yesterday we went out to celebrate Ken's birthday and god knows why I said I wanted to bake a cake for his birthday. Man, I sure liked to talk big, considering the fact that I've never baked before haha. Thank goodness I still had some time after the submission of my assignment last week to do some study on the various vanilla cake recipes around the web, and down-listed a few of them and seek the advice of my neighbor which apparently is a seasoned bakery chef. Even checked on the recipe of whipped cream.

So here it is. Vanilla cake.
1 & 3/4 cups of self raising flour
1 & 1/2 cups of all purpose flour
1/4 tsp of salt

Since I couldn't find cake flour, so I had to sieve the self-raising flour four times to make it really powdery (credit go to a certain awesome green jumper cook from kiwi land by the name of Maurice). Sieved all purpose flour one time and mix well and set aside.

1 cup unsalted butter at room temperature
2 cups sugar

I had to wait for the butter to become a tad soft and melt a little due to the warm room temperature ( in which case the room temp is well below 15C because its cold here! ). I used a wooden spatula and pressed and mixed REALLY long, made sure all the sugar is integrated into the butter.

4 eggs at room temperature.

Add one at a time, beating after every addition. Yes, I beat pretty long ( also forgetting not to overbeat it ) after adding in every egg.

4 tsp vanilla extract

Just add it in. After which I used an electric mixer to blend it well before I put in the dry ingredients I set aside just now, alongside with a cup of undiluted evaporated milk. I think this is the important part because in addition to beating well after every addition of ingredients, its crucial to start and end with the dry ingredients. So just go by this

1/3 of the dry ingredients, to
1/2 cup of undiluted evaporated milk, to
1/3 of the dry ingredients, to
last 1/2 cup of the undiluted evaporated milk, to
last 1/3 of the dry ingredient

Beat well after every addition! Patience and love is the key to a successful cake! Mine looked like this before I greased the pan and put it into the oven.


Looked pretty awesome right! What a sigh of relief when I see the final texture of the dough to be like that. Then, grease the pan and put the mixture in. Oh, remember to preheat oven to...I couldn't remember what temperature but I just knew that I had to set the cake in 325F (or 160C ish ), and the oven were already well in 160C for a long time because someone else was baking. Wait for a GOOD long time, actually depending on your baking tray. Mine was really fat and tall so it took me easily a good one hour. Use a toothpick, or in my case a spaghetti (yes I did not have anything long and hard like a satay stick to test) to poke the cake. Cake's ready when the stick comes out dry. Let it cool for 10 minutes at least before taking it out.



I was actually rushing out for dinner with the rest of the people for the birthday boy, I had to take a later bus on my own because the cake wasn't ready! 15 minutes before my bus I took one last poke into the cake, and I remembered a lot of my hall mates were in the kitchen as well watching me, and boy, did my heart pound like a hammer when I pull the stick out (because I was going to be SO late for dinner), and when the last end of the stick came out of the cake and it appeared to be dry, everyone in the kitchen actually cheered "YES!". At least I think they were cheering for me haha. I took the baking tray, left it in my room and leave straight away for the bus. Poor cake didnt get any attention whatsoever from me.

I was really glad the cake was baked thoroughly! My first try, real luck I have here. Not boasting but it tasted really good haha, I couldn't stop eating it myself. Oh and there is the recipe for the whipped frosting on the cake.

3 egg whites
3/4 cup of sugar
Pinch of salt
1/3 cup of water

I set the glass bowl with all the above mentioned ingredients on a medium heated simmering water ( remember not to overheat it, or else you'll end up with sweet scramble eggs ). Just keep stirring until all the sugar has melted. Then comes the amazing part, this seemingly measly amount of ingredient, after medium speed beating with electric mixer, actually turns out like this.


Add in vanilla extract towards the end. Do not overbeat the whipped frosting, and beat it until stiff peak. Stick peak is the point where the whipped frosting is so viscous until it becomes a non-newtonian fluid and defies gravity. That is in engineering term haha. Well actually, stiff peak is the point where you set a knife in the cream, and topple it upside down (completely) and nothing moves, at least that's what my nice friend did to me in the kitchen. Note: the knife wasn't required really, I just want to boast how awesome my cream is.

Oh and after dinner JiaYean and I went back early, got the keys to our friend's house and decorate the cake (remember I said I left for the bus right after I took the cake out of the oven? ). We had to surprise our friend so to quote JY, she said "time is of the essence"! Here is how it went.




Glad everyone liked it, at least I know someone was hogging the top crust and finished majority of it, birthday boy took 3 slices of it, and only a slice of it is what's left of the entire cake towards the end of the feast. After which we played a game of Taboo which was really fun, more like the company was the best. Had tons of laughter which I believed was genuine from each and every person in the room. Had the best recognition and appreciation expressed from the birthday boy, which was both silly and heart warming at the same time haha.

I had a good time, and the responses I've got were REALLY worth all the effort, I did not feel a SLIGHTEST bit of drag. Thanks, to you, and to everyone else =)

Wednesday, August 24, 2011

the road ahead.

Well, a picture paints a thousand words. This is probably how I've been feeling for the past few days.


I've really just let down a huge luggage recently. I really couldn't talk to anybody for god's sake, I just want to stand there for a while more with my luggage. Take a look into the horizon in the distant. Catch a new breath. Take a look back at my luggage for one last time...

...so I can move on.