White hairs! Stress!

Seems that stress have infested my veins. Even i can feel the intense bloodflow nowadays. Simpyl because of the deprivation of internet. How sad.

I am now in Starbucks, with my roomate just opposite of me, using internet, struggling ( for me ) just to get something downloaded. 268mb of world of warcraft pacth. One more thing i wanted to stress, i can no longer trust other people to do things for me, for i shall, from now on, asked no one but myself to get whatever things to be done. A wanted to pass a CD to me, broke his promise, but thats alright, he passed to B, an ex-classmate of mine also. Very nice of him, i mean it, without a single bit of sarcasm, to do such a favor for me. B however needs to leave for Rugby finals, alright, thats an asshole lol, i looked for C a scholar friend of mines, grab hold of the CD and came along with a million "Thank you"s. Guess what? He went for his drama CCA, totally forgetting that i am on my way to get the CD, and he forgot to bring his phone with him. *shakes fists*. Its alright, because he helped me to get from the friend. I got D, a junior of mines, to get from C. Thats done. However only later he noticed me that hes going back the very next day back to his hometown. What a tragic. He mentioned he would pass to E. "Thank you" again. Called E, mentioned he was not aware of such things as a CD, called D back, just to realised that he left it in his room.

Seriously, weep for humanity. Such an act is a real insult to us, to most intelligent creature of this realm. Enough has been said, you more or less can taste my anger warming up the medium around you, air, like a microwave.

I am here in Starbucks for internet. Before that, for my mobile phone ownership transfer. AFTER all have been done, the customer servicee called me and notified me of a precedure that was missed out. Guarantee of a guarantor. FINE! I dragged my slippers ( hey, i am in Orchard road...slippers? Its fairly ok thought, but i am wearing some downtown shorts and some Giordano plain red t-shirt...) down back to the customer service centre. She apologised, of course to my expectation she'd better apologise however of which i held her for no fault. Guarantor needed to be 21 and above, and a Singaporean.

Just something to interrupt this flow of event, i just got disconnected by the Wireless@SG and reconnected, damn, they're never stable, for thank God for that i get to download my baby - WoW patch.

Continuation of that, i was kinda pissed to only a small extend. AFTER i had paid the $200 for the deposit, you told me that? Still upholding my gentlemanly behavious i replied " That $200 is not my concern, its the guarantor. So when can i get back to you?" Of course she assisted me in any ways i could after serveral methods she suggested like getting my aunt here physically to be the guarantor, gosh if my aunt could be here i wouldnt have to literally went to their house and beg them for the letter for the authorisation for the transfer. So? I just have to wait untill couple more days to see if i can get hold of a scape goat just to drag its bloody flesh to just sign a bloody deal.

Oh yea, i think theres a joker keep coming into my system and put a configuration into my wireless. untill i have to type a command

%SystemRoot%\system32\services.msc /s

in the run system just to clear it off and blablabla yadayada. What a prank. However, i am intelligent enough lol, Microsoft.com and its support centre helps! Previously ( trust me it has occured serveral times) and when i try to configure my wifi to reconnect it just wouldnt, caused me to restart. Maybe its just a bug, who knows.

Alrighty, 55% more to finish the patch. Its been a long time since i went Nanyang Junior College. My classmates and I have blended well also, quite some fun time we have. Just that my NAPFA ( of which to my greatest extend of my knowledge I am still unable to figure out what that acronyme stands for though), basically its just a physical education test. I got 0 pull-ups. ZERO lol. The rest went well. 

Errps, holidays drawing close, and I kinda going back very early, for the sake of my World of Warcraft thats all. Furthermore, my mid-year examinations are jusr drawing close.

Oh yea, another recent incident that angered me a lot. Before that want to tell you briefly how inhuman most hostels are nowadays. DO NOT see it as something common and so conform with it, but use your humility and judge it.

Weekdays curfew : 7.30pm

Weekends curfew : 11.00pm

To stay overnight at friends' house, parents letter and hostel approval is required. Leaving without approval from the Oldham Hall Intranet System will result in consequences.

To leave hostel at anytime, logout must be done.

Main door is magnetised at curfew hours.

Tell me. Is that how you babysit scholars? Or should i put it, adolescents? Its laughable how many people got used to it and quietly nod their heads when questioned about it. You tell me this generation of people are going to be future leaders? Again, enough has been said, once, just recently, i submitted an overnight leave at 2pm (thats is the lastest time i could think of), left hostel, went out at 8pm. Later at 12.30am, just about four hours after that, i got a sms from the Assistant Hall Master that i went out without conscent. Oh god, you tell me for a period of 10 hours you cannot get a overnight leave approved and you blamed me for that? WHAT?! I dont sit in the hostel all day long just to wait for your petty staffs to get my leave approved. I AM A HOMOSAPIEN! Accidents do happen and we are all holding this time bomb. You have your reasons, i understand that, that is WHY i sent it so EARLY in, but i HAVE my stance also, i need it approved fast also for my own convenience while i already toke care of YOUR convenience. You tell me this is an environment you could put a 18 years old adult in? Funnier thing is, the hostel manager mentioned somehting like if were we of thinking to live independently, we were to think twice again. WHOA? Are you blackmailing us?

For that one of the house master got pissed with me. SO? i couldnt bother much. Seriously. Moreoever when recently one of my roomate represented our cluster for a forum on whatsoever improvement we wanted. I gave him a VERY STRONG and VIOLENT objection on this curfew and to a horrific way "requested" of him to jodly well present this idea to the entire hostel committe. Of course we was on my side also, so all the more he would make it a point to stress a lot more on that.

Toke a look of myself just now in a restroom in the shopping mall, noticed a lot of white hairs coming out again. You tell me, what is at fault of this domination of white hair on my head?

Me hamster fantasy

Me is a hamster, name's Lester.

 

Me now in hostel computer, hand too shot, type too slow. Me like rainy days, like now.

 

Twoday me eat Fillet-Oh-Fish, OH wrong, me ate Double Fillet-O-Fish, very nice, 3 tomato, 2 mayonise, 1 curry, with french fries and nuggets, while eating, me wonder will me ever find a nugget in a chicken.

 

Later me take bus back after get the bus concession renewed, saw one big tummy lady, me think she is a mother-to-be, but but but, me saw her husband holding her arms and supporting her because floor wet wet, later she slip slip then pain pain. But but but, me saw the guy also have tummy, same size as her wife...is he a Fomther-to-be?

 

Me me me saw lots of cow pictures at the side of the highway today when me in bus, just like hollywood like that, pretty cows stood there. Me me find it intriguing.

 

Me me me a simple hamster, ask nothing but World of Warcraft : Burning Crusade and internet, but but but then cannot get them. Me think because God hate mouses fighting and using each other, thats why i got banned from computer entertainments. Me did nothing wrong! Me just use mouse to move that cursor in my computer thats all !

 

Me very deprived now, like hamster eacheverysingleoneperday running on the wheel, doing things like what me hamster's master called them homeworks. So tiring. Me me locked in a cage, but but then very the cozy, me have a very cozy bed, cozy blanket, cozy bedlinen, cozy cold air-conditioner, cozy roomates, and many many more! Me get to play SimCity4 now and then, me never know that me hamster's master's world, their building is smaller than me on the screen! So small! Also also me me watching 1 Litre of Tears now, very very nice japanese drama. Me me very touched by the japanese series. More more, me also joined the hostel badminton club, got couple of pro players that can trash I, that day coach, which is one of the Assistant Hall Master in me hostel ask me to go for trial, at the end, me got asked to come back next Friday, yay!

 

Me me cant wait anymore, me me need entertainment, if not it is going to be the end of the World.............

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

of Warcraft : Burning Crusade....

 

Me me hamster wan me master Lester to be able to surf Friendster everyday, not mixing with gangsters in school like twisters, or eating maybe not fillet-o-fish but fillet-o-lobsters when me is sad.

 

So anyone out there can help I with me sadness? >.<

 

Maybe me should just study for A levels, sigh~~

Bitter tastes

Where the melodious rhythm of rainfall cleanse my sleepy mind and awaken me...

 

Its raining now. Yes and its been a centuary since i last blogged, thanks to many unfortunate events that hinder our reach to a broadband, and now we face a much fearful peril and is dealing with it. Its been very frustrating for the whole lot of us in the room, tyring to get abroadband, only to find out that we dont have a cable point in our rooms for our cable modem, even with the paid charges for the installation of a cable point there is still no darn way for this Oldham Hall to have a cable point set up. How tragic. Something even more annoying to me, while me and the other roomate of mines struggled to obtain a broadband connection, the other few sat there doing nothing and just wait for a miracle to bestow on them. Dont mention that you've got nothing to do, its just that you've got no sincerity to participate in.

 

Enough of it, and now i have to pay for the painful internet fees to access internet. I must really say, some people NEVER change. Rumors have him potraited as a very mean and inconsiderate bastrard, my intergrity shielded me from that mindset. Facts are factual, theres no escape for it. Ever met a person, you were on the bus, bypassing him on a bus stop, asked him to board the bus and head to hostel across a glass panel of the bus, refused, upon reaching the bus stop in front of hostel, said changed him mind and asked you to wait for him at the bus stop in front of hostel. The hell? Why should i? I am right in front of my own hostel and i cant bloody walk some 200 steps and get in and must wait for you to board another bus that might eat up 5min and welcome you at the bus stop? You common sense really shocked the human population, really. Or, asking you to buy him snacks whenever he knows that you're out. Get your lazy ass moving please and stop troubling other people worse than a master troubling his maids. Or, playing that i dont know whatsoever called box thingy that have 6 diffrent colours and you keep switching those 9 squares at each side of the box to obtain a dominant colour on one side of the box, untill late night at 3am, talking and kept asking on how to solve it. For goodness's sake, i know its a Good Friday, if you want to solve it, go to your bed and solve it, dont come and make all those noises at night at my corner of the room. Also, a person that no matter how many times you try to asked him to just STOP lying on your bed, he just simply does it. I swear, one more time and I'm going to get him flamed. Seriously, you telling me this is an act of a 18 years old guy?

 

Go back to your hometown and die please, and let tommorrow be a better day for the world.

 

Luckily there are still good news for me. Went for mural paintings, somehow its like some wallpaper painting. I touched-up...i swear in God's name, i touched-up REALLy a lot, and spent some 2-3 hours non stop for that, and before that even some 1 hour+ non stop painting, and i swear the reward's just as sweet. Towards the end a teacher approached me and asked for my name, later followed by a " Are you an art student? " and then compliments on my skills and thanked me for that effort. Not trying to boast, but for once in my life somehting wonderful has haoppened, i could not resist to share the...good news...just like how those Christians in my family who tried to lure me into that religion and toke the reason "sharing good news" to brainwash me on things like that.

 

Anyways, i am deeply sick about my life now. Its been very boring and meaningless. Its really a waste of my time, and my life. I just spent hours sleeping and doing nothing. I woke up this and yesterday morning, listened to online lectures, so revised a bit and i am already sick of it. i swear, so many sick things are happening all around me, and the goodness of those good events can barely come, or rather totally outweighed by those curses.

 

Day after another, im pushed nearer and nearer to my brim of sanity. Its will not hold on much longer, clock's ticking, merciless time is draining sand in an hourgalss to the bottom, the sunken places for dismay. I taste only bitterness in my life, nothing else.

Of birds and cage

Such pathetic life i have, upon moving into a new boarding, i found my surrounding malnourished with internet. How awful and tragic for a person like me to face this depletion of "life" when internet and its entertainments are my power source. Im starving.

 

Now? I paid some S$10 for the hostel internet, and surprisingly today's quite a "weird day" for me. Went to a barber shop, and they charge S$22 for just a college students, i stretched out my eye widely and responded with a "ok........", rejecting this *ehem* offer. Buying all gloceries, washing powders, biscuit and tissues cost S$10 exactly. A motorcyclist on the road who was on his motorcycle, kept standing up and sitting down simultaneously while driving on the street, i thought he was fucking the air but NO, the hell is the guy doing lol. Swining my leg while waiting for a bus at a bus stop, simple because the seat is so god damn high from the ground and rarely theres a chance for a 183cm guy like to to have myself sitting on a seat when my legs are not in contact with the ground, then got a annoynamous person sending me a sms "stop swinging your leg", left me stunned lol, called up the person only to found out that my friend changed his hp and saw me swinging my leg...violently on the seat at the bus stop. Taking off my handphone skin, since the shell is tranparent and the skin beneath the shell is removed, my battery and all the parts inside the phone is now nude to its surrounding, what a feast for my eyes!

 

Enough for the good things lol, bad things had struck me for the past few months, one thing after another keep condemning my luck. Its not like im superstitious, however i DO believe that bad lucks do come at times and after that certain period you will blossom with this unlimited fragrance of luck. What a wonderful thing it is...to dream about. sigh. Getting into ACJC was the one and only thing i wished for and blessed with. The rest? nah....CCAs i wanted to get in...badminton, choir, getting into shooting club's school team, all like bubbles, popped and vanished. Getting into Oldham hall? Many claimed that its a "nice" hostel, but not me, a nice hostel is when its a HOSTEL and total freedom is granted. Perfect architectures...aesthetic polllution-free...air-conditioned rooms...those are always an added values to a hostel, however for a wild horse like me who dwelled on wide un-fenced plains, these places are a big NO-NO for me.

 

Moreover, my sly truency and all my cunning plans which were suppose to be "behind-the-scene" got exposed to the authorities of my hostel under this very unfortunate circumstance. Sky was falling on me that day when i got to know about it. Along with this unfrotunate events, i think God has all the more reasons to rain another series of unfortunate event on me, right after thatr, when i got paged by the office to go down and collect my bedlinens, i was left locked outside because i forgot to bring my room card and access was denied into my own room. NONE of my roomates were in and i had to go down and retrieve a temporary card to gain access to my room.

 

"No matter how dark the night is, morning always come..."

 

yea yea for the millionth time i have mentioned it. Today, finally the formula to all the dreadful deeds in my life has gotten to an end. I am seeing a sunrise now, and a bird who can once spread its wing and soar in the sky with the key to the lock is just right in front of me. For so many rules and regulation in my life that i have to take time out and mugged, I found this section of the booklet mentioned

 

" Boarders who wished to apply for a PRIVATE broadband internet service, a phone line is installed in the room. For boarders 18 years old and below, a conscent is required from guardian..." yadayadayada....

 

INTERNET! Now the tide has changed and its time for the scale to be even, if in return i have to follow this strict rules but i get to have a private internet connection and can have my own time over my favourite game World fo Warcraft, its definetly worth is. See? Chinese sayings are true at times lol. So for now, i will use my darn beak and drill the hell out of all pillars of the cage and break it and fly away! I can get myself an internet! Furthermore i can play WoW! YES! My saga in the world.............

 

of warcraft will have its continuation!

 

So much for that, i am feeling thristy now, so am lazy to type furthermore, moreover, i have my laundry downstair waiting for me. Laters, bitches!

the F*** in my life

Have you ever felt the utmost agitation in your life?

 

Yes i am experiencing it now. A lousy internet, is all that need to agitate me to the very extreme.

 

So now i am telling you now the

 

FUCK OF MY LIFE!

 

After some stressful week on my Junior College posting, and my utmost dissapointment over my GCE O level result of which it REALLY did not fuckin demonstrate and reflect the effort i put into the examination AT ALL. FUCK YOU, YOU GOD DAMN BASTARD O LVL!

 

Upon being subjected to these torments and I still have to face the MOST nerve-biting case in my life - lousy internets. Of which this problem alone has caused my to bang my keyboard hardly before...screamed at whoever i sees...have no appetide over any kind of food thingumajig...

 

Scenario I

You wake up early in the morning, 3am and tried to at least have a chance to enjoy your World of Warcraft because simply it has been a long long long time since you last played it and then found it so laggy that you cant even cast a single spell in the game and then ended up disconnected from the server for many many many times

 

Scenario II

You wake up again on the same morning at 5am, and tried again, same thing happened

 

Scenario III

You wake up once again at 9am, same shit happens

 

Scenario VI

In the afternoon you tried the same thing and it happens again

 

Scenario V

You cannot log into msn AT ALL and for a 10 minutes non-stop trying you finally get it logged in

 

Scenario VI

You found out that you cannot log in your hotmail account

 

Scenario VII

You tried numerous times then only you can get into your blog

 

Seriously people, you still have such things in a hostel in this 21st centuary? You are outdated. If you tell me you cant even know how to make a copy of a folder. You are seriously outdated. If you are telling me you dont even know how to install a program. You are seriously undoutedly outdated. If you are telling me you dont even know how to shut down a computer. You are seriously undoubtedly a...i don't know you go ahead and figure on your own a word... 

 

While on the other hand you complained that we do not learn to study well....we just do not learn to do houseworks...we just do not learn how to do our own laundry...we just do not know how to behave...we just do not know how to drive....we just do not know how to cook....while we have already mastered it you simply toke the reason that "i am tired and old" to get away with it. NO WAY.You  better darn make sure you have the same turn-outs and not some dimished returns. Futhermore, it is plain dumb to bring in "time" into the arguement, you have your career but we also have our career - study. Is the scale even now?

 

I am seriously very sick of my life now, frankly i just PON school last Friday for no reason, simply because i am SICK OF MY LIFE. This lousy retarded education system is ripping every student's life out and you are telling me you are selecting the best for elitism and to rule the rest of us? I am telling you that you are just selecting the same person over and over again with the same attributes and term them as "good"..."smart"...you are just making this society dumb and slow and not creative anymore you know?

 

People with good results. "Oh they are smart" HELL FUCKING NO. They are just people who just commit more time to STUDY the same thing others are made available to. That is all. Look at nowadays society...does this word "mugger" sounds anymore familiar to you?

 

You scientists debunk to have your fellow creations to serve this world better and make it a better place. Do you think so? Look outside your window and try to take a deep breathe. What is it? Try to flip open your newspaper or your TIME magazine, what is it that you see inside? War. Go to your junior college and attend your GP sessions. What is it that they need you to submit regarding in an arguement as your assignment? You more or less can figure out. AND THEN you have to guts to come and tell me " Oh wells what to do, it is what society is and you HAVE to know"

 

I'd rather die now.

 

One more simple question, are you happy now with your life? You may say now but let me assured you, bear this question in time and when you get agitated by something in your life question yourself this, you might just result in giving up reading my blog and drove off to shop and you will end up in a traffic jam and you will start bitching. you happy?

 

Now, i dont have a mood to play World of Wacraft now. (Hooray lester can does his homeworks now!) In addition to that, i am even unfocused on my homeworks now than ever before ( try me this aint working, im still an ordinary teenagers).

 

The more tou try to refrain us from something we want, the more we will crave for it. There are instances where i play WoW and i automatically stopped and did my homeworks, even i was surprised with that nature that time. However if you give me a bloody internet to surf on, and when there are unsatisfaction...you jodly well make sure you don't say anything "exothermic"...

 

Conclusion - I see no point in studying, and no reason over why i cannot get a good internet, and why am i stucked in this world and not dead yet.

 

A letter to....

 

Dear XXX,

 

     Hi how have you been? Its been ages since I last contacted you and surely the both of us have much to missed out. Hows you holidays been? Haha i bet you must be so caught in the A level warzone. Well then, pity the both of us, simply because we are on the same boat :( i am doing my A levels also. By the way, send my regards to your family and wish they remain in the pink of health.

 

     Anyways, something to "cherish" you lol. My favourite cybercafe is closing down! It was that day i went to the shopping mall and tried to restock my warehouse of biscuits, i was stunned by the sudden closure of many of the shops. I browsed through the mall and found out that there are only few remaining shops open. Of which one of them was my favourite cybercafe. I approached the shop, a note saying " Thank you for all your support, since 1999, Last day on 25th Feb 2007" pasted near the entrance. I was literally devastated and the sky was falling on me. Of course i played in that shop for one last time. Gosh i am going to miss that place so much. out of curiosity i actually questioned the shopkeeper about the reason over the shop's closure. Said the shopkeeper that the mall's undergoing a big renovation. dammit.

 

    I have grown weary over something also these days. I am on the verge of losing control of myself and fall addicted to World of Warcraft again ( and Nescafe also ). Of course i strive for the equality of my attributes, like gaming skills...academic...health etc. Rest assured, i will still remember this dreadful A level deed i signed, and my pact with it will definetly serve as a drive to do my homeworks and refrain myself from those *temptation*. Anyways, just something delightful to share with you, i finally got my mage to level 70! maximum level! Woot i was so happy! Now i can fully enjoy the world with my new Snowy Gryphoon Mount. A flying mount! Grind golds for my epic flying mount...grind reputation for my leet caster sword and if time allows work on my profession.

 

    Ok enough of those. Something's been disturbing me a lot, to some extend. My JAE posting result. Its coming up soon, estimated to be 6th March. I really wanted to stay in Anglo-Chinese Junior College, cut-off point is 8 points, of which i got a 12 points for my O levels and a bonus point of 4, so i am just right on the margin. Fear the unavailability of places for me in ACJC though. However, so far i have been able to stay optimistic. Come rain or shine, i thought. Who knows right over at Anderson or St.Andrews Junior College can offer a better life for me?

 

    Days been boring for me. Chemistry test tomorrow. Today went to gym and workout. Everday some 2 hours of study times and of course an evening for my world of warcraft untill dinner time. School? Lectures...tutorials...practicals...they are all the same in some sense - boring etc. My room? never had a minute when theres not a single ant crawling. Just now i just ate pizza.  3 pieces and a cup of coke. Some coolies they have there huh.

 

    Last week we had Choy and May ( heard that they are quite renowned and soem people in...MTV? ) . Thye gave each of us a big calendar and was there to spread the awareness of the illness Lupus. First lady went up and told her about her past times, she is married now and when she started off and halfway she "partially' broke down and started weeping and sobbing. When she mentioned "the sky come falling down" when she got Lupus and that many illnesses came along, that was when she broke down and cried. Followed up next are May and Choy, one of then started sobbing also when they mentioned that their mom is a victim and how she suffered. At that moment i realised something though, the part of me that makes me want to stay in Interact Club has already gone...sad right?

 

     XXX, these days been very clouded for me. Are we teenagers always question the same thing? Are we feeling empty all the time? Is it love? is it because we live our life in materialism? Is it because we live our life wandering aimlessly? Well surely you will tell me time will unfold those answers slowly. Lets hope so, really. As you know i am quite an impatient person so dont expect me to hang on with this for long, i am going to get desperate soon. So much so for me, all the best to you in all aspect of life also =D .  Keep in touch ok? 

 

    Seems to me that the cunning time does not allow me to write anymore, so i'll just stop here and all the best in your A levels also. Laters.

 

P.S. I am still a 18 years old BOY hehe

 

Yours faithfully,

Lester

 

Lust Lush Greenery

Yes, symptons of a loveless life...we whine about almost everything in our life...even the most wonderful thing can be converted into the vilest deed and hurt us. Sigh...

 

Let me construct a lists of annoying things which agitated me

 

- Ants infesting and invading my poor laptop of which they are attracted to lights while im just trying to have a peaceful time blogging, but they left me in a restless mood

- Gusts of dry associated with this extreme heat's onslaught for the entire evening, while I am just trying to have my laptop laid still on the table however this curtains kept slapping my darn face while im facing my laptop, and this "vacuum" which literally drained off the very last bit of moist on my skin while i was sleeping. Awful.

- Dusts. I just cleaned my room yesterday but when i got back to my room today the floor if carpeted with this layer of dusts, the hell!

- Sat on the bus which i just want to stay alone for a 5 minute or so, but this pair of "lunatic" couple went on the bus which the girl was sobbing and the guy was like hugging her and was *ehem* giving her some close-ranged kisses. Dammit, do you know that is damn cruel and hurts a loveless guy just sitting right behind the both of you?

- My retarded working 120GB external hardrive which I bet it is pushing me to the brim of buying another USB cable since it has been acting weirdly recently

- Thinking of tommorow's mass physical education, of which i just realised i have totally lost my pace to those excersizes simply because I was absent on Thursday for THREE consecutive weeks

- Put tartar sauce instead of Thousand Island on my salad just now for dinner

- Loads of homework, which I barely managed them, and in spite of all the time spent on homeworks, it still end up as some bluff to show my fellows teachers that i am doing my homework, and left me gasping for air everyday.

- I spent most of the time of the day day-dreaming or playing computer games. Dammit, I cannot focus! ( of course, when its time to study, i went day dreaming; when its time to rest, i play games)

- I dont have a girlfriend and I am feeling bad over that darn face of mines, envying all those "hawt" and "cool" looking guys around.

- I got myself a hair dye labelled "chocolate brown", but the result is some extra dosage on the darkening of my hair tone.

- I am bearing this curse of aha-never-gets-gd-but-laggy-internet, doomed by it for eternity. Caused my lvl 67 mage to die 5 times consecutively in the game simply because it got disconnected, of which i would have leveled to 68 by then.

- I am so sucky in Mathematics, Physics, Chemistry, Economics and Chinese. Of which 5 of them out of 6 are my subjects which i am taking now. General Paper? Darn that, i'd rather back to those days which I am still struggling with English but excelling in sciences and mathematics ( *hallelujah* Angel :" Lester, must be grateful of what you have. Be happy!" *thunder roars* Devil :" Crave for more! drown yourself in the sorrow of your past!" )

- My next room roomie which just cannot understand the Philosphy of Humility ( go get "Dummies on Humility", please ) and just kept banging the door hard everyday they enter or exit the room, despite the many times i gently requested that they stop doing that because it is some...irritant

- My addiction over Nescafe

- Worrying over poosibilities of getting kicked out from my current Anglo-Chinese Junior College ( of which AC is where my heart belongs )

 

You see, its not like I am making a big deal out of this tiny puny details of my life, and bitching for the sake of bitching. NO. It is because there is no such thing as Love ( i am getting desperate, shit why am i like this, i am only 18! )...NOT! I am just damn ungrateful with every happenings in my life, there is nothing for me to look foward to the next day. Except for my darn World of Warcraft which is the drug of my life ( OH REALLY?! ), I see nothing else in my life that serves the same drive. Sad huh?

 

I just want my next day to be full of hope, a day that i will look foward to, which everynight i will want a tommorrow, i would want to shed the old leaves on that darn old tree, and grow new ones, and that lush green looks of it. You want it?