1,2,3 and 5

It means random, if you're still tilting your head sideways and frown with much confusion.

Just a couple of things, i guess i'm just hyped with my new blog hence more frequent entries are seen. Firstly, I lied. I clearly wanted some other wallpaper. So I've found another one and god knows how long this one is going to stay. 

Digress. I've finally gotten my very own DSLR camera simply because I'll be bringing one with me when I'm going Australia. My initial plan was not to bring one with me, after much consultation, i came to the conclusion that bringing a DSLR over is the situation a condom can get you into. Yes, the seemingly vocabulary mistake you've spotted is indeed not a mistake. Its the situation of "better to have one when you dont need it, rather than not having one when you needed one".

Everything is second handed material. The body itself is a second hand with ONLY a measly 600 shutter count. Well shutter counts are like a car's mileage, they are some form of a measure to its age. Basically 1 shutter count - 1 shot. The lens is a 18-200mm VRII lens. So actually i did clean it up a little. The screen protector is glass and i put it on myself, yes, I'm pro enough to do it haha. The strap is not the original strap because the original one would have no elasticity AT ALL. Its a pain to your shoulder, so I've gotten myself another strap. Very comfortable indeed, and it has that little curve to match your shoulder's dimension. Very smart indeed. Of course, not forgetting the UV filter I've added to protect the lens as well. Thats all about it. 

Digress. Just wanted to show how ordinary my lunch sometimes can be. 

(Oh did I also mention I had this lunch setup, because I found out basically I've overspent for the past few weeks?)

Its more waiting than eating than cooking than washing. Its all the pasta's fault. It takes 10min plus to be fully cooked whilst everything else is nearly instant. The scramble egg which took me less than 3min to make. The pasta sauce from supermarket. The black pepper hotdog from supermarket which I just dump them in the boiling water along with the pasta. Top it off with a cup of coffee, and thats my lunch. 

Digress. This spectacles. Actually works.

(Introducing the 101 Spectacles to view things like a fruit fly)

DO NOT, I repeat, DO NOT look down on this thing. It actually works and last time round when i was still in secondary school, it actually managed to reduce my eyesight degree significantly, but of course not until it could render my 100degree spectacles useless.

Digress. Blogging on blogspot is actually a much more pleasant experience than Windows Live. Yes windows live, you can suck on it.

exfoliate

So, windows live finally offered an alternative to windows live blog. It sucks, if you want my honest opinion. So i was hopping they couldve offered a transfer to blogspot but no, they chose Wordpress instead. Yeah you've probably heard that before but I wouldnt place a bet on wordpress. It just doesnt look as promosing as blogspot. So to hell with it, i actually spent 2 hour or so figuring and searching around on how to transfer all my entries since 2006 over. You've gotta thank windows live for letting you to export your old blog tho.

Here I am, finally using Blogspot. Here marks the beginning of Blogspot.

Havent been posting entries for a while. Actually after the Monash ball event i did a surgery and had my wisdom tooth removed. With the combined help of sedation and local anesthetic, i actually fell asleep right after the injection and woke up realizing they were cleaning up already. What comes after that is both infuriating and annoying. It took me 5 full days for the swell to shrink to a acceptable shape, and 2 full weeks untill i could remove 8 out of 9 of my stitches. Its probably a month plus from then, and its nothing nice to blog about so I did not make a long ass blog about it.

Heaps of assignments and mountain-high of reports came clashing down like a tsunami not long after the surgery. However as of today i'm officially relieved of all these torturous assignments. Thank goodness, i could finally lock myself at home and enters the panic mode.

One particular thing, of all things bothers me a lot. My work attachment. I dont know why it actually bothers me a lot whenever i thought of it, in terms of unpredictability. I've got the idea of working for a month during this year end's break and the remaining two months during the end of Year 3. Well, things dont always pan out the way you want and employers nowadays would of course want you to work a minimum of 2 months. Along with a lot of limitation, also comes the worry that if i failed to get my 3 months done before my final examination, my graduation would be delayed. In all honesty, I really do want to wear that graduation hat with everyone else at the same time.

So it really riled me up a lot. Actually got me thinking, is there something more to me than what I am now? Is there it to all we will be doing for our lives? I guess my emotion at this point of time is really like the background image. I always had a goal. It sounds silly but a quote in Twilight : Eclipse is actually darn good.

"When we were five, they asked us what we wanted to be when we grew up. Our things were answers like astronaut, president, or in my case, princess. When we were ten, they asked us again. We answered - rock star, cowboy, or in my case, gold medalist. But now that we’ve grown up, they want a more serious answer. Well, how about this...Who the hell knows? This isn’t a time to make hard and fast decisions. This is the time to make mistakes. Take the wrong train and get stuck somewhere chill. Fall in love - a lot. Major in philosophy because there’s no way to make a career out of that. Change your mind. Then change it again because nothing is permanent. So make as many mistakes as you can. That way, someday, when they ask again what we want to be. We won’t have to guess. We’ll know"

I'm just not at that stage yet to know what i want. Maybe because im still detesting the idea of working too much right now all because im constantly labeling myself as a student. I know there comes a time where I'll need to work, when that time comes I will work. Meantime, I just want to do what I am suppose to do now. Perhaps I should revise my opinions, maybe I should look at the job attachment at a completely different angle. Who knows.

Monash Ball

Yes my best shot for the Monash Ball 2010. I did have a lot of fun, maybe because my secondary school's prom sucks because its not a prom and because its a boy's school, and Sunway College's graduation night just blows. So you can say its finally a dream come true for me, and i've never spent so much time shopping. 1Utama twice, Pyramid twice, and MidValley twice. Of course i did not coming back with harvest all the time, most of the time i went home empty handed but its a good insight into the current trend.
So i got my coat from TopMan with size 40 and shirt M size. Was taking L size initially but realized its too baggy so went for something slimmer. Belt's and undergarment's the same haha. I particularly love the pants, its from Sub, maybe because its size 34 (read earlier post) and i could fit it just well and i really love the slim cutting. Sub made a huge overhaul of their concept recently and i had the impression of their lala style untill i passed by the Sub concept store in SunwayPyramid, and i was stunned to find out - they have everything to my cup of tea. At least it made me feel like i DO HAVE AN ASS. Didnt get to see the shoes, HushPuppies leather shoes. Gosh you've got no idea how long i've spend shopping for shoes. Its a good 1 hour+ in the same department store section, the shoes either did not come with the size i want, or theyre simply ugly. Size 11, i finally found one! Got the socks right after that and im all prepared. Tie's from MyTieShop.

The whole outfit was pretty much a huge bet placed by myself. I know right away i wanted a formal looking blazier with more than just black colour, and i'd love to get a hand on the exact one i was wearing. Always had that imagine in my head just need to shop and hunt for it. Lucky me, i've found it. Actually i've spent a lot more time searching for it, untill the last shop with vincent and voon, i saw another guy put that blazier on and i was like "How could i have missed that?" because i was in TopMan earlier in the day. Shirt's the same thing. Pants i knew all along as well i dont want to have boring baggy slacks. Condition is not to have normal slack quality pants, and no baggy ones. So the hunt begun and i knew right away i could find one in Sub. I like the quality of the pants, its slightly leathery but has the jeans feel to it. It could really look formal and playful at the same time. For the shoes i know for my height i could not wear short tipped shoes, i have to get leather shoes with lengthen tips. Furthermore i dont want it to be plain black and with straps, i hate it, and i want some metal "thingy" to it. So i found one that i could just slip it in, with the silver tag in front with the brand name. Tie's cake. So yeah i have the image in my mind but god knows how it would turn out when i put everything together. And boy what a relieve, it did turn out good after all haha.

Satisfactory rating - 9.7 out of 10
Cost for the entire outfit? You dont want to know, but thank godness i've been saving for it so yeah.

Ball was just typical. Hell when they mentioned theyre up fro drinking afterwards at Library i'd thought its a club. Hell? Its a bar. I was like OH NO BUT I WANTED TO DANCE TONIGHT. Sat down regardless with tons of friends and enjoyed the talk. More like yelling for me. You know, the typical me got tipsy very fast. Somehow i ended up on a table with free flow of beer and ended up singing madly with bunch of people.
It was fun, at least in my definition of it, and at least for me. I did notice a few people have dissapeared, some went back earlier, some were actually feeling bored and were moving around and around trying to settle down, some threw up, and god knows what else. Oh wells, welcome to night life with night animals like me.

FUN NIGHT REGARDLESS, I ENJOYED THE COMPANY AND THE FUN A LOT!!

......Yeahhhhhhhh. Thats pretty much how i ended up. haha.

Fat

 

That, is of course NOT my body. However you should already have an idea whats today's entry will be about. FAT-ness!

 

I've been skinny all my life, never once fat, never once told im fat, and never looked fat. So yeah i went shopping yesterday in 1Utama for my Monash Ball outfit, wasnt very lucky, and so i went walking all by my own. Can you imagine, the entire mall has not a light-grey seemingly washed-out slim jeans that i could fit in? Every store i walk past i could literally hear the clothes and dummies point their finger and grasp their stomach while drown in laughter of my....fat-ness.

 

Seriously? One of the salesperson even indirectly told me i cant fit into one of the slim jeans with just one glance. SERIOUSLY? I must admit i was left pretty much devastated after yesterday. I couldnt find anything, can you imagine, 1Utama, and went home empty handed. Even my dad got couple of things geez.

 

So today went MidValley with 2Vs. Topman has a nice slim jean, but hell, size 34! GEEZ! I'm like just 1inch bigger or something and i relaly liked the jeans. DAMNIT! I couldnt bother to go into the details but yeah these two days hasnt been kind to me. I guess im like at the size of 35.5 or something, and the thing is when i feel my waist there aint no fats, i could feel my bone only.

 

Oh no, you mean because of my height and bone structure i could never fit in those awesome looking slim jeans? NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! ITS NOT FAIR.

 

P.S. basically im feeling to crappy to paragraph them nicely and mention all the details. urgh.

Photography

Its a tricky thing. Also a pain especially for me - I dont mind bringing the camera and taking good picture for people, only problem is THERE is no one there to take the picture for me!

 

 

Fanciful aint it? Its not my camera btw and i definitely do not own that lens. Its just that i am going for monash ball, and as much as i dont mind taking pictures of everyone else, i just hope i have as much photos of mines as the rest...and as good =P

 

So yeah, figures. Hopefully i could get someone.

 

Oh btw, today was a long day. I actually spent hours sitting in front of my school's comp with 2 of my other groupmates doing HYSYS. Was there since 2.30pm till 6pm. Crazy. It was tiring seriously, but somehow it felt good after all the exhaustion. Like some sense of achievement. Simply put it, we managed to solve the questions by in-depth thinking and lots of discussion and i've really felt that i've learn a lot from the assignment, and theyre exactly like howmy future jobscope would cover. I hope every assignment could achiev this as well, but that doesnt mean i shd get assignments 24/7!

 

So yeah, laters!

One after another

Sometimes, you really just wonder, whats the significance of my existance.

And sometimes, i just want to escape somewhere. Sit down, and think things through. Go somewhere where i feel minute and insignificant, so every other stressful matters in my life would deemed as only pebbles beneath my very foot. Or sometimes, i just want to climb a hill, get to the top and scream my lungs out. All those supressed feelings and all those words that can never be voiced out could all channel somewhere.

We all could use an outlet sometimes, really. Only thing is - when you're actually there, you might end up doing absolutely nothing. Im saying all these because im putting my feeling into this, and i really felt like using an outlet earlier, but come to think about it, i may end up pretending at the end. We're just so used to masking our innermost self sometimes. The weak fragile part.

Whenever we got hurt, we just kept thinking "Wounds would only be healed after bleeding enough. So are feelings and we just need some time". It becomes a habit...

 

 

 

...It already is. I dont know, this is all i could and wanted to say.

 

Apology's aint free ya know

Simply put it,

 

I'll never apologize to someone who'd think whose fault is entirely on the other party and none on their part.

 

I dont recall myself doing that for a long while, and i usually admit at least a mistake on my part whenever someone apologize to make the situation less akward. Unless they attempt to pull off reverse psychology by attempting to do a sarcastic "sorry" and try to put the sympathy on them. Please, reverse psychology dont work on people like me. I know your damn cheap tricks. So again, if you're unwilling to compromise and reflect on whatever happened like i did, sit right there and expect a full apology from me...

 

...it aint gonna happen.