I am my own compass.

The compass always points to the north. The human's compass points in various direction. Wheres yours pointing?

Again, its always during examination period where people have ample time at home to study and be with themselves, and that is when a lot of question starts popping out. Our quest, as student, was of course to strive excellence in the academic field. Get a good grade, a distinction, or even a high distinction.

Where as it seemed to be a easy task for some people to obtain a HD, whilst it appeared to be a very difficult task for somebody as well. I am that somebody. I wont deny the truth that, I am in fact still incapable of securing a HD after nearly 2 years have elapsed since the start of University. It seemed too much a shame sometimes. I will not deny the fact that I do secretly envy the clever students around a lot, whilst some really has nothing much to be envious about because their character just blows.

It makes me wonder really, what these people will have to go through to obtain the grades. All the time, effort, and a whole long list of other things they've sacrificed for the grades. Because, I'm telling you for the effort I've put in the get a minimum three Distinctions a semester left me pretty much exhausted and drained after the examination. To think that if I were to put in the extra effort to push the grade up to HD, I'd die. Well of course that is exaggeration. So here am I thinking, is HD really all that is too our lives right now? Of course its a "No", and for those who came up with the answer within a split second, think again.

Digress for a minute, i know its random.
To all the guys out there who have judged other girls, I'd invite you to look at yourself in the mirror first. I'll keep my mouth shut if you're downright a good deal, but I'm sorry, you looked like fuck in the first place. So stfu and L2Respect each other.

Back to the topic. So I'm just thinking, if you're constantly tied down by your affiliation currently and devote all your time to it, and, if and only if, this never ends, what time would you have left for yourself? 5 or 10 years down the road you probably would be one of the many people around that regretted for not enjoying the past times of their lives. Yeah you could disagree on that and I'd give it to you because my intention was never to force these ideas down your gut. Only on one condition.

I do not want to hear your whining whatsoever, at all. No broadcast how FML your life is. Seriously, I admit I used to be a complain-machine, but now that I've learned not to and saw the light to it, it feels sickening to see when people complains. Yes its really fine if you've got into a car accident etc, but if you were about to complain about things like you falling ill or getting a gastric all day everyday? I'm sorry that is just plain voice pollution, or rather, aesthetic pollution since its all over Facebook nowadays.

So finally here I am to my thoughts today. Let me just make it real simple.

I'd rather get three Distinctions, and be happy. 

Stressed desserts

Its been nothing much for the, i dont know past few weeks.

Actually there are. Peer pressure got a hang of me and I'm under a lot of stress. Doing my best no longer counts, its doing well what counts. It sucks, when you've seemingly put in a tons of effort and the results are satisfactory most of the time, well, at least until you started viewing other's.

So I've really been studying, staying at home etc. Only today, when the seemingly nice weather gave me hell. Just got my hair wet by the rain for like less than 10seconds and now I'm already down with fever. Thank goodness its only a mild one where I could get some rest and recover, hopefully. So much for praising the cool weather for the past few days.

I actually missed a couple of things earlier and was lazy to note it down here. E.g. my auntie from HongKong came down and brought their local delight, "wife cake". Also theres this one Sunday i had to babysit my sis and her bf's little dog until the night. Right there and then I realized I really couldnt stand having a dog in my household. Only puny ones like hamster of fish strictly kthxbye.Furthermore there is this one day, hmm, make it two days I've gotten quite worked out with a subject, Heat and Mass Transfer (CHE2163's the unit code). Just an insight into the subject, the past year paper only had 2 pages worth of questions, and then the rest of the 10 pages were filled with formulas. Yes, by formulas I meant formulas. All alphabets and numbers. Good thing is my efforts are finally paying off, at least I could get the majority of the question solved as opposed to having to have to look at solution and still spend 10min deciphering their working. 

Right now i guess I'm just waiting for the food in my stomach to digest a little more before heading to bed. Life sucks, just sometimes.

1,2,3 and 5

It means random, if you're still tilting your head sideways and frown with much confusion.

Just a couple of things, i guess i'm just hyped with my new blog hence more frequent entries are seen. Firstly, I lied. I clearly wanted some other wallpaper. So I've found another one and god knows how long this one is going to stay. 

Digress. I've finally gotten my very own DSLR camera simply because I'll be bringing one with me when I'm going Australia. My initial plan was not to bring one with me, after much consultation, i came to the conclusion that bringing a DSLR over is the situation a condom can get you into. Yes, the seemingly vocabulary mistake you've spotted is indeed not a mistake. Its the situation of "better to have one when you dont need it, rather than not having one when you needed one".

Everything is second handed material. The body itself is a second hand with ONLY a measly 600 shutter count. Well shutter counts are like a car's mileage, they are some form of a measure to its age. Basically 1 shutter count - 1 shot. The lens is a 18-200mm VRII lens. So actually i did clean it up a little. The screen protector is glass and i put it on myself, yes, I'm pro enough to do it haha. The strap is not the original strap because the original one would have no elasticity AT ALL. Its a pain to your shoulder, so I've gotten myself another strap. Very comfortable indeed, and it has that little curve to match your shoulder's dimension. Very smart indeed. Of course, not forgetting the UV filter I've added to protect the lens as well. Thats all about it. 

Digress. Just wanted to show how ordinary my lunch sometimes can be. 

(Oh did I also mention I had this lunch setup, because I found out basically I've overspent for the past few weeks?)

Its more waiting than eating than cooking than washing. Its all the pasta's fault. It takes 10min plus to be fully cooked whilst everything else is nearly instant. The scramble egg which took me less than 3min to make. The pasta sauce from supermarket. The black pepper hotdog from supermarket which I just dump them in the boiling water along with the pasta. Top it off with a cup of coffee, and thats my lunch. 

Digress. This spectacles. Actually works.

(Introducing the 101 Spectacles to view things like a fruit fly)

DO NOT, I repeat, DO NOT look down on this thing. It actually works and last time round when i was still in secondary school, it actually managed to reduce my eyesight degree significantly, but of course not until it could render my 100degree spectacles useless.

Digress. Blogging on blogspot is actually a much more pleasant experience than Windows Live. Yes windows live, you can suck on it.

exfoliate

So, windows live finally offered an alternative to windows live blog. It sucks, if you want my honest opinion. So i was hopping they couldve offered a transfer to blogspot but no, they chose Wordpress instead. Yeah you've probably heard that before but I wouldnt place a bet on wordpress. It just doesnt look as promosing as blogspot. So to hell with it, i actually spent 2 hour or so figuring and searching around on how to transfer all my entries since 2006 over. You've gotta thank windows live for letting you to export your old blog tho.

Here I am, finally using Blogspot. Here marks the beginning of Blogspot.

Havent been posting entries for a while. Actually after the Monash ball event i did a surgery and had my wisdom tooth removed. With the combined help of sedation and local anesthetic, i actually fell asleep right after the injection and woke up realizing they were cleaning up already. What comes after that is both infuriating and annoying. It took me 5 full days for the swell to shrink to a acceptable shape, and 2 full weeks untill i could remove 8 out of 9 of my stitches. Its probably a month plus from then, and its nothing nice to blog about so I did not make a long ass blog about it.

Heaps of assignments and mountain-high of reports came clashing down like a tsunami not long after the surgery. However as of today i'm officially relieved of all these torturous assignments. Thank goodness, i could finally lock myself at home and enters the panic mode.

One particular thing, of all things bothers me a lot. My work attachment. I dont know why it actually bothers me a lot whenever i thought of it, in terms of unpredictability. I've got the idea of working for a month during this year end's break and the remaining two months during the end of Year 3. Well, things dont always pan out the way you want and employers nowadays would of course want you to work a minimum of 2 months. Along with a lot of limitation, also comes the worry that if i failed to get my 3 months done before my final examination, my graduation would be delayed. In all honesty, I really do want to wear that graduation hat with everyone else at the same time.

So it really riled me up a lot. Actually got me thinking, is there something more to me than what I am now? Is there it to all we will be doing for our lives? I guess my emotion at this point of time is really like the background image. I always had a goal. It sounds silly but a quote in Twilight : Eclipse is actually darn good.

"When we were five, they asked us what we wanted to be when we grew up. Our things were answers like astronaut, president, or in my case, princess. When we were ten, they asked us again. We answered - rock star, cowboy, or in my case, gold medalist. But now that we’ve grown up, they want a more serious answer. Well, how about this...Who the hell knows? This isn’t a time to make hard and fast decisions. This is the time to make mistakes. Take the wrong train and get stuck somewhere chill. Fall in love - a lot. Major in philosophy because there’s no way to make a career out of that. Change your mind. Then change it again because nothing is permanent. So make as many mistakes as you can. That way, someday, when they ask again what we want to be. We won’t have to guess. We’ll know"

I'm just not at that stage yet to know what i want. Maybe because im still detesting the idea of working too much right now all because im constantly labeling myself as a student. I know there comes a time where I'll need to work, when that time comes I will work. Meantime, I just want to do what I am suppose to do now. Perhaps I should revise my opinions, maybe I should look at the job attachment at a completely different angle. Who knows.

Monash Ball

Yes my best shot for the Monash Ball 2010. I did have a lot of fun, maybe because my secondary school's prom sucks because its not a prom and because its a boy's school, and Sunway College's graduation night just blows. So you can say its finally a dream come true for me, and i've never spent so much time shopping. 1Utama twice, Pyramid twice, and MidValley twice. Of course i did not coming back with harvest all the time, most of the time i went home empty handed but its a good insight into the current trend.
So i got my coat from TopMan with size 40 and shirt M size. Was taking L size initially but realized its too baggy so went for something slimmer. Belt's and undergarment's the same haha. I particularly love the pants, its from Sub, maybe because its size 34 (read earlier post) and i could fit it just well and i really love the slim cutting. Sub made a huge overhaul of their concept recently and i had the impression of their lala style untill i passed by the Sub concept store in SunwayPyramid, and i was stunned to find out - they have everything to my cup of tea. At least it made me feel like i DO HAVE AN ASS. Didnt get to see the shoes, HushPuppies leather shoes. Gosh you've got no idea how long i've spend shopping for shoes. Its a good 1 hour+ in the same department store section, the shoes either did not come with the size i want, or theyre simply ugly. Size 11, i finally found one! Got the socks right after that and im all prepared. Tie's from MyTieShop.

The whole outfit was pretty much a huge bet placed by myself. I know right away i wanted a formal looking blazier with more than just black colour, and i'd love to get a hand on the exact one i was wearing. Always had that imagine in my head just need to shop and hunt for it. Lucky me, i've found it. Actually i've spent a lot more time searching for it, untill the last shop with vincent and voon, i saw another guy put that blazier on and i was like "How could i have missed that?" because i was in TopMan earlier in the day. Shirt's the same thing. Pants i knew all along as well i dont want to have boring baggy slacks. Condition is not to have normal slack quality pants, and no baggy ones. So the hunt begun and i knew right away i could find one in Sub. I like the quality of the pants, its slightly leathery but has the jeans feel to it. It could really look formal and playful at the same time. For the shoes i know for my height i could not wear short tipped shoes, i have to get leather shoes with lengthen tips. Furthermore i dont want it to be plain black and with straps, i hate it, and i want some metal "thingy" to it. So i found one that i could just slip it in, with the silver tag in front with the brand name. Tie's cake. So yeah i have the image in my mind but god knows how it would turn out when i put everything together. And boy what a relieve, it did turn out good after all haha.

Satisfactory rating - 9.7 out of 10
Cost for the entire outfit? You dont want to know, but thank godness i've been saving for it so yeah.

Ball was just typical. Hell when they mentioned theyre up fro drinking afterwards at Library i'd thought its a club. Hell? Its a bar. I was like OH NO BUT I WANTED TO DANCE TONIGHT. Sat down regardless with tons of friends and enjoyed the talk. More like yelling for me. You know, the typical me got tipsy very fast. Somehow i ended up on a table with free flow of beer and ended up singing madly with bunch of people.
It was fun, at least in my definition of it, and at least for me. I did notice a few people have dissapeared, some went back earlier, some were actually feeling bored and were moving around and around trying to settle down, some threw up, and god knows what else. Oh wells, welcome to night life with night animals like me.

FUN NIGHT REGARDLESS, I ENJOYED THE COMPANY AND THE FUN A LOT!!

......Yeahhhhhhhh. Thats pretty much how i ended up. haha.

Fat

 

That, is of course NOT my body. However you should already have an idea whats today's entry will be about. FAT-ness!

 

I've been skinny all my life, never once fat, never once told im fat, and never looked fat. So yeah i went shopping yesterday in 1Utama for my Monash Ball outfit, wasnt very lucky, and so i went walking all by my own. Can you imagine, the entire mall has not a light-grey seemingly washed-out slim jeans that i could fit in? Every store i walk past i could literally hear the clothes and dummies point their finger and grasp their stomach while drown in laughter of my....fat-ness.

 

Seriously? One of the salesperson even indirectly told me i cant fit into one of the slim jeans with just one glance. SERIOUSLY? I must admit i was left pretty much devastated after yesterday. I couldnt find anything, can you imagine, 1Utama, and went home empty handed. Even my dad got couple of things geez.

 

So today went MidValley with 2Vs. Topman has a nice slim jean, but hell, size 34! GEEZ! I'm like just 1inch bigger or something and i relaly liked the jeans. DAMNIT! I couldnt bother to go into the details but yeah these two days hasnt been kind to me. I guess im like at the size of 35.5 or something, and the thing is when i feel my waist there aint no fats, i could feel my bone only.

 

Oh no, you mean because of my height and bone structure i could never fit in those awesome looking slim jeans? NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! ITS NOT FAIR.

 

P.S. basically im feeling to crappy to paragraph them nicely and mention all the details. urgh.

Photography

Its a tricky thing. Also a pain especially for me - I dont mind bringing the camera and taking good picture for people, only problem is THERE is no one there to take the picture for me!

 

 

Fanciful aint it? Its not my camera btw and i definitely do not own that lens. Its just that i am going for monash ball, and as much as i dont mind taking pictures of everyone else, i just hope i have as much photos of mines as the rest...and as good =P

 

So yeah, figures. Hopefully i could get someone.

 

Oh btw, today was a long day. I actually spent hours sitting in front of my school's comp with 2 of my other groupmates doing HYSYS. Was there since 2.30pm till 6pm. Crazy. It was tiring seriously, but somehow it felt good after all the exhaustion. Like some sense of achievement. Simply put it, we managed to solve the questions by in-depth thinking and lots of discussion and i've really felt that i've learn a lot from the assignment, and theyre exactly like howmy future jobscope would cover. I hope every assignment could achiev this as well, but that doesnt mean i shd get assignments 24/7!

 

So yeah, laters!